*Ana*
When the carriage enters the town, we start to slow. The wheels clack and wobble as they cross the cobble roads. Our journey is finally coming to an end.
The Dawny castle should be just ahead. My heart jumps up my throat, and I swing to the window to peer out.
“About time,” Maddie relaxes.
"It'll be great to get out of the carriage for a while."
"Mmn," I can barely answer. I’m so distracted by the window and what I see- the streets and buildings are so different from Nochten. Everyone uses brick and wood here.
Although it’s not that late in the day, I find the sun ready to set. The days are short here.
Dawny’s Autumn is much different than Nochten’s. I catch sight of a colored leaf. It drops and catches into the air. I watch it fly over.
I pull my hands under my pits and shiver.
"I don't remember it being this cold."
"Is it always like this?"
Maddie moves a blanket over me. I pull it up over my chest. I am instantly grateful that she brought them.
"You're just used to the heat," Maddie replies knowingly.
"It's been some time since you've been back."
"Oh...I guess so...." But now I see something ahead. It’s growing in the distance- and it’s tall.
“I think I see the castle,” I lean into the window. A chill seeps through the glass and hits my face.
“Do you think...anyone will be waiting for me?
“What a silly thought,” Maddie laughs.
“Is it that funny?” My heart drops.
“I joke. Of course, they are. You wait and see. Everyone will come. You will have the biggest welcome.” Maddie smiles at me. But I’m not sure if I can’t take her word seriously.
Sure enough, Maddie is right, though.There is a procession even from this distance. It’s considerably larger than what I had in Nochten. And it only becomes more evident as we crawl closer. We are just shy of the actual entrance of the castle, and I’m already in awe.
So many people are here.
I see servants in black and white dresses. The nobles are dressed in what looks like rich and puffy outfits. They follow the carriage and roll in with their eyes.
Past them, I find the grand stairs. Atop, I see a woman standing alone. I already know who she is from her stark black hair and her smile. It’s Stepmother. And she wears an immaculate dress of large white puffs and blue velvet bows. Her cape cascades down the steps as her gold crown shines in the setting sun's rays.
But I only see her. I don’t see anyone around her. Are they standing back a bit?
They're waiting for me. The thought made my heart skip.
“Are all these people…for me?” I ask as the carriage comes to a halt. The coachman jumps to open the door.
A cool autumn breeze sneaks through the cabin to have me shiver again.
“What do you think?” Maddie chirps. I look back to the crowd. They are smiling. I feel it set me back.
I’m not used to this.
“But…but why?”
“Because you’re the King’s daughter,” Maddie answers simply.
“Your Empress,” The red-haired coachman holds out his hand. He is not unfriendly, but I feel his hand stiffen with my touch. He doesn’t speak as I step down. Maddie follows behind me.
As soon as I am firmly on the ground, the coach wastes no more time. He and the rest of my traveling party drive off toward the stables. I remain with Maddie at the end of the path as we watch them go.
They seem to be in quite a rush. That is my only thought. I assume they are tired from their journey. And the horses need their rest. It’s that, or they don’t like being here.
But I don’t get to dwell on it as a sweet cry breaks the air.
“Welcome, Empress Anastasia, to Dawny!” The nearby servants cheer and bow in their uniforms all at once.
“Welcome to our kingdom,”
“Ah!” I nearly jumped at the sudden noise. I hobble closer to Maddie to grab her skirt.
‘You’re doing fine,’ Maddie mouths with a gentle push to my back. I swallow down my nervousness.
If you say so. I take a shaky breath. Again, I feel a nudge on my back. She means for me to move.
I venture to shaky steps forward before I hear another cry.
“Your Empress,” The Nobels bow their heads. I see the men dressed in silks and furs as the women curtsy in their puffed dresses.
“Empress Anastasia,”
I blink back at them with shock. I did not expect any kind of welcome such as this. If anything, I’d expected the opposite.
They aren’t scowling or staring at my hair. That may be the biggest shock for me. Everyone's expressions are not disdainful. They look genuinely friendly.
I am not prepared for this at all.
But seeing it gives me some courage. It’s not like back home. I feel like I might actually be welcomed- as I belong.
Still feeling this new courage, I can lift my head and step faster. I make an attempt to look at the stage more thoroughly because I want to see them.
I want to see my father and brother- I actually want to see my stepmother.
It’s an overwhelming sensation that makes my heart skip.
I’m really back in Dawny.
My excitement slows as I come closer. Because I can see something I couldn’t see from below. And when I start to ascend, I become certain of it.
There is only one person standing at the top. She holds her head high as a smile stretches over her soft features. Her gray eyes beam down at me with full attention.
“Greetings, Mother.” I greet first. Maddie stops just shy of stepping up. I feel her warm hands let go with a slight rush of panic. But I hide my unease.
I only dart my eyes around the platform. I don’t see them at all. Are they inside?
Queen Belinda slightly twitches her mouth. But her pleasant features return.
“Empress Anastasia, I welcome you to Dawny. I hope your trip was pleasant.” Belinda emphasizes my title strongly.
She curtsies, and I mirror the same. But I am losing my confidence as I stand here. Why is it only Stepmother?
“Is father inside?”
Queen Belinda tightens her smile.
“The King had to step away to deal with a revolt in one of the villages. So I am to entertain you until his return. Hopefully, it won’t take long.” She explains without a rise in her voice.
I can only nod.
“I see.”
A king needs to take care of such things. I try not to be