Chapter 40Enjoy Being A Slut?"She will" she said assuring and then composing her feelings to herself as if she wanted to say something but couldn't.."Can you cook Edwin?' she changed the topic "this barbecue is amazing.""Yeah I did try to bake a cake once but later used it as a hammer." he said trying to make her laugh. He hadn't invited her to sulk over his love story."Good then how about coffee?" she asked like an interviewee."Yeah that I am good at. We used to have lot of alcohol in nights during our college days so to survive next day in the morning, I had to excel at coffee." he explained."I thought you'd say I tried with tea and ended up making coffee." She mocked.They spent the evening laughing and chatting over silly things. Though some talks were not even worth a giggle but yet Iris laughed at it. She even laughed when Edwin narrated\ "I had to eat boiled eggs for a week as a punishment when I threw a glass of milk in the basin hiding it from my mom because I hated
Chapter 41Reflections Of The PastHow could she enjoy being forced into $ex?Specially when she knew she was in lo.....'Screw it!' she dismissed her inner turmoil 'I am committed. But I don't want to enjoy. I can keep a façade. Act as if I am enjoying, finish my job and go back home.' Jason picked her bridal style and took her to bed.Iris forced a smile, something she was good atHe moved his hand from her soft cheeks feeling her skin from her forehead as he tucked the dark lock of hair behind her ear then moving to eyebrows, eyelids followed by nose, lips as he pressed her red lips with his pointer and inserted his finger through into her mouth then sucking them.A chill ran down her spine and a moan escaped her mouth.A complete strange feeling that she had for the first time. His hands were moving slowly and softly touching her like a rose petal and she liked it. This was the enjoyment he was talking about. 'I do not want to enjoy', she repeated in her head as if it would les
Chapter 44'She's Mine Forever???....Why do I have to be in so much pain?Why do I love him?How can I be not happy when my love is happy?I am truly truly happy for Edwin.With my heart and soul I admit to myself that though I lost his company and I am okay with it because I wouldn't want to meet him again and disturb his married life.I am contended in my heart that he is happy. He's got what he wanted. I am sure he did because even god cannot be rude to a good soul like him. And how can any of the girls in the universe be stupid enough to give up a guy who loves her like crazy?Surely the girl might be a fool and Stella I know is not a fool. She is an educated, sensible and down to earth girl. I can say that because the way Edwin loves her she's got to be special. Only if I met him before Stella did.....Only if I lead a normal life like any other girl.....But if that was the case I wouldn't have met Edwin ever so.......' She wished she had her mother or best friend to talk
Chapter 46 Ugly EndingToday was the end of it. End of her life as Rosie and all the things that came along with it including Edwin. How much so ever it hurts her but she was leaving Edwin and his friendship as she was leaving the town today itself after she joined her new job. She had already booked a small apartment on the ground floor there to set in with her dad and brother. Her dad's hospital formalities have been taken care of and once she was settled in there she'll pick him up from the hospital. Her brother and father can now take care of each other though they are hardly capable of looking at themselves. So she appointed an in house nurse who could help her..She was lost in her thoughts wondering and calculating about her life there and how she'd mange things there when she heard the arrival of a speeding car and halting with a screeching brake.It was a small lane where her rented house was located, narrow enough to fit only one four wheeler with a walking person.The
Chapter 42Love And Friendship"One thing is for sure I know I have gained something- Love, eternal love. Love for Edwin, which is all about giving as I do not expect anything from him and yes I am not going into that prostitution thing forever." Iris realized she was talking to her own reflection in the mirrorAm I going mad?Yes madly in loveShe giggled like a teenager in love that she was.However hardcore she had been or tried to be, she decided not to go to that hellhole ever.She picked the faded towel that needed replacement, it was too ragged and old from the rack, She wiped herself slid into pajamas and a tee firmly determined to go look for a job.No more slutting, no more studies, a steady job with enough pay to bring her dad home from hospital and feed both dad and brother and live like a normal girl. She decided go to Ben's and check for the most suitable jobs for her profile with the help of his laptopWait a minute.....'How did Ben come to know where I live? Was he
Chapter 43Happy Being In LoveIris was speaking something and Edwin was not able to catch a word out of it. He liked her. He enjoyed spending time with her, no offences. In fact she was the only thing that was keeping him sane after Stella left He adored her sense of humor that existed even after being through so much in life and also these few days he could see a new spark in her.He was about to ask her "why are you so happy and cheerful these days?" but he stopped himself. She was an independent girl who does not like much interference in her life. But it's nice to see her full of life.He's always amused at the teeny meeny incidents of her young age that she shares. But.... Today he was too damn distracted to hear what she is saying."Edwin. Why don't you speak up?" She asked as she pushed a lock of her black hair behind her ear. They were sitting in the garden lounge of one of Edwin's farmhouse at a distance from the city. The cool breeze blowing was enough to send shiver
