I looked at my hands, I can see dry marks of blood on them. Its color isn't fresh dark red anymore because it's been a couple of hours since that incident inside the parking lot. I didn't know that it could turn into a horrifying experience for me. I... I thought it was just a normal argument, a normal fight between exes, and ex-lovers. Nevertheless, I was completely wrong. I was dumb, I kept on trying to avoid being like her. The thought of me, being superior and fierce was like a key for me to prevent being like my deceased mother. I was so scared to die in vain like her, I was so scared to experience her horrifying life, that my mind didn't even think that I'm just a human being, that there are times that I'm weak, that there is someone who can suppress me... Because of my unrealistic ideals, I almost got raped by my fucking ex-lover. At that time, there was only one thing that crossed my helpless mind, to escape. I wanted to escape whatever it takes, even if I look dumb, helpless,
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