Heart break

Chapter 1.

Pain is only temporary they say, they forget to add that some can actually kill in that small amount of time. It's almost 2 Am and I am still rolling around in my bed irrespective of the fact that I am going to work tomorrow. I closed my eyes and tried to slow my heartbeat hoping it will make me sleep but nothing seems to be helping, the only thing I feel is the excruciating pain I feel with every heartbeat. I hit my chest so hard hoping the physical pain will overrule the emotional pain but it didn't, I stood up from the bed and went and grabbed a glass of water. Everywhere is so quiet, I used to live with my best friend Jessica but she got married last month and I was also expecting to finally tie the knot with my prince charming, gosh we have been dating for 3 years. I keep searching my head trying to think what I did wrong, I have never cheated, he was the one that took my virginity, I have never requested for money I have always been a girl that love being independent. The more I think of it the more my heart hurts, I remembered what I heard on the radio last week, to always talk about your pain and hurt with someone, even if he or she didn't give you a solution, talking about it helps. So, I took up my phone and decided to text Jessica, I am by nature a text freak also I didn't want to disturb her sleep, she is a deep sleeper I just want to type out my feelings and wishes and also pains.

I haven't saved her number on this my new phone, but no worries I memories it a long time ago.

*I have wished a thousand times for it to be a dream*.

*I keep thinking, what did I do wrong*

*Tell me that if I close my eyes and go to sleep that he will be mine when I wake up tomorrow*

*I have loved him all my life and I still do*

*I have always pretended to be a strong woman, but deep down I cry behind closed doors, I know it will come as a shock to you*

* It's so much easier talking to you Jessica while you sleep*

*Do you think I made a mistake by accepting Josh instead of Charles*

*I couldn't help it, he has the most amazing dimples*

*I know I never told you but I had one abortion for him* I texted and regretted instantly, maybe I am going too far, nobody knows about this I should've kept my mouth shut but I am in so much pain.

*I am in so much pain* 

I cried more as I text Jessica my feelings, I know she will be on a frenzy when she sees it tomorrow, by then my brave face will be on.

*Sometimes you must hurt in order to know, fall in order to grow,  lose in order to gain, for lives greatest lessons are learned through pain* Jessica replied and it shocked the hell out of me.

You might wonder why it surprised me, I wasn't surprised that she woke up to reply to my texts, though Jessica loves her sleep and hardly sacrifices her sleep for anything. I wasn't surprised that she suddenly became wise and sent me a quote, she is a simple girl that can't even remember the simplest quote like cleanliness is second to godliness. I am surprised that she quoted my best Nagato words from Naruto and she has never seen an episode of Naruto.

*Did you just quote Nagato* I asked to know if it was just a coincidence.

*I am surprised you know where it's from* she replied.

*of course I do, I am Naruto's number one fan* I replied wiping my tears, slowly I am more interested in Jessica's sudden interest in my favorite anime, than my painful heart.

*Then clearly, you haven't met me* she replied, met you? Girl I practically lived with you for 10 years.

*You can't be serious Jess, I have known you half of my life and you haven't even seen a single episode of Naruto.* She doesn't even know the difference between Naruto and Sasuke.

*My Bad, I forgot to tell you I am not Jessica your friend, it's a Wrong Number* the texter said and I froze, did I just confessed my deepest secret to a total stranger.

This the greatest joke of the century, thinking about it made me crack up the laugh I never knew I still had.

*Come on Jess, be serious* I texted waiting for her reaction

*I'm serious I am not your friend* she replied making me take a more serious feature.

*Are you telling me I no longer know your number* I sent.

*check the number, you might be surprised* she replied.

I then viewed the number and was shocked to discover I got one number wrong, I covered my lips with my palm as I felt like a fool.

*Why didn't you tell me the first time you received the text* I asked already tapping my feet, its a habit I have when I am anxious.

*Wanted to, but the text was coming in too fast so I decided to entertain myself with it* she said and it got me angry, so my heartbreak text was a means of entertainment for this unknown person. Now I don't even know if it's a she or he.

*That is rude, you just saw my misery as your entertainment* I sent 

*Not my fault, you might be a fifty years old woman bored with her marriage life looking for a young boy to suck on* I gasped did he just called me an old hag.

*If you thought it was all an act to get a fresh blood, why did you bother quoting Nagato?* I asked.

*Because I have always wanted to say it to someone, you just gave me the opportunity I couldn't just let it pass* she replied. I am choosing to believe it's a girl, at least that way she can understand me better.

*It is official, you are a teenager that can't even earn a boyfriend* I texted hoping she will be hurt, for some reason I want to mock her.

*FYI I am not a girl neither am I a teenager and looking at the fact you couldn't keep your boyfriend, your words are for you* He texted and my eyes widened.

It's a man and from his text, he is not a gentle one, my luck is really the worst.

*Now I know, you are a forty years old man still leaving with his parents and jerks off every night* I have never wanted to mock someone as much as I want to mock the unknown person. I feel like I will be better if I get to successfully mock him, that my heartbreak can be transferred to him, I know it is bad of me.

*You can say what you want old hag* he replied. Does that mean I was right, I stood up and went to my bed.

*I hope you forget everything I told you?* I texted hoping he won't use it to threaten me.

*I won't, I am even thinking of using it against you* He texted and I instantly sat up.

*How do you mean?* I asked already tapping my feet.

*Like you said I am an old man that only jerks off in my parents' house, do you think I would miss the opportunity of getting laid?* he texted.

*What are you saying* I asked though I know what he is driving at.

*I would like us to meet and have one night stand* he replied so bluntly and it disgusted me as much as it shocked me.

*Won't happen* I said already thinking of blocking him.

*I know you are thinking of blocking me, but before you do that do remember there is an app called true caller, though I couldn't see your face because you didn't upload your picture but I now know your name* he replied and I nearly fainted, God why me.

*That doesn't matter, I will still block you* I said still determined.

*Ok, I will just find you in W******p or anything or anyhow possible, once I get your picture I will screenshot your text to me with your picture and make it go viral* He said and I instantly went and remove my profile picture from my W******p, I hope I was fast enough. Since this my number is not connected to my F******k account so I know he can't find me there, he now knows my name but there are hundreds of Rose on F******k.

*I can track you down as well you know?* I said hoping to threaten him too.

*This my number is not registered in any social platform so good luck with that* He replied and he was right, even true caller didn't show his name. 

Earlier tonight I was heartbroken now I am scared that my name will be sullied by the public, can I stand the disgrace, what will my religious mother think.

*How will I trust you won't request for more after the one night* I texted.

*You just have to trust me* He replied and I scoffed, like it's possible.

*Too bad I don't, do what you must and I promise to track you down and end your life, at least once you upload it online, you can be tracked down* I said hoping he believes it. Truthfully I have no idea what to do if it goes viral except cry and nurses my broken heart.

*You are right, though I know you can't do anything I also have a reputation to uphold. So, I will give you an option* he replied and I wonder the reputation a jerk like him has.

*what is the option?* I asked hoping it will be favorable.

*it doesn't involve sex or nude or anything perverted at least, so promise me you will say yes to what I am about to ask* he said and I got worried, but since he said it is nothing perverted.

*Ok, I promise* I guess it will be better than having one nightstand. I dropped my phone and eagerly wait for his text to come in, I closed my eyes as I felt the phone vibrated, I picked it to see what the option is only to be shocked beyond reasons for the third time this night.