All Chapters of Fake It With Me, Anita: Chapter 21 - Chapter 28

ANITA'S POV Seeing Ryan's burning gaze locked against his father's flaming ones, I knew I couldn't stand there and do nothing. Especially when everyone was watching, his kids included, and I had been the cause of the tension even though I hadn't been the one who instigated it. His father's questions were natural of any genuinely caring parent. But Jayson Rivers didn't seem to be a caring parent. At least, not to Ryan Rivers. I reached out a hand and gently but briefly touched Ryan's hand. After a few painful seconds, he turned his gaze to me and I gave him a subtle smile, hoping he'd read the meaning in my eyes. 'It's okay, let me speak.' Turning to Jayson Rivers now, I gave him a light smile. "You're right, father," His gaze returned to me and a brow raised even though slightly, in surprise. I continued. "I'm sorry I hadn't come visiting before the news of my relationship with your son, Ryan, broke the internet." I paused, knowing what I would say next might surprise ever

ANITA'S POV I wasn't really one to go physical on anyone at all, most especially because I've experienced it first hand the damages physical abuse could cause. I hadn't really meant to slap Benedicta even though she deserved it, but the girl had pushed me too much I just knew I had to do something to shut up her loosed tongue. After we left the others at the dinning hall, on our little journey to the restroom, she hadn't bothered hiding her malicious intents anymore. I mean, I was just meeting the girl for the first yet she already harbored so much hatred for me that one would think I stole her boyfriend or husband. "You're just a miserable orphan with a little title to her name." She had said as we walked down the hallway and my eyes saw red. "Or do you really think that cold-hearted cousin of mine loves you? Oh, please, don't be so dumb..." She had continued as I walked into the restroom, following me in. "Ryan has only loved one woman all his life, and her last name

ANITA'S POV If anyone asked me what the longest day of my life was, someone might expect me to mention this day. But no, it's not today. Today's dramas were nothing compared to what I had been through in the past. And although, I've long moved forward, the shackles of my past however continue to weigh me down in form of trauma and those goddamned nightmares. If only I had thoroughly ignored that silly Benedicta, I wouldn't have been so riled up that I had to go through yet another unwelcomed episode of my traumatic life. And now, out of nowhere, Ryan and I are kissing! And of all places, it had to be in the guest restroom of his family's freaking manor! To top the list, what we're currently doing was clearly out of our agreement. And it's not like we both don't know. So what the fuck are we doing? Because this wasn't an act. It couldn't be called that. One moment, he was consoling me, speaking words of encouragement to me I hadn't ever received from any man before,

ANITA'S POV It's been a few weeks since our visit to R Castle. During these weeks, I had kept on with my life as usual, but I was now balancing my schedules between modeling shoots, runways and being a mom and a wife to Ryan and his kids. I even attended school events of Zach's and Zara's that needed my attention with Ryan sometimes. And even played barbie princess, knight in shining armor, prince and whatever roles the kids wanted to take on during the weekend. And truthfully, I hadn't ever felt as happy and strangely fulfilled as I've been since I came into Ryan's family and met his children. These cuties were already healing a part of me they didn't hurt or even have an idea how it hurted or why it did. I knew now that I would be heartbroken when the time came for me to leave them and move on with my life. And strangely, a greater part of me dreaded that day. Aside from the night when I had returned from R Castle, I haven't experienced my usual nightmares again e