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the lonely wolf (bxb) survival instinct
(Elias) It's been a week since I've been getting counseling. It's not that great, but at least it was somewhat helping me. I didn't like talking about my past, it brought up a lot of unwanted memories. But the good thing was that forest was there for me, he made sure I was ok and he has been my rock through it all. I have also been going to sign language class, which was helpful in some aspects. It's late night now and it was raining. I hated the rain, especially what comes with it. The lightning and thunder were both scary, I'm not sure how forest had made it through before when we were all alone, but to tell you the truth it wasn't because we weren't strong and right now it was being proven. I was a coward, hiding under the bed with a flashlight as I trembled from fright was not very manly of me was it? No. I was about to pass out any minute now as the crashing sounds from the thunder echoed through the house. Forest was long gone, hiding as well because he didn't like experienc
the lonely wolf (bxb) searching for him
(Ryker) Where is that asshole? I've been searching for him ever since my father dumped that speech on me the other day, but it seems as if he had disappeared off the face of the planet. His scent was gone so I couldn't find him, all because I had rejected him. My temper was getting the better of me, I was lashing out at everyone because my idiot of a father kept on reminding me that I had to find him or suffer the consequences as if I gave a damn. Why must I go through so much? Why can't I choose someone for myself instead of wasting my time on an unwanted rogue? Maybe I should have killed him when I had the chance, then and only then I would have been free of him. " another one." I said as I slammed my glass down on the countertop startling Ella, my bartender in the process. " don't you think that's enough for now?" She asked and I glared at her. Stupid is as stupid does. " I'm a fucking werewolf, I can't get drunk so give me another one." she nodded her head and went on to do
the lonely wolf (bxb) a warning
(Elias) " what's one thing that you have always wished for?" My therapist Abigail asked as she looks at me. I was sitting on a couch while she was in a chair in front of me. She had a book and a pen waiting to write down anything she found interested, typical therapist. She is also a werewolf which was easier for me to communicate with her through mind link. ' when I didn't have a home or anyone to take care of me, or to call a family. When I was all alone I have often wished, no prayed for death to come my way. It was one thing I needed more than anything else in the world.' She looks at me with pity, something that I didn't like but I have always been on the receiving end of it. She started writing down what she felt was important before focusing her attention on me once more. " tell me about your school, were you being bullied there or did you have a lot of friends?" She asked and I sighed, was this necessary? ' I had friends, some who even looked up to me because I was suppose
the lonely wolf (bxb) a friend in need is a friend indeed
(Elias) 'come on, what's the harm in trying?' Raina asked as she started following me back to my room. After I left the forest where the stranger warned me about my mate, I went back to the pack house so I could get something to eat and take a shower. I had something to eat and now I was on my way to take said shower when Raina came up to me, talking nonstop. ' I said no before raina and I'm still saying no. What use would that be for me?' I asked in an irritated tone as she continued to disturb me. ' you could get your tongue back, I know I'm not as perfect as my family, but I could get you your tongue back. The sad part is you still won't be able to talk but at least I would help you in some sort of way, please?' I sighed as I glared at her. Persistent bitch. ' I'm not a lab rat Raina, I don't want to be experimented on.' she rolled her eyes while folding her arms. ' I won't be experimenting on you, you doofus. I will only use a spell I learned from my cousin Kat, it will be as
the lonely wolf (bxb) a different side of me
(Ryker) I didn't think about the consequences, nor did I care that much. It was irrelevant, to waste my time thinking about someone that I hated. someone, I should be spending time searching for instead of Fucking Sheila. It has always been something that I have done before and I wasn't going to stop because of a mutt. I know that he would feel the pain, that he would be suffering all because he didn't accept my rejection. It's his fault though, not mine. " harder Ryker, don't stop." Sheila said as she screams out loud, which told me I was hitting the right spot. " that's it, right there! Ahhh!" Bitch can you shut the fuck up? Her constant talking and screaming were turning me off, but it was cheap pussy so I continued plowing my way through it. I had been thinking before, making her my chosen mate but I decided against it. I don't know why, but something was telling me not to. After we were done, I got rid of her. No use keeping her around when I got what I was looking for right
the lonely wolf (bxb) the pain and suffering
(Elias) I didn't return to the pack house. It wasn't because I didn't want to, it was only because I couldn't. No matter how many times Raina suggested helping me, I refused. No matter the amount of times forest suggested he take over, I blocked him. As Raina sat next to me on the bed placing a warm cloth on my forehead, another wave of pain hits me and this time it was the worse. I knew what it meant, I figured it out the first time it had happened before. The only thing I've been saying to myself was that I deserved it. I deserved the pain my mate was giving me, all because I didn't accept his rejection. I could have written it down or found a way to communicate with him, but I didn't because I was fucking stupid. Raina's sobs could be heard throughout the room I was in as she kept on begging me to let her take my pain away. I shook my head as I started trembling, bracing myself as she picks up the bucket she places there for me so that I could empty my stomach. Forest was trying
