All Chapters of Shift: Chapter 141 - Chapter 150

It had finally snowed. Overnight, the skies decided to dump a nice layer of snow over the entirety of the territory. Not having gone to sleep after the connection with Skylar, I ended up shoveling the driveway and the walkway into the house. There was a light dusting since then but it wasn’t bad enough to need to go over it again. I was leaning against the pillar of the deck as I looked out over the road. Sky texted me this morning that she would come by after having some coffee but never gave a specific time.‘I hate when she does that.’Niru chuckled. ‘I know you do. You’re brooding.’‘That’s not why I’m brooding.’He snickered. ‘Oh, I know.’ There was a pause before I could feel his excitement. ‘Were her lips soft? Or were you too stunned to even realize it?’Groaning, I tossed him and his snickering ass back. Niru hadn’t stopped making fun of me the entirety I was awake. Jabbing that I wasn’t in tune with my feelings and that I just let her take over. That I was Alpha but she woul

The next few days were exhausting but I felt like I wasn’t doing anything. Really, all three of us sat on the rug in the living with all the furniture pulled to the walls, and meditated. We were doing a lot more than that but it’s really what it looked like from the outside. Every day though, we went until I almost collapsed. Today I’d pushed myself further than I had and ended up being told to go to bed at six in the evening.Covering my eyes with my arm, I sighed. ‘I wish I was able to help more.’Niru hummed. ‘There is a reason why Justin is also our mate. You were never supposed to take on this burden alone, Ethan. You can’t discount all that you have done. Sky would have never been able to get this far and help him without you.’‘You’re surprisingly supportive today?’He flicked his tail. ‘Would you rather I make fun of you?’‘No.’‘Then take it and don’t question it.’I would have chuckled but honestly I felt too tired. At one point, I fell asleep but I woke up when the room was

*** Skylar’s POV *** ‘Sky…’I ignored Raine as I drove. All the windows in Thing were down and my face already felt numb as the cool air whipped around me. Blasting my playlist, I didn’t want to hear anything but the screaming and the wind. My own thoughts were my enemy right now. Even though it felt right now like Justin was my own enemy.Ethan made me believe that maybe there was something that motivated him outside of him just attacking Emmett. I believed Ethan, thought that maybe, Justin would have something that made sense. Something that I could have forgiven him for. Slamming my palm into the steering wheel, I felt the vibration in my other hand.I was so stupid. Seeing Justin in front of me, his eyes meeting mine, and I could feel my heart beat. It was like every feeling that I had for him roared back to life. The small moments we shared, the kisses, the touches, and just simple words of affection. His friendship meant so much to me. I’d done nothing but shove all those feelin

Anger, sadness, betrayal, everything I had felt when I heard Justin attacked Emmett roared to life but now it was regarding my own twin. My own fucking brother. What else had he done? What other lies was I not apart of? Who did he hurt?I couldn’t hold it in anymore as I leaned forward and wailed. Rocking back and forth, I tried to gather the pieces of myself but it was no use. Emmett never intended on coming here. He didn’t bother creating a home. Not here. Justin was right. Fuck. He was right and it felt worse than thinking he was wrong.My stomach rolled. Oh goddess. I was going to be sick. I needed out of here. Stumbling into the kitchen, I leaved over the sink and emptied my stomach. The apple, the coffee, hell, the lemonade from yesterday. It all burned as I threw it up, tears stinging my eyes. The cuts on my legs were leaving trails of blood and I grimaced. Taking out the pieces of ceramic, I dropped them into the sink before I felt my knees start to give.Sliding down to the fl

Everything now was hazy. At one point I think I may have picked myself off the floor. Or maybe it was Raine. She took over sometimes, gently nudging me out of the way. Most of the time though, I couldn’t feel her. I couldn’t feel anything.I spent my time curled up in the chair that faced the windows in my room. But I wasn’t seeing out. I wasn’t looking out. All my feeling was gone. Part of me half expected rogues to come attack and drag me back to the pack. Time continued to move and I’d been left alone.Wasn’t that what I wanted?What I asked for?Questions came and went in my mind but never any answers. Answers right now meant pain. All I wanted was to be numb. I didn’t want to feel anything. I didn’t even know who I was anymore.I probably should have been more alarmed when the creak of my bedroom door echoed in the room. Raine had tried to put some music on but I turned it off. Music was soul foo