‘What was I thinking just now?’ I shook my head. Laughing at my own silliness. Now, every time I see a combination of silver and gold, that man always comes to my mind without warning. Every time that happened, my heart would beat loudly. It was so loud I needed some alone time in case someone knew who I was thinking about. Then again, it's also ridiculous because no one will know what's in my mind unless that person can read it. Even Shan also never knew what that man looked like or what made me nervous every time he popped up in my mind. It was the first experience, and I hope the last, to dream something like that with another man. I'm ashamed to admit it, but just like that day, I experienced what young people usually go through; sexual frustration. 'Yeah, it happens normally with those who are young. I'm also still relatively young, right?' Moreover, I haven't felt that desire in all the years following my time looped, and Jermaine has never given me that need either. Coupled
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