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the new me

Author: Princessjody
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(Elias)

' I really want to know what I should do Raina. Should I forgive him or not?' I was confused. My feelings were getting stronger and stronger as the days goes by for Ryker and I didn't know what to do. Raina and I are currently at the tree house hanging out after I told her that I wanted to come here.

" I can't tell you what to do Elias, that would only confuse you more. You should look deep within yourself to see if this is what you want or not. Only you can answer that question." I groaned at her reply and shook my head. This didn't make any sense, none of it did.

' how can I know the answer when I'm so confused? It doesn't matter if he's my mate or not, I just don't know if I should trust him or...or forgive him for what he did a-and try to move on. I can't...." I started to sob as I looked back at all the things I've been through. All I wanted was love, I wanted a family dammit! Was that too much to ask for?

What wrong have I done to be treated like this? Life is not fa
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