Wait for me

  Why does he have to end it now?, He left me at a vulnerable state, "time to go* he whispered in my hears before standing, It seemed like ages but i finally responded, and in no time I found myself at the entrance of my house, my joy knew no bounds, I never knew I would be this happy coming back home.

  

       But I still feel queasy about Kate's sudden disappearance, Mr grumpy over here wouldn't give me an answer to her whereabout, ever since we left the enormous building he hasn't uttered a word.

        I knew he wanted to get rid of me, and it's a miracle that I am still alive and well, to be with a mafia for hours without being killed, and I was at my worst, I guess I should thank him for that.

       "Thanks, for letting me live, I knew I have troubled you quite alot….. these past few hours with you has been…. both horrible and entriging, I never knew ...my first kiss and ….attempt sex would be with …. Ehmm a mafia boss, never in my widest dream". 

      Why did I say that, jeez Lily why can't you be normal, just leave the car, thank your stars you can walk, leave!!!!!, My inner voice screamed at me, but I couldn't get myself to move an inch, I just wanted him to say something in return.

        I waited for a reply but it seems he won't reply, maybe I should just give up I am so disappointed, I would have listened to my conscience and left, but my heart wouldn't let me, it's a losing game anyway.

      Hmm I bowed my head in disappointment as I made attempt to leave the car…" please, wait for me" he said without looking at me, does he mean I should wait outside the car or something?.

      what does he mean by wait for me,?, before I could process the word,he leaned close to me and gave me a slight kiss on the lip, I leaned in for more, but he was gone like he wasn't there at all

     the door was opned in a swift, he stood there with a poker face signalling me to leave, I hesitated at first, is this a good bye?, I should just leave, I am home now and that's all that matters. 

     I came out of the car, walking slowly and hesitantly towards the front door, I could hear his pitapat movement, he really wanted to get rid of me that badly, get a grip of yourself lily, just ring the bell and everything will come to end, I said to myself 

          I rang the bell severally but no one responded, I guess they were all out, it's already 1pm, that means the spare keys were under the carpet, Mr grumpy, already left and I didn't have the chance to ask him his name.

          I need to call Kate, I hope she's ok, I tried calling her but it diverted to a voice message, " hey Kate, where have you been, I have been trying to reach you for ages, what happened last night, please return my calls, I am really worried".

      I hope she's ok, I haven't seen her since yesterday,when she left with the strange guy at the club, I need to take a cold shower, it's been a long weird day, hmm these clothes would help me remember Mr grumpy, I need to keep it safe, he might come to me after a millions years Asking for the money back.

        After taking a cold bath, I felt relaxed, and my conscience was at ease, I could start all over, first I need to eat something, I am famished, luckily there were leftovers in the refrigerator Mac and cheese.

         I could eat a whole bowl right now, it's been twenty minutes and Kate hasn't returned my calls, maybe she's busy, with her newly found friend, or maybe she's in trouble the Kate I know would never get into trouble,she learnt judo, and loved fighting.

     She has a black belt now, I have seen her fight a park of hefty men that were armed, with no bruise sustained, with her I am totally invisible, so maybe I should just sleep over it, she's ok, nothing can happen to the almighty Kate.

       If she doesn't respond when I wake up, I would visit her to know if she is ok, I guess I need a little sleep, I took my plate to the sink, as usual there's a torn of dirty dishes to attend to.

      I wouldn't dare leave them unattended, I had to tidy the dishes before going to bed, " izzy pizzy" taking care of the dishes is the most easiest chore so far, compared to laundry, I volunteered to take care of the dishes, while my mom does the laundry.

      In no time I was done with the dishes, and I guess it's to hit the bed next, I hope to feel allot more better, when I wake up, I changed into a loose cloths while I folded the clothes, Mr grumpy bought for me, it's the only thing left of him.

     Though he is scary sometimes, but I enjoyed his company and silly jokes, his cute face when he's said , it felt like I have known him for a long time,, hmm I wished he hugged me before he left 

      "Please wait for me", what does he mean by 'wait for me', wait that mean he would come back for me?, If he would, I would probably wait for him, ever since I met him at the club I knew it was love at first sight, I would love to see him again.

       What have I gotten myself into, I am only sixteen years, and just finished highschool, it's just the beginning of my journey and I am already falling apart he would never want me, he probably kissed me, since we didn't have sex, that's just men for you 

     He's a gangster, and his is a fine looking man, every woman would tremble just by looking at him, elegant and beautiful woman would fall at his feet I am no match for him.

    I have zero percent chance of being with him, I should just appreciate the fact that I am alive, and my first kiss was with a man that fits my list of a perfect boyfriend.

      I always fantasize a fine looking man beside me, who was calm, sweet and romantic when he was with me, and when he's outside, he's a bad boy, with a leather jacket, I adore men with long hair, and Mr grumpy had a very beautiful brown hair.

     Oh my goodness, sleep lily I grabbed a pillow, as a cuddle buddy, For the main time as I pictured my Mr perfect, in my mind, indeed you don't know how important a person is until you loose them, I hope I haven't lost him.