All Chapters of Mother, May I: Chapter 41 - Chapter 50

This feeling is so…strange. So different. I don’t really remember what my body used to feeling like, but it wasn’t this feeling. This is just…wrong. Too loose and limitless, yet too tight and finite at the same time. I stretch and feel my joints loosen and pop, my skin try to seize up. I hate this. This feels awful. I can’t stand to wear clothes right now. The feeling on my skin is like sandpaper. Like it’s slowly, painfully scraping away pieces of me. That is, when I have skin. Because I’m there are times where I become night. Where there’s nothing to my body and all I am is darkness. Living, breathing night. Just like my namesake. But my powers are more than than and I’ve only just started gaining them. I can become night. I can bring it on. I can become shadow and manipulate how deep and dark it is. And I can put others to sleep. For good. Not kill them, just…make them go to sleep. And they can’t wake up. Not unless I want them to. I’ve also gain

I have no idea what Amelia said to Ryder when I was in the gas station, but I came out to a completely different wolf. He had been an asshole the entire trip, but he was suddenly speaking in full sentences and even cracked a joke or two. Turns out, he and Amelia shared a love for 80s rock music and a horrible singing voice. We’ll just say that their duet to Carry On My Wayward Son would not be making it on CarPool Karaoke anytime soon. The 180 that our roadtrip suddenly took was so pleasant and fun all because of whatever the conversation was between Amelia and Ryder that I knew that I would have to reward her. We decided that we would camp out under the stars tonight. Here in the southern part of the US, it rarely gets to the point that we werewolves are cold, even in the dead of winter. And with the heat wave that had taken over during this part of mid-spring, it was perfectly acceptable for us to be camping. As we go further north, that same action is going to seem somewhat

“I fucking hate him!” I nearly scream as I throw the vase of black roses that he sent to me. “I can’t stand how he touches me or his fetid breath against my lips. I just want to fucking kill him!” “I know, Nyx, but you’ve got to wait. You know that isn’t his fate. You aren’t able to kill him. None of us are. We have to wait for the archangel to come.” Persephone tries to calm me. Since gaining my powers, Lucifer has loosened the reins on me. As his mate, I can’t be away from him for too long without feeling the effects. You would think that would make our matebond stronger. You would be wrong. See, with gaining my powers, I also figured out what my wonderful mate had in store for me. And we’ll just say that using me to create a child just so he can kill it with the same blade that he used to kill me so that he can absorb the child’s powers isn’t all that endearing. Problem is, in order to save not only me, but humanity from the fate of Lucifer becoming all powerful,

“Alright. Let’s run through it again,” I say to Freya. I’d already gotten a new pot of dirt and a seed pushed inside of it for the Earth challenge. The hose to fill the pool, a pot of matured white-tufted dandelions, charcoal bricks, and an ingot of ore wait outside the door for each of their turns to be manipulated and changed. “Are you fucking serious, Nate? We’ve done it four times already!” she whines. “And we’re gonna do it a fifth. Let’s go. Earth, Water, Wind, Fire, and Metal. In that order,” I tell her. She just stares at me incredulously, like I’m not speaking English. “Frey, you have to be able to use all of these spells on command, whatever order they say, whenever they say it. You have a start date for your trial, but that doesn’t mean that they plan on having you do them all at once. It could be back to back to back or there could be days in between. They could have you working with training the acolytes and then have you do all five trails at one time.

Waking up this morning, I hadn’t realized what a momentous day that this would be. I mean, I knew that it would be the start of my High Priestess trials. I had a fair idea that the trials would all take place fairly quickly since we’re at war with the biggest, baddest evil out there. I had even prepared for the fact that I would probably be doing all of them today. Nate had prepared me for that really well. Nate… Maiden’s keys, that male has me wrapped around his little finger. It’s like I can’t get enough of him, and he surely hasn’t been able to get enough of me. He brought me back to his rooms last night after I had recovered from all of the trials he had me complete and basically worshiped my body. It was like he couldn’t get enough. Thank Selene that I can’t get pregnant, since we aren’t mates. I was woken by an incessant mental poke for someone trying to mindlink me. For it to wake me up like this, it has to be from either a family member or an alpha wolf. And by t