Decisions

Meal time is always the time of the day when I wish to just vanish in thin air.

I once asked not to attend dinner with them but Helena, who seemed to enjoy tormenting me with Aspen’s presence declined my request. She told me that as the Emperor’s concubine, I had to be always present in every repast to keep the good harmony and relationship between all the concubines and the people that the Emperor wanted him to join with his dinners.

I kept my eyes low. The last thing I ever wanted was to catch a glimpse of Aster looking back at me because it will be torture to see him sitting beside Helena while they are discussing something that only both of them could hear. I wanted to eat fast and leave the dining hall as soon as I could but that would be so inappropriate and disrespectful, especially since there are five wealthy and powerful merchants that Emperor Aster invited as important guests of the palace.

While in the middle of the dinner, I caught some of them looking at me with shy sm