JuliaIt’s been four days since Nina and I arrived at Riley's, and it has been both the best and worst four days of my life. The worst is because I’ve struggled with being inside a lot. I’m just not used to it, I'm used to being outside, and I never thought I’d struggle to adjust to being inside so much, but I am. I didn’t even struggle this hard when we were at the cottage, but maybe that’s because I knew deep down that it wasn't a permanent thing, whereas here with Riley, this could be a permanent place for us and that scares me.Another thing that scares me is just letting go. It’s putting my trust in Riley. He asked me to do it, and I am trying. He also asked me to let him take care of me and Nina, and I’m trying with that too, but it’s hard. I’m used to being independent, I’m used to being the one that Nina has to rely on.I’m used to being the one to constantly worry about where her next set of clothes will come from or her next meal, and now here we are in the penthouse of an ex
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