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CHAPTER 54
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2022-01-21 18:51:34ASTRALLAINE'S POV
"Congrats, Astra!"
I laughed when Simon embraced me with so much joy. "Thanks, man." I tap his shoulders, motioning him to let me go already which he did quickly. "Congrats also."
We will be going to celebrate for making the deal successful with our client. We really have planned and practiced more for our presentation because our client was a big time business man and we cannot lose the opportunity to make deal with him.
"Let's go. I will treat you," he said.
"Maybe later? I am sleepy," I pouted that made him to chuckle. Then, he tousled my hair.
"Alright, let's go out later. Rest first. Maybe I will just fetch you at what time?"
I looked up to think. "Maybe at seven."
He just nodded his head and went off. I entered my room and lied on my bed so I could relax. I did not get enough sleep these past f
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