the lonely wolf (bxb) redeeming myself
(Elias) The next morning when I woke up I was feeling much better, thanks to Raina and forest for helping me. I didn't want to go back to the pack house because I loved it here, but Raina told me that Lilliana was asking for me and said she got mad at her for not being home. I didn't want to come between their friendship so it was better if I head back. ' remember you can visit anytime, just call for me and I'll get you here even if you want this place to yourself, it's yours now too.' I nodded my head as Raina went into serious mode. She was also unhappy that I was leaving, but I guess she'll get over it soon. ' and also remember if you need help with anything, don't hesitate in asking me. I'm your friend, well your only friend so that's what I'm here for.' I rolled my eyes as she continued to talk, I was on the verge of breaking her neck if she didn't shut up. Then she went on to ask me when my birthday was and when I got kicked out of my pack as if she didn't want me to leave so
the lonely wolf (bxb) accepting my rejection
(Ryker) It's been almost two weeks now and still no sign of that damn mutt. I continued my search, in hopes of finding him so I can get the elders off my back. They were planning on visiting, just to make sure I was carrying out their orders and that's the lowest point I have fallen so far. I was not one to follow, I was the one who leads. That's why I'm an alpha, no other title would fit my description and I was happy about that. The alpha title was originally for my brother and I since we are twins, we both have alpha blood but he was the immature one. He didn't want the title and was already running from it, only showing his face around here when necessary. ' alpha can you come outside? There's someone here to see you.' Damian said, disturbing my thoughts. I sighed as I made my way outside to see what was so important and why he sounded so..scared. Max was pacing in my mind, finally showing his presence which had me wondering why he chose this moment. Once outside, I saw a crow
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the lonely wolf (bxb) Bonus chapter (Part four)
(Raina) I was walking around with Elias and Kat, trying to stay focused on their conversation as they tried hard to include me. But, I found myself spacing out as I recalled what had happened between Parker and I. It seems as if I was a fool, to run from him the way that I did, when I should have stayed and talked to him. Now, I was feeling a bit guilty. I bit my finger as I continued to think about him. The look on his face right before I teleported would forever be etched into my memory. “I'm such a bad mate.” I said out of nowhere, putting a pause on the conversation between Elias and Kat, I had no idea what they were talking about, so to me, it wasn't that important. “What? What did you do?” Elias asked, giving me an accusatory look. I rolled my eyes and ran my hand through my hair. “Well, Parker and I hadn't been intimate at all. He's trying to hold back for my sake because he knows that I'm not ready.” I looked down, currently beating myself up because of the way I acted. I
the lonely wolf (bxb) Bonus chapter (Part three)
(Raina)Being a witch wasn't easy for me. Going through training and at the age of twenty was a difficult task. My birthday is coming up, but I still felt like I wasn't mature enough. I couldn't even get Elias to continue his training. He forfeited it because he thought that he would change. I would have been there for him, but he wasn't ready, so I supported him either way.It's been a week now since Jason had left, and that's the last time since I have seen Elias. I'm sure he had a lot to do, but I missed my friend. Today, I was fully prepared to go over to his pack and demand that he visit me often. That would be selfish of me, but at this point, I didn't care. I needed the distraction. Why? Because of Parker Johnson, my mate and linker. I haven't formed a bond with him as yet. He knew the reasons, so he chose to wait until I was ready. I am not even sure if I'm going to ever be ready. How can I mate with someone who was working for my aunt? I still haven't come to terms with that
the lonely wolf (bxb) Bonus chapter (Part two)
(Jason) “Are you sure there's nothing I can do for you?” Killian asked for the tenth time. I shook my head, making him sigh with frustration. I don't understand why he cared though, I mean, this is my fate. The goddess chose not to give me a mate. The most I can do is mourn the loss of something that I could have had. “Look, I get that it's difficult. You had hopes, and it was torn away in the blink of an eye. You're welcome to stay here as long as you want.” Did I want that, though? I was still tempted to visit other packs, even though I wasn't even sure if I had the luxury of getting a second chance mate. “I would rather leave, I don't think there is a reason for me to stay here.” I snapped, making him flinch as I gulped down the remaining liquor that Killian gave me earlier. “It's only customary for me to…" I slammed the glass down on the kitchen counter. Killian jumped a little from my sudden burst of anger. “It's only customary, my ass! You're only doing this because you fee
the lonely wolf (bxb) Bonus chapter (Part one)
