NIKOLAI.It’s not the wedding I planned but it’s not far from it either. It’s. . . . just perfect.Most people have glamorous dreams and fantasies about their wedding days, I did too, till I didn’t anymore. It might sound like an exaggeration to some people but my mother was the light of my life. When she died, it all went dark. Really dark.I started to feel less and less hurt till I couldn’t feel anything anymore. All my emotions were lost in the abyss of my hollow heart and along the line, I became a monster. My father saw a dark soul and instead of giving light to it, he made it into a monster. I no longer have nightmares about the day she died but I didn’t forget about it either. It’s still fresh in my memory. The way the air smelled that day. The wetness of the night and the way water dripped down my hair relentlessly. The heat that came with. The itch. The worry.The sound it made when it hit the ground, the screams and the grunts. It’s like I can still hear them, I can st

NIKOLAI. The pack meeting with the elders ran a little late. They actually had ideas to share, it’s a first. Maybe they were scared that I’d discard them if they were no longer of use to me. They were right to be scared but I’m still going to discard them if the only time they can work is when they’re scared. I need smart and capable people to help me rule this pack not sleepy old men that’s are scared of becoming completely useless and losing the only thing that gives them respect. Elder Donovan only attends meeting whoever he pleases now and for some reason it’s getting on my nerves. I used to enjoy his absence but now I think it’s just pure disrespect. Even if he’s like fifty years older than me, I’m still the king and should treat me as such.“Does anyone knows of Donovan's whereabouts or anything about him really.” Asking that question made me realize that Donovan is the only one of my elders whose family I don’t know about. Does he have no family? Where does he live? Who is

WINTER. The men heeded my instructions. They all came back alive but not with heads. They came back victorious though. They avenged the death of their men and there was peace in their eyes. They were still sober about their deaths, regardless. Nikolai and I waited the entire night for the men to return. I prayed that they would return because I wouldn’t be able to stop Nikolai from deploying his entire army and charging there to destroy the entire pack if any of his men failed to return. “You don’t have to wait up. I’ll let you know when they return.” He said trying to convince me to go to sleep. “You don’t have to wait up either. The guards will let you know when they arrive.” I responded and he knew he was not going to be able to convince me. “I can’t go to sleep after sending them on a deadly mission.” He retorted. “Well neither can I.” I shot back. “I’m the Alpha.” He said like that would actually have an effect on me. “I’m the Luna.” I tell him and he sighs, defeated. “

NIKOLAI.Alpha Jethro will not be pleased with what I did to his men and I’m not sorry about it. When he decided to retaliate, I will be ready. Winter's Luna duties are taking quite the toll on her, she’s not always been one of many friends. The women of the pack can be quite difficult, I’ll understand if she decides to stop seeing them. I’m even surprised she put up with them for so long. If they’re anything like the elders then she deserves an award for her perseverance. “You seem to be home a lot these days.” Her scent cradles my nose and gives me that comforting feeling. “Are you mad about it?” I tease and she smiles fondly. “A little.” She says and loosens the tight grip of her dress. “Talk to me.” I say and she shoots me a glance.“I like that you’re home but I don’t like that I’m not.” She whines and takes a seat on my lap. “You could be home more. It’s up to you.” I remind her that she could lessen her duties anytime and I won’t be mad about it.“I just started being Lu

NIKOLAI I’m really glad Winter insisted that we went. Jethro struck after all, the aftermath is not quite as heavy as I expected, none of my men are dead, good thing I informed them ahead of time to be ready for what’s coming. “What the hell happened here?” Winter asked, her eyes roaming the broken items in the room. “Tell me it’s not what I’m thinking.” Realization is beginning to set in but she’s pushing it away. She’s trying not to believe it. “It's exactly what you’re thinking.” I tell her and she starts to inch closer to me.“You don’t think they’re still here, do you?” I almost laugh but I manage to keep it in. She acts so tough in front of everybody else but she looks so scared right now. “They might be watching us right now.” I say seriously and she frowns and groups something beneath her dress, I don’t know what it is but I assume it’s the silver knife I gifted her after her fight with the hefty burger. “I’ll take the left and you’ll take the right.” She says and I ca