Chapter 44'She's Mine Forever???....Why do I have to be in so much pain?Why do I love him?How can I be not happy when my love is happy?I am truly truly happy for Edwin.With my heart and soul I admit to myself that though I lost his company and I am okay with it because I wouldn't want to meet him again and disturb his married life.I am contended in my heart that he is happy. He's got what he wanted. I am sure he did because even god cannot be rude to a good soul like him. And how can any of the girls in the universe be stupid enough to give up a guy who loves her like crazy?Surely the girl might be a fool and Stella I know is not a fool. She is an educated, sensible and down to earth girl. I can say that because the way Edwin loves her she's got to be special. Only if I met him before Stella did.....Only if I lead a normal life like any other girl.....But if that was the case I wouldn't have met Edwin ever so.......' She wished she had her mother or best friend to talk
Chapter 30Doubts in love? NayShe's Mine ForeverThousands of doubts were bubbling inside Edwin"Do I loose her again?Will she understand?Will I ever be able to explain to her?Will she listen?Would she trust me?And lot more. ............"He got up from the plastic chair and headed towards her not blinking an eye staring at her waiting for her to sprint away or to yell but she's never been the kind of person who shows her emotions in public. She stayed still not moving, not flinching, nor speaking, only waiting for him to reach her.When he stood right in front of her and leveled her eyes with her she opened her arms and hugged him tight and loosened it at an instant, scaring the shit out of him. 'Oh no I loose her again' he feared Then all of a sudden she held his arms with her soft palms and stretched to reach his lips. He too bent slightly to give her a peck to assure her that he was hers. Instead she pulled him tight and kissed full on. Edwin too kissed her back fiercely,
Chapter 121It is NormalIris always knew that she loved him truly but hearing him from Edwin simply was enigmatic, it was a kind of turn on."hence” edwin sighed as he put back her fray strands of hair behind her ears “I love you and I love each and every part of your body even your abdomen where Isabelle rested for nine months" he smiled and went back to her torso.His hands moved around her lower abdomen creating tiny crackers insides her body the soft harmless ones that erupted every where making her moan. Just when Iris got used to his magical touch, his fingers were replaced by his tongue, which raised the level of pleasures the tiny crackers increased on their intensity forcing her to make cries of moan.Iris closed her fist unable to control what was happening inside her when he bit exactly below her naval, the magnitude of pleasure reaching new heights and Iris closed her eyes."No do not close our eyes" he said commandingly as he looked at her. When her dark met his hazels
Chapter 120Beautiful Love "I am sorry Edwin." Iris said. "I did not trust your love, I was scared and disturbed of having $ex with you" she looked at her toes embarrassed of what she was saying. "It was unfair. I knew I hurt you. I feel very low of myself."He cupped her face in both his hands, his touch tender making her lean her face, giving up her strength and submitted to him breaking all her wallsIris looked back at him as he repeated the words "I am sorry" he said "I should have understood, I forced myself on you. I should have courted you first, showed my love, made you believe in love and win your trust first that I do love you.""Edwin" Iris called his name; his words so polite and sweet making her heart melt. Iris was not used to something like this and couldn't believe that this was happening. She wanted to stop him, so that it does not get washed away. "With all the hardships in my life somewhere I had accepted happiness is curse for me and I cannot have it and so" s
Chapter 119Picture PerfectIris turned around to see Edwin and a red blush embraced her face."Umm... I guess I am early." Iris said to cut the intense silence between them.Edwin complimented me. He said I look pretty.I am blushing!"No you are on time." He offered his hand for Iris to take and she did.He walked with her at the start of the first painting.He pressed her hand softly making her look at him.The innocent grin in his hazels made Iris lock her gaze at him. He raised his eyebrows gesticulating something. Iris was so lost in his handsome face that was full of love for her that she couldn't decipher his actions.He put both his hands on her shoulders and turned her around pushing towards the first painting from the row.The painting was covered with a netted curtain. Edwin lifted his neck asking her to undo the curtains.Iris looked around as if she was stealing from a departmental store. I mean who was she to unveil somebody else's property?But Edwin gave another
