Semua Bab Alpha's Regret; She Has Our Son: Bab 11 - Bab 20

Lucien’s POVI watch with slouched shoulders and sad eyes as the car drives off, feeling an emptiness in my heart much bigger than when I set out. I wanted to be with her and her son, everything felt right about that. I stare off into the distance until the car disappears from sight. Then my phone buzzes in my pocket, pulling me from my thoughts.I pick it up, “Hello,” I say in a flat tone, a bored look in my eyes.“Lucien...”I sigh and massage my temples, “What is it, Letty?” It was bad enough that I had to deal with her every day at home, but having to endure her unnecessary attitude even when I was miles away was exhausting.“Lucien, I’ve been trying to call you all day. You weren’t picking up your phone,” she says in a whiny voice, which seemed especially whiny today, or maybe I was just irritable.“I was at a meeting, Letty. An important meeting I told you about before I left the house. The same one I explicitly told you I didn’t want to be bothered at...”“Babe, I can’t help bu

Alexa’s POVThe hallway of the hospital, although familiar because I’ve been here a lot of times before today, felt much bigger and colder. The smell of different drugs intoxicating the air made me feel nauseous, like the first time I walked through those doors. A little trip through memory lane, and I pull myself to the present as I just realized that I don’t know where the hell I’m going.“Alexa...” I hear my name from what sounds like a distance but is just right behind me, and I pull myself back to the moment. I turn around to peer at Drake, he has a look of worry on his face.“Alexa, are you okay?” he asks, peering at me. “It seems like we are going the wrong way, and we need to retrace our steps or maybe ask for directions because the drugs are messing up my sense of smell.” He glances around, his nose scrunches up in disgust.I nod, “Yeah, I think we should ask for directions. I can’t believe I got us lost in this place.”He suddenly pulls me close. I didn’t feel Drake besides

Alexa's POV“Umm, Alexa. Next week will be great. Liaise with my receptionist at the front desk, she will give you days when I’ll be free next week...”I merely nod, not trusting myself to speak.“Remember, early detection will help with the cure,” he explains to me.I am far too deep in my head to speak, “Of course, thank you, Doctor.”“You take care of yourself, Miss Dawn,” he tells me.I manage a small smile, “I will.”As I walk out the door, a beautiful sight greets me. Drake is sitting on the waiting chair, with his head against the wall, fast asleep. On his thigh is Trevor, who’s asleep too. Drake has his hands protectively around him, like they were father and son.I’m moved to tears despite my predicament, they are too perfect. I watch them for a while, taking the image of them to memory. The possibilities are endless, what could be, only if I let it.I am cruel, too cruel for being unable to love him. Drake is everything that any woman could want, he is more than a father to

Alexa povWith the surgery and work, there is so much on my mind, not to mention the fact that Lucien is a constant figure, making things easier for me. And now here's my kid who won't let the matter go. Well, he's four and never really had this, so how can I blame him?"So when is Lucien gonna come around again?" He asks so innocently, it's adorable, the kind that makes you forget you were pissed in the first place. "Am I gonna see him again?" With a hint of sadness in his voice and head dropped, he throws this question open to us both. Now, I personally want to shut this down, but at the same time, I don't want to hurt my boy, so I let Drake go first."Hey buddy, of course, we're going to see him again. I have some business with him, so he will be coming around much more often, and you can see him as much as you want. How does that sound?" Drake says smoothly without a glitch.He wasn't expecting the leap and hug from Trevor, but he welcomed it and returned it."Thank you, I'll be s

Alexa's POVAfter dropping off the documents with the finance department and giving them their orders, I head back to my office to get the little I can done and treat myself to brunch a bit later. I don’t show it, but I'm famished, and all I can think about at that moment is food. I'm a bit grateful that Drake doesn't have any more work cut out for him at the moment. Well, except the big question, which I still have to answer. I'm extremely grateful that he's not taking every moment of our time to notice and bug me about it. Time spent in his presence is fun and relaxing. I actually like spending time with him, and he's a great guy. I don't want to carry all my baggage and wreck that. This is just one of those thoughts that plague you when you're hungry, I guess, so I have to wrap this up and eat. ASAP. I'm just rounding up, and the intercom starts buzzing. I don’t answer at first because I don’t want anyone to know I'm in my office, and two, if it's Drake, I don't have the willpower