Guilty pleasures のすべてのチャプター: チャプター 61 - チャプター 70

From smoking Marijuana to sneaking out at night, Jacob became more brave. He now just lazed around all day whilst I handled life. Soon I was on maternity leave and Jacob promised to handle the house, financially.He called up his step brother and made arrangements for a job.It was the most miserable days to come.Every morning, the fat old bloke would come to my house and I would have to make him coffee and breakfast.It actually started of by Jacob asking me to send coffee in a flask each and every morning.I could not understand how this had become my duty when the man had a wife and a mother.If I didn't, Jacob would curse at me. The foul language that past his lips at me was definitely something to be avoided.After almost two months of working at this job for most of the day and night, taking away precious time from our babies, Jacob was not compensated for anything. My car was a mess, he had transported dirty car parts for his step brother, with my vehicle, my gas and my time.

I bash myself emotionally everyday, trying to figure out where I had gone wrong. What had I had done wrong to be an option in his life.As the days went on , I concentrated on my kids.Sarah,oh so strong and stubborn Sarah was now just a choice in Jacobs life.One busy summer's day,I received a call.Jacob had told me he had lost his job."victimisation was his excuse." I questioned nothing further. I believed his words. I rushed from work to give him my car so that he can apply for another job that he had said was already lined up.Little did I know the job lined up was the woman he had lost his job for.Jacob sat at home,whilst I worked and paid bills.I did not mind. I thought this phase would pass.Until he had set up a hijacking with his friends and his brother.Looking back at it now, he had done so much wrong behind my back. Things I had learned off later on in life. Like such a criminal activity ,such as hijacking,car theft which he had made many thousands from.Money that I d

I snuck into the house, like a thief, making sure not to awaken my mother. She did not know that I had snuck out just hours ago. I looked at the silver clock above the arch , it was already 5am.Jumping straight into the shower I scrubbed myself until the skin broke and droplets of blood oozed out. The pain from the bruising could not compare to the pain o felt inside.I dressed in my pajamas and headed straight for bed. Drawing the blinds shut, I drifted into a dreamless sleep.3months later.I spent three months of my life crying. Who would want a pregnant ,tainted woman like myself. I was spiralling down into a deep dark place. If it was not for the baby I carried in my womb, I would have ended my life.It broke my mother's heart when I finally found the courage within me to tell her the truth.I never went back to the mansion after that day. My mother,being a single parent was like a superhero but I felt the depth of her wound. She blamed herself for my misfortune." I have made

"Wow, look at your face." Tyler clapped and laughed loudly." Can't I make a joke. Is it only you who can be humourous?"I didn't know why I was surprised. I shouldn't have cared if he was angry , but somehow I did." So, you aren't upset that I am pregnant?""Of course not Larna. I had known the very first day I met you."I wondered how, I knew only a male wolf would smell my pregnant scent but he was a man." But how?""Your aunt Tess." Tyler smiled.Silly me, how could I possibly think this kind man was a wolf. He was too plain and simple. He smelled of fresh lavender and sunshine. Every possible way a human male smelt and behaved." To be honest, Larna, I really like you. You make the most putrid tasting coffee but I will still drink it."I burst into laughter," my coffee is horrible but you still want to drink it? Why would you possibly want to torture yourself."" Yes. As long as I get to see your pretty face. Anything made by your hand is special."" Tyler, I hate to be a buzz k

The alarm went off at seven and I rolled out of bed. I had started getting used to moving much slower than usual as my belly started to grow. Saterday had literally jumped up on me,the three days went by so quick, I didn't have time to prepare myself mentally. Every day for the last three days, Tyler reminded me of this day. It has become like a chant. In the past three days my coffee just got more pathetic and he still drank it .I had a warm shower and dressed into some comfortable clothes as he had told me. He asked me not to have breakfast so I sat and stared at myself in the mirror for a while, trying to figure out what to do with my long, brown hair. I still had twenty minutes before he would arrive and I spent all twenty minutes, braiding, twisting, tying and plaiting my hair. I eventually settled on a high ponytail once I heard him hooter outside. My heart was beating so fast ,I thought it would pop out of my chest. It felt nice to just be a normal girl, amongst humans in th