Chapter 118Date NightEdwin...Iris sighed... She was behaving like a teenager in cliché' love.After the day she let her fears out to Edwin, he'd been distant. He never shouted or lost temper.He'd even polite and normal with Isa and her too.Sometimes Iris wondered if she had kept her mouth shut the other day, things would have been different.I should have tried on my own, I shouldn't have bothered him. I could have made excuses but I couldn't lie to him direct on the face..Again the way he asked, it felt that he cared and so Iris let the doors of her insecurities wide open in front of him.For better or worse... it's yet to decipherOtherwise she believed he would have easily guessed it out. Exactly like he guessed that something was seriously wrong within Iris and their relationship.Probably Iris's confession the other day made him realize what she was earlier and now What if he loathed me, felt disgusted with the thoughts of having $ex repeatedly with a prostitute.' Negati
Chapter 117I Am Not A Virgin"You are in love." Twain couldn’t be happier, he was smiling from ear to ear."I do?' Edwin spoke for himself "I don't know how but every time I shout at Iris with an attempt to hurt her so that she despises me and walks out of my life, I feel the pain, ." He shuddered at the memory "Her eyes that'd turn glassy for a fraction of a second and jump back to normal again hurts deep in my heart.I cannot hurt her. Ever""You two good now?" Twain could see the answer on Edwin's face but still he asked "She looked so pretty in the morning when she was showering all her love on Isabelle, the way she looked at Isabelle, helped with her tiny feet to wear those shoes, the patience she was portraying when Isa was showing her tantrum throwing her shoes away every time she tried to put them on her. My heart constricted with a strong feeling for her." Edwin smiled faintly "That feeling made me realize that I was doing what Stella wanted to do. I was falling for her but
Chapter 116Can We Fall In Love Twice?Edwin held her from shoulders, his grip tight enough to hurt as he pulled Iris making her look at his eyes which were not furious; they were confused."Hate you... tell me how do I hate you Iris? Tell me? I tried to hate you. I told myself Stella didn't fight her disease because she had YOU.' He stressed on the last word and then loosened the painful grip. Iris's hands brushed the place he held tight to rub away the pain.But her eyes and ears focused on the man who was her legally wedded husband.For the first time the authority of his voice made her realize he was her husband"I want to hate you because you agreed to sleep with me. I want to hate you because you loved me even when you knew I was married and you could never have me. I tried to hate you." His voice soft now and his hands closed to her, his fingers brushing her cheeks for a second and then he moved the strand hair on the face behind her ears.He moved closer giving a short peck o
Chapter 115Hate Me Like You DoIsabelle turned one year and six months today. She was the sweetest child Iris had ever seen, not that she had seen much of children in her life but still Isabelle was the best and she loved every bit of her. She gave meaning to her existence, she was heir to my unconditional maternal love, and she was her world.Today when it was time for Edwin to take Isabelle for a morning stroll, Iris was playing with her trying with the new jumpsuit and shoes that she had brought for her especially for a morning walk.Edwin saw Iris with her and cringed; he was getting restless to take Isabelle in his arms. He got so impulsive that he shouted at Iris that even Isabelle got scared and leaned her shivering body close to her.She was so scared that she hid behind Iris peeping at Edwin's figure in dismay"Its okay baby." Iris kissed her forehead and handed her to Edwin.Edwin had a grimaced look on his face, completely disappointed at the fact that Isabelle was scar
Chapter 114Time & PatienceVoices of playful Isabelle gurgling, laughing and Edwin's soft honeydew laughter woke Iris up in the morning as she lifted the covers put on me while I was asleep.Iris knew who the one behind it is and her lips curved to a smile....Antonym of emotions seared in Iris.She felt guilty, ashamed and terrible about herselfHow can a mother sleep when her child is in danger? Or was it all a dream?Iris opened her eyes to shut them again.The bright sunlight emanating from the windows made het squint as she reopened them, her heart pounding with fear. Iris was jerked back into the past when she was surprised waking up in a complete different ambience.Isabelle crying, her abdominal pain and then Dr.Simpson uttered those words 'Isabelle is critical', Iris went out of control.Oh shit! I even slapped the doctor.Iris behaved like a possessed screaming, shouting and cursing when the staff and the nurses held her tightly making her wince with her inner pain and sh
Chapter 113Cruel Words With pounding heart Iris reached Stella's room She panicked when she found Stella lying on the floor straight, her face reflecting pain and Isabelle in her arms.Stella looked at Isabelle with concern and as Iris scanned the room.Iris could judge with Isabelle's crib half fallen and Stella's leap to save her falling from that cot of hers.Quickly Iris picked Isabelle who was shell shocked at her happening, Stella's pained face doing no good to calm her down.Lulling her for a second Iris nestled her on the bed and still she sat straight at an instant, fear lined on her face as Stella stayed on the floor with helplessness, small moans of pain escaping her mouth.Being a healthy baby of almost 11months Isabelle tried to reach Stella.Stopping her with a stern 'Sit" gesture Iris attended Stella. Iris tried to lift her off the floor but with the pain she was bearing, lack of cooperation on her part did not help."Stella please try." Iris begged."Isabelle" Stel