In a trance like state, I walked back to my room. It felt like I was just gliding down the hallway, instead of lifting my legs and walking. When I got to my room, I went straight to the bed and dumped my body on it, not bothering to remove my shoes. As I sobbed that night, all the memories came rushing back. I remembered all the things that had happened to me, even before Edmund died. When I realised that I had never really been happy for a long period of time, I cried even more, letting everything out. I ended up falling asleep on top of the covers, my heels stuck to my feet. I woke up in darkness. It must have been at 4 or 5 am. Sitting up, I removed my shoes and tossed them to the floor. I got up, climbed out of the bed and walked to the window. I was feeling so melancholic and that made me wish I was human so that a fall could kill me and I’d be away from this world. A guard was walking in the backyard. I watched as he went to the pool sat on a lone chair and lit up a cigar. I w
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