(Jason) I hated to admit it, but I was in love with Elias. The only way to remain sane was for me to leave. I didn't intend to stay this long, though, but being in the company of Elias, I didn't have any intention of leaving. I felt comfortable around him. Every so often, I wish that he was my mate, but that was me taking this further than it already was. Given the fact that I'm almost forty and Elias is nineteen, it would have looked unfortunate on my part. Plus, he's basically my nephew. Since he's Samuel's adopted son. Fuck, there were so many cons if I was ever to pursue something with Elias. I sighed as I waved goodbye to everyone who was there to see me off. I may have given up on finding my mate before, but I guess I should start trying for the sake of my sanity. The first place, for my trip, was to search at the pack that Ryland found Kai in Canada. I don't even know if I'm going to have that much of luck as Ryland did, but I have to give it a try. If I fail, then there a
the lonely wolf (bxb) Epilogue (Part two)
(Elias) Going to therapy once more with Ryker, it felt strange. I wanted to tell Sally that she wasn't needed here anymore, so she could go back to her pack, but I wasn't sure how I was going to do so without sounding rude. I had already spoken to Lilliana about it, and she was happy that I had come to terms with everything that had happened to me in the past. But, she wanted to make sure that I was mentally capable of moving on. I had to think about it, and my final answer was yes. I am able to move on without therapy without having flashbacks, without having to go back to the cave where I felt safe. Forest also came to terms with what had happened to him, to us. He accepted his future without any complaints. Now, it was time to put the past behind us. Ryker, well, he also agreed with this. He didn't need therapy anymore, since he was adamant that he had changed. There were bound to be some slip ups, but we could work on that ourselves. So, with that being said, we sat in thera
the lonely wolf (bxb) Epilogue (Part one)
(Ryker) Today, it was full here as everyone decided to use this day to party. To let loose and have fun, but while they were dancing, I was moping. Why? Because of Jason. He was all over my mate. The two of them were dancing as if they were lovers. Even though that wasn't the case, I still had a strong urge to go over to where they were and rolled them apart. The only problem was Max. He kept me rooted to the spot. I couldn't move since he took control of my body. He knew how dark my thoughts had gotten and was trying to get me to stay as far away from Elias and Jason as I could. I didn't care if they were having fun. The only person who was allowed to grab his ass like that was me. I huffed and tried to fight for control once more but failed miserably. 'Fuck you Maxwell.' I said, using his full name. He laughed, at the way I was acting. It wasn't funny one bit. 'Loosen up, will you? You know that today is the last day Jason will be here. He's leaving to search for his mate, I t
the lonely wolf (bxb) My best friend
(Elias) Time flew by so quickly that I celebrated my birthday on January 20, and now I'm nineteen years old. Everyone was there to support me. That day, I was sworn in as the Alpha of the Red Forest Pack. A pack that is now combined with The Dark Sea Pack. Now, Kai is the only Luna for The Dark Sea Pack. I could never see myself as a Luna or even a warlock. It was hard for me to accept those, knowing that I was never going to be happy. But now that I have what was originally mine, I felt like I finally felt like I belonged. Like I was finally wanted. I am currently at Lillian's, talking to her. She wanted to know if I was alright, after everything that I had been through. All the struggles that I had faced, the hardship, the pain. All of that is now in the past, and it's time for me to move on. After my talk with Lilliana and promising her that I will continue my therapy session, I was finally able to spend some time with Raina. She told me that she wanted me to meet someone, I wa
the lonely wolf (bxb) Loving him
(Ryker) I had to admit, what Forest said had left me thinking about taking him in more ways than one. Elias eventually took control, and when he saw the look on my face, he started blushing. “And yet, you claimed that you weren't gay.” Ryland said. I narrowed my eyes at him for interrupting my thoughts. “Dad already scolded me for that countless times, I don't need to hear it from you too.” I replied, making him chuckle. “I got it from him, I remembered that he asked me to use that line against you whenever you're stating at Elias as if you want to eat him.” I flinched at his reply, Max chuckled since he could tell why I reacted the way I did. After a couple more minutes, everyone was ready to leave. Raina teleported us back to my pack. Then, she left with Lilliana and the others. I told Damian and Miles to take them to a room while I followed Elias. He still had Liam wrapped in his arms, I didn't know how I'm going to get him to take a break, but I needed his help with a little
the lonely wolf (bxb) The speech
(Elias) I can't believe that I'm back, I didn't think that it was possible for me to be here, but it did work. I was fading, along with everything that was tied to Amaros. Since I was his son, I would have vanished forever. But, despite my hatred for Andrea, she found a way to help me. Now, here I am, surrounded by my family, the ones who care about me the most. But, what caught my eyes more was my brother. I still considered him my brother, regardless of what his parents had done to me in the past. I didn't consider them my parents, as much as I wish that things were different, it wasn't. “What's his name?” I asked Ryker, who had me wrapped in his arms. I continued to stare at my brother, who was with Lilliana. It seems as if she doesn't have any intention of letting him go. “It's Liam. He's an omega, at least that's what Asia told me.” Ryker replied. Lilliana walked over to me and smiled. “Would you like to hold him?” She asked. My eyes became wide as I looked at my brother, I
