Semua Bab Loving You Was A Mistake: Bab 1 - Bab 10

Chapter 2 Is it Love or Hate? Few days later.... She was attending her last lecture of the day. She tries to concentrate on what the teacher is saying but she can't. She always seats in the first row, as it helps her not letting her mind anywhere else. But today this method also was not working for her. Her mind was again and again going on that mysterious man. She was sure that she has seen him anywhere else before but she can't remember where. She can't even remember the time. And for her the main issue is that these are already the last week of the semester and she don't even see him again after that day. She always tries to look for him whenever she had a chance to look around outside her class. She also waits for him on the main gate just like first time, but he was nowhere to be seen. After this week there will be final exams of the semester

Present Time... She was going through her Snapchat memories. Those photos were from the last day of her first semester. Her selfies, pictures with whole class, the happy moments of her group friends and with Rabeel. Seeing her selfies with her, the clips of her happy memories flow through her mind but end at the sad note. What she did to her leaves a thorn in her heart forever. At times she thinks, why she did all this to her. But she already knows all the answers. She put down her mobile and let her back rest on the sofa. She already has so much issues in her life to sort out. She does not have time for the past. As she thinks that her past has only added to her miseries. She has to survive in her present. Her 22nd birthday is coming up soon but before that she had to get a job. The reminder tone of her mobile reminds her that her interview is in 2 hours. She had to get ready. S

Again, the night was restless today too for her. She was tossing and turning on her bed. Tears were just uncontrollably flowing out of her eyes, despite of all her attempts to not to cry.             After sending the files through e-mail on time she was just like this. She thinks of sleeping but that seems impossible to herself.             In the end she just sits up and holding her knees, she gave in to all her sorrows. She cries harder, holding herself tighter.             He just appears again. When she was finally ready to move on. Despite of her hate for him, her love is always more. And from her love for him, the broken pieces of her heart are even more.   With her cries getting intense, she was shaking badly. As always, there was no one to hold

PRESENT TIME… A week had passed. And every day was same. Starts with load of works and sometimes with some mental torture. And ends with the announcement of tomorrow’s workload. She was already feeling tired of her dream job. At first, she wants to continue her job no matter what as she loves her work but everything is falling apart here for her. Every day her hopelessness is only increasing. Now, she was hesitating. Her boss and colleagues were welcoming and friendly to her but suddenly her boss is clearly showing his dislike for her and all her colleagues are keeping their selves at a distance from her. This is too much for her. Only Maira came for her help whenever she gets a chance. Many times, she would be chased away by boss or his assistant but she always comes back. Finding a friend in her in this chaos is a blessing to her. She was deliberately ignoring the fact of involvement of Ahmer in her misery bu

At Weekend… The empty boxes of pizza and other fast food with bottles of drinks were scattered on the table and Nisha can be seen sitting on one of the chairs around the dining table holding her head with both of her hands. Ansha was sitting beside her with her hand on Nisha’s back, trying to comfort her and let her digest the news, with a face full of unexpected grievance mix with confusion and expected reaction of Nisha. “Nisha! 10 minutes are already passed. When are you going to lift up your head? Just say something.” “SOMETHING!” Nisha replied, never lifting her head up for even once. “Are you serious?” “So, what did you want me to say?” She was sulking but this time she lifts up her head.” “Scold me please.” Ansha said to her with her eyes facing south. “By which right?” “Only you have this right.” “Then you should have come at once to me. On the ver