Zelda I was swimming in the depths of my mind. Nothing could touch me here. No loss, no pain, no anguish. I was free. As free as I have been for as long as I can remember I just wanted to stay here. I had a peace inside that I hadn’t known, even as a child I had never felt this calmness, this serenity. For once I had no fears, no cares, now worries. Nothing to weigh on my mind. I knew I had lost the child, every time that thought crept in, I pushed it away and swam deeper, feeling less and less each time. I couldn’t think about what had happened, I wasn’t sure what it meant, how I felt. This child I knew by the time it would be born I would love it, but I wasn’t sure those feelings existed yet. The only reason the child existed is because I was sold to someone for that purpose to be their breeder, I don’t even know how much of their life I would be a part of, so I didn’t want to get attached. However, now that it wasn’t a reality. I felt as if something had been taken from me and i
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