AMELIA’S P.O.VI couldn’t bring myself to go to school. I woke up early, I got dressed and I even went as far as to get into my car but I just couldn’t turn the ignition. I felt like a failure, like my destroyed relationship was written across my forehead in permanent marker. Shame filled me which was ironic because I wasn’t the one who did anything worth being ashamed over.There was a knock on my window and I turned to find Clara standing there with a small smile. “You don’t have to go if you don’t want to. You can afford to miss one day.”“It isn’t just one day. I missed weeks worth of classes because of them. I cannot afford to miss any more. I had a plan, I had everything set out in front of me and now it is going down the drain. I need something that I can hold onto. I need something that is wholly mine and not his.”She sighed deeply. I was sure I speaking a whole lot of rubbish but it made sense to me and that was all that mattered. She pulled the door open and I watched as sh
AMELIA’S P.O.VAs much as I hated to admit it, Caleb was right and although I wanted nothing more to do with Kaden, I knew I would never be able to forgive myself if something were to happen to him and I could have done something to stop it. All eyes were on me but the room was as quiet as a graveyard as everyone waited to hear what I decided.“Find out whatever you can on her,” I said finally to Caleb and he nodded. “If there is anything remotely suspicious then let me know. As Kaden’s mother whatever you need to know and tell her that I sent you, she will give you answers.”“What else?”“That’s all we can do for now. We cannot do anything until we know that there is something suspicious going on. Just make sure that Kaden doesn’t get a hint that anything is wrong or it could go very badly.”“Thank you,” he began but I cut him off.“I am not doing it for Kaden. I am doing it because if there is nothing wrong with him, then I have what it takes to finally leave. I will have enough pro
AMELIA’S P.O.VSerena and I sat alone in the middle of her living room drinking vodka and taking ice cream. To be fair, she did most of the vodka and I stuck with ice cream. I had never truly been a fan of alcohol, the first sip was just out of solidarity for her. Thankfully, she didn’t get drunk seeing as it was just plain alcohol. Our systems didn’t work the same way humans did and it took a shit ton to get any wolf drunk.It was sometime around evening when the door opened and I saw her parents walk in with a little girl. She was the splitting image of Serena but she had the same eyes as Aiden. There was no denying that she was their child. Her parents froze when they saw me and I saw brief panic in their eyes. They were not sure how much I knew so I gave them a gentle nod to let them know I was aware.I glanced over at Serena but her eyes were fixated on her daughter. I could tell she wanted nothing more than to reach out and grab her but something kept her still and I realized I
KADEN’S P.O.VI sat in my driveway staring and unblinking wanting to be sure that what was in front of me was not an apparition but real. I was terrified that if I even risked a blink, it would disappear but it never moved. I blinked once fearing the worst but that car remained seated in the driveway unmoving. I slowly got out of my car for fear that any sudden movements would suddenly make everything go sour but it didn’t. Amelia’s car was here which meant that she was too.I felt something akin to relief and joy bubble up in my pit. As usual, my wolf was unbothered and chose to isolate himself in the corner of my mind. Nothing seemed to interest him much nowadays except it was Nadine. I found that extremely weird and I had done everything remotely possible to find out why but nothing made sense. Caleb hadn’t said anything since I told him about my concerns and if I couldn’t count on Caleb to help me then I couldn’t count on anyone else so I kept my secret to myself.I put up a firm
AMELIA’S P.O.VI waited for Kaden to return but he never did. I set the table and sat down anxiously waiting for him to appear from the room he had disappeared into with Nadine but he didn’t. it took one hour, one long hour where I felt like the most stupid person on the planet before he finally emerged and when he did, he wouldn’t even look at me. Nadine walked out after him and I couldn’t help but notice that her hair was messier than usual. She had a cruel smirk on her face as she winked at me. I wasn’t stupid, I knew exactly what had happened in there.Despite the tears threatening to pour from my eyes, I steeled my shoulders and addressed Kaden. “Aren’t you going to have dinner with me? I waited for you.”“I don’t want it,” he said simply without even looking at me but I wasn’t going to let it go just like that.“You said you wanted it earlier. If you want something else then maybe I can-”“Maybe you can leave me the fuck alone,” he snapped finally turning to me and I noticed tha
AMELIA’S P.O.VI was at Caleb’s faster than anyone could have thought humanly possible and the entire way there, my brain conjured all the possible scenarios. He sounded excited over the phone which I chose to interpret as him having good news for me but I couldn’t be sure until I actually saw him.He was waiting for me outside the house and the moment he noticed me, he pulled me in. It was just Caleb, Clara and I in the living room and I noticed some papers scattered all over the table. There were over twenty of them and I couldn’t help but wonder what the hell was going on.“I think you might want to sit for this one,” he told me and I hesitated before doing as he asked. I was itching with curiosity but I forced myself to remain silent. “I did as you asked and I spoke to Kaden’s mother. It was not easy and she was not the most accommodating but she told me where Kaden had met Nadine. I couldn’t go myself but I sent some pies to get some information and they came back with something
