‘You have to talk to her. Explain that it was all a misunderstanding.’There was another long silence, and when he spoke again his voice was roughened with emotion. ‘I wish to God I could look her in the eye and tell her truthfully that I never even thought it. But I did. And nobody will ever know how guilty I felt afterwards.’She longed to put her arms round him, even take his hand, but she didn’t. Any word or movement, she felt sure, would make him clam up.‘Until she was born, I felt very little,’ he went on. ‘Anna had this big lump that squirmed now and then, and I knew eventually it was going to come out and there’d be nappies and sleepless nights and a non-existent sex-life for weeksafterwards. I pretended, for Anna. But when she was bom . . .*He paused. Td had this idea that it was like shelling peas. I was utterly unprepared. Anna was in agony for hours, and I’ve never felt so helpless in my life. I got angry with the nurses, told them for Christ’s sake to give her somethin
It was happening all around them. At intervals across the sand, babies were popping up by the dozen.It seemed hours that they watched, and eventually Guy and Claudia retreated to the chairs. ‘It makes you feel very insignificant, when you think this has been going on for thousands of years,’ she said,‘Millions, probably. Mother Nature’s a clever old bird.’ He took another beer from the cold-box. ‘Like another G and T?’She’d already had two. ‘I’ll have a lemonade for now.’It was very quiet, only the waves crashing on to the shore. Anoushka was still watching popping babies. Now and then she helped one that was heading the wrong way, or floundering as it struggled up the sandy mounds.Gently Claudia touched Guy’s arm. ‘I’m going to disappear for a bit. You go to her. Talk about the baby turtles, and maybe you’ll find the right moment to tell her about another little newborn baby and the big ape who was terrified of dropping her.’Even in the dark, she suddenly saw from his face that
Guy had stopped waving. He had swum a little further with a powerful crawl. He stopped again, and gave another beckoning wave. Claudia waved back. ‘We’re coming!’ she yelled, but knew he couldn’t hear.Anoushka was suddenly rigid. ‘Get out!’ she screamed, waving her arms frantically. ‘Get out!’Claudia stared at her, aghast. ‘What on - ’‘Can’t you see?* She ripped off her sunglasses, handed them to her. ‘Look! In the water!’Claudia went cold.Without the sunglasses she could never have seen. But with powerful lenses cutting out the glare she could see all too clearly.There must have been a half a dozen of them. Dark, streamlined, stealthy shapes, circling beneath him.'Where there's food about, there are always predators .’This time, she knew they weren’t dolphins.- - -What must have gone through his mind when he finally realized why they were yelling and waving their arms so frantically she could not bear to think.He glanced behind him, but there was nothing to see, no fins br
Once out of the shower, she lay on the bed again, longing for sleep that wouldn’t come. There were too many things in her head.I’ve upset Mum now. Why ever didn't I keep my mouth shut? And why did I lie to Kate about Guy ?You know why. So she won't feel sorry for you and make it even worse when you get back home and that bloody phone never rings.Who says it won’t ?Your intuition, that’s what. Things have changed a bit, haven’t they? He’s got a chance to re-establish a relationship with his daughter. She’s in an intensely vulnerable state, and he’s sensitive enough to know it. You saw her face in the silver souk. She was jealous. She’s probably been jealous of every relationship he’s ever had. If he’s got any sense, he’s not going spread himself around for a bit. Besides . . .She didn’t like the way her thoughts were going, but they wouldn’t stop.Let’s face it, it’s got all the classic ingredients of a holiday fling. Exotic setting, two adults who fancy each other, and opportunit
For the rest of the meal Claudia avoided Guy’s eyes as if they were death rays.What exactly had that ‘but’ been saying? I want you, but that's all it is, so don't get any ideas. Or, I want you, but it's just not on at the moment . Or even a bit of both. I want you, but I'm not sure whether it's any more than that, and in the circumstances I'm not that bothered about finding out.By the time their coffee arrived, the strain of keeping up airy smiles and chat was a nightmare. When he suggested a liqueur, she shook her head. I'm ready for bed. I didn’t sleep very well last night.’‘You slept this afternoon,’ he pointed out.‘I’m still tired,’ she fibbed.Anoushka gave a large yawn, covering it belatedly with her hand. ‘I’m shattered too.’ She glanced up at Guy. ‘Do you mind if I go up now?’‘I’ll come with you,’ said Claudia, a little too quickly.‘If you’ll both wait one minute till I’ve signed the bill,’ he said patiently, ‘we can go up together.’Until they were in the lift, she avoi
The flight was tedious in the way only a long night flight can be, but it could have been worse. If they’d been crammed into Economy she might have had to endure sitting next to him, his arm brushing against her, his scent tormenting her, even his hair brushing her cheek as he slept.He was sleeping now, just across the aisle, his face turned towards her. She could not sleep, and it was impossible to keep her eyes away.She thought of him sleeping beside her after they’d made love. She remembered the feel of him, skin-to-skin against her, his arm around her. She remembered how delicately she’d run her fingers over his chest, trying not to wake him. She remembered the way his arm had tightenedaround her in his sleep, how she’d dared herself to touch his other sleeping bits and how his chest had shaken as he’d laughed.Tears filled her eyes. She stole to the loo to recover, but not before an eagle-eyed stewardess had seen her. ‘Are you all right?’‘Fine,’ Claudia sniffed, with a forced
One could hardly storm out and slam the door. She said, ‘Night, everybody,’ and smiled apologetically when her aunt said, ‘Going up already?’ She managed another smile when her uncle made a crack about the younger generation having no stamina, and escaped.Room five at Weeping Ash Inn was half the size of her Muscat room but just as comfortable, in a rose-sprigged, English way.Bloody Ryan! If only I could go home now.It was out of the question. The do proper wasn’t until the following night, and she’d never, ever be forgiven.Twenty minutes after she’d gone up, there was a tap at the door. ‘Claud, are you asleep?’‘Yes, so shove off.’He rattled the door anyway. ‘Claud, let me in.’‘Bugger off!’‘ If you don’t let me in, I’ll go and get a pass key. ’ He sounded positively injured. ‘I have every right to know why you want me willyless after I just gave you a sodding great cheque.’‘I’ve earned a sodding great cheque, after what you put me through. Now get lost!’The old, mischievous
Another volunteer was painting the ceiling. ‘Steve, I feel really dreadful -I think it’s paint fumes on top of this cold. I’ve got to go home. Will you clear up my paint and stuff? I’ve nearly finished that wall.*He frowned at her from the ladder. ‘Are you all right to drive?’‘Fine. I’ll be back tomorrow if I feel better. Tell Julie I’m really sorry.’She was out in seconds and into the shiny new Peugeot she’d indulged in. Parked right next to it was a Range Rover, just like the one they’d used in Muscat, but black.With tears spilling onto her cheeks, she accelerated over the gravel drive and escaped.You fool. Couldn’t you have stayed, just to see him? Acted your brains out?Like this ? She glanced at her face in the rear view mirror. With a red nose and paint on my face? Dressed like a sack of manky old King Edwards ?It was the first sunny day for ages, and the world and his wife and kids were out. It took her ages to get home. Kate and Paul were out, househunting, and only Port