All Chapters of The Howl Within: A Werewolf Romance of Love, Loss, and Legac: Chapter 41 - Chapter 43

But I did not want to get too lost in it. How could I ever wipe her off of my head when she was there in every beat in my heart, every breath I took? She has captivated me in a way none would ever be able to do, she trapped me under her unforgettable dazzling eyes. I felt guilty to even look at her after everything I put her through. Nothing can justify my actions, I did not deserve her. Despite everything I did, she was still trying to heal me, selfless and willing to forgive my sins that crossed every boundary. How could someone love a monster like me? How could she still care for a demon who left no chance to make her feel miserable and snatch everything away from her? She deserved better. But...I can't let her go. It was now a choice between her or my curse. The curse that helped me survive, or the woman who wanted to make me alive once again. “Alpha, I think you shouldn't drink anymore," Steve's voice broke through my crowded thoughts, "You have already consumed too much.”

He slowly closed the door, surprisingly not with a loud slam like all the other times. Something about him felt strange, at first, I could not identify it but when the smell of strong liquor hit my nose I finally realized why his movements were slightly unsteady. He was drunk. Alcohol and cigars were a part of his daily life, it was no surprise for me to smell alcohol from him, however, today he looked a bit too consumed by the effects of the liquor. His movements were barely collected. Deep down I was expecting the worst. Alex's arrival has never brought any good news for me. From the very first day, he stepped into my life, everything has been a living nightmare for me, that I wanted to escape so badly but failed every time. Perhaps, if someone else had brought me from the auction, things could have been even worse than this but, at the very least, I wouldn't have to live with the fact that it was my mate who left no levels to stoop to hurt me, put me through hell. He turned a