KADEN’S P.O.VMy mind felt like it was being split open, like someone had put their hands into my skull and was trying to tear my brain in two. Everything burned, everything hurt and it felt like I was watching from outside of my body as my own hands choked the life out of her. I couldn’t move, couldn’t stop the calamity that was about to happen until I heard her voice in my mind, soft and coaxing. I wasn’t sure how she managed to break through that haze in my head but she did and I felt it snap. My hands released her and she fell to the ground. I stared at what I had done in horror. She was breathing but barely.“You did so well, Kaden,” I heard Natasha say from behind me and fury bubbled in my chest like a raging inferno. I turned to her and she wasn’t even looking at me, her eyes were fixated on Amelia’s unconscious body on the ground.I slowly walked over to her trying to rid my eyes of the image that was permanently seared beneath my lids, the image of my own mate thrashing in my
AMELIA’S P.O.VThe drive to the hospital was quiet. I could feel Caleb and Clara’s eyes on me. They held varying degrees of pity and worry but I couldn’t even look at them. The moment we arrived at the hospital, I was out of the car. They tried to follow me but I ignored them and heads straight for Dr. Brown’s office. None of the nurses tried to stop me, they all recognized me easily from all the times I had been here with Kaden. I felt their watchful and curious gazes but I ignored it.Without knocking, I pushed open the door. Dr. Brown was furious to say the least but as soon as she saw me, all fight deflated from her. “Are you alright?”I nodded. “I need you to check and ensure nothing is broken. Then I also need you to make sure no one comes into my room tonight, I want to be alone.”“Amelia-”“Can you do it or not?” I snapped. I knew she was not the reason for everything that happened but I was on a tight fuse already and she was making it worse by not answering. “I don’t need yo
CHAPTER 195AMELIA’S P.O.VFor a moment, Kaden just stood there staring at me and I wondered if I had pushed him too far. Perhaps it was never about me being ready, maybe he wasn’t ready to be with me after everything that happened.I felt so incredibly stupid and attempted to turn away from him when he grabbed my chin and forced me to look at him. I didn’t want to but we were like magnets, always drawn to each other and I couldn’t stop myself from staring straight into his eyes.“I’m only going to say this once so get this straight,” he began slowly. “I don’t ever want to see that fucking look on your face again. The only reason I said nothing is because I was thinking of how much of a bastard I would be if I fucked you right here instead of taking you up into a room.”I cracked a smile. “I don’t think I can make it upstairs.”“Me neither.”The words were barely out of his mouth before he kissed me again. I felt something akin to relief in the center of my chest. It felt good to be a
AMELIA’S P.O.VIt had been two days since Aiden came to visit and Kaden had not spoken about him. We acted as if it were a fever dream that was locked away in the far parts of our minds.I knew that Aiden wouldn’t give up anytime soon and I knew that one day, I needed to tell Kaden about what had happened but I couldn’t even figure out how to bring it up. It was unsettling and uncomfortable but I didn’t have solid proof that he meant for anything malicious to happen.“You’re thinking hard,” Kaden’s voice snapped me out of my thoughts and I turned to find him standing at the doorway to the kitchenIt was his presence that reminded me of what I was doing and I cursed as I pulled the oven open. I let out a sigh of relief when I saw that my cake hadn’t burnt but if I had left it for a few more minutes, I wouldn’t have been able to say that at all.I rushed to get it out and put it on a cooling rack all the while I could see Kaden trying to hide a smile out of the corner of his eye.I was
AMELIA’S P.O.V“Hi,” I managed out as I made my way over to them and their conversation instantly ceased. I could see that Serena was itching to touch me but they both held back for my sake. “I’m not going to shatter just because you hug me.”That was all Serena needed before she rushed to her feet and threw her arms around my shoulders. She didn’t cry like the last time but I could feel her relief as she held me. I wasn’t sure how long that lasted but as soon as she pulled away, Clara’s arms were around me.“I’m so sorry,” she whispered and I could almost taste the guilt that was radiating off her.“It wasn’t your fault,” I assured her. “We were ambushed, we were sidetracked. Thar had nothing to do with you. I need you to know that.”“You were gone, for so long.”“But I’m back now,” I pulled away and grasped her shoulders. “All that matters is that I’m back now.”She gave me a small nod. I knew it would take more than that to deal with the guilt that she felt but it was a good start
AMELIA’S P.O.VIt was exactly one week since I had been back and I was yet to leave the house.Kaden had been patient with me, not forcing me to go anywhere until I was ready or making me do anything I didn’t want to but even I knew that life had to move on. I couldn’t just sit in here forever and pretend like things were fine and the constant state of boredom was driving me mad.We were having breakfast when I spoke. “I want to go out.”Kaden stopped eating, his eyes finding mine and I could see the worry in them as he slowly ran his eyes over me. He was more protective over me than usual and I didn’t blame him, especially not after what happened. If I wanted to go anywhere, especially now, I knew that there would be crazy rules to come with it.“Where do you want to go?”I shrugged. I hadn’t really thought that far. All I knew was that I didn’t want to be within the four walls of the house anymore. I wanted to talk to my friends, I wanted to be normal, I wanted to see people without
KADEN’S P.O.VWhat Amelia needed whether she realized it or not were her friends.Just those few minutes with Serena had brightened her day more than I thought was possible. It hurt that they could do more for her than I could but I didn’t care as long as it meant that she was fine, that was all that mattered to me.After the interaction with Serena, Amelia declared that she wanted to go home. I didn’t protest, didn’t even make any other suggestions, we just got into the car and drove. She didn’t hide from me when we returned which was a plus in my books, she simply sat on the couch, laying her head on my shoulder in silence.I wasn’t sure how long we stayed there but it could have been ten hours and I wouldn’t have minded. She seemed so peaceful, more than she had since she got back and I loved that for her.“I hate the silence,” she whispered and I turned to her. “When I was there with him, it was always quiet. I couldn’t go anywhere, couldn’t do anything, it was just the two of us
AMELIA’S P.O.VI didn’t want to leave the house the next morning but when Kaden told me that it was to say goodbye to Jackson, I forced myself out.Going to the pack house was terrifying and the entire time, it felt like someone was breathing down my neck and the worst was yet to come. Kaden was a firm pillar by my side the entire time, he never once took his hand out of mine and he never strayed from my side. I knew that I was safe with him but that didn’t mean I still wasn’t a little scared.“You look like shit,” Jackson drawled as soon as he saw me.Kaden stiffened, not liking his tone but waiting to see my reaction. I was silent for a second before a small smile pulled at the corner of my lips. I wrapped my arms around his center clearly catching him off guard.For a moment, he didn’t move and then, ever so slowly, he wrapped his arms around me and squeezed softly.“I would say you look like shit but you actually look better,” I whispered as I pulled back.He had clearly taken a s
AMELIA’S P.O.VI knew I was hurting him by not letting him in but I couldn’t.How could he help when even I didn’t know how to help myself? I was home and that should have been the most important thing but I still found myself terrified. In my nightmare, I was back in Blake’s little hideaway house. I was back with him and my baby was gone.How could I tell Kaden that knowing fully well that he was going to lose his mind and panic? I didn’t want him stressed- didn’t need him stressed right now. One of us needed a clear head and it was obvious that person wasn’t going to be me.“Amelia, baby, please look at me,” Kaden’s voice was soft and coaxing as he wiped my tears off my cheeks. “Please.”I wasn’t sure if it was the please or the sound of pure defeat in his voice that had me slowly opening my eyes. He gave me a small smile that didn’t quite reach his eyes and I couldn’t help it, I leaned up to kiss him. It wasn’t a deep kiss of unbridled passion, it was soft, almost explorative, just
KADEN’S P.O.VI couldn’t bring myself to fall asleep.Amelia claimed to be fine but I knew her better than I knew myself. I knew every bit of her, every smile, every freckle, every curve of her skin, I knew her emotions better than I knew my own sometimes and I knew for a fact that despite her saying otherwise, she was far from fine.I could see it in the way she hardly ever met my eyes, in the hesitation in her voice and in her determination to avoid speaking about whatever she might have faced in that place. I knew the guilt that she felt, sometimes when she let her wall down by accident, I could feel it like a bitter poison at the back of my throat threatening to choke me.It didn’t matter how many times I told her that I was fine with what happened, she couldn’t forgive herself and if she couldn’t, there was no way she was going to move past it. I wasn’t a fan of the idea of her being with Blake sexually but she did what she had to in order to survive and as much as I hated it, I
AMELIA’S P.O.VI was discharged before the end of the day.Kaden clearly didn’t agree with my choice but I doubted he could bring himself to refuse me. I knew I was being a little irrational and illogical but I couldn’t bear to be anywhere else. I wanted to be surrounded by people I knew and by my home, I wanted to be surrounded by him.He carried me into the car despite knowing I could walk and for once, I didn’t protest. Clara and Caleb were nowhere to be seen by the time we were leaving, I presumed they were giving us our space and for that, I was grateful. I loved my friends but today was not that day.As we drove past the turn to the house, I turned to Kaden. “Where are we going?”“Our home.”“But it’s that way,” I pointed towards the turn that we had missed. “Kaden, where are you taking me?”“That was my house, I’m taking you to ours.”I didn’t realize what he was talking about until he pulled up in front of a familiar building. The last time I saw it, he was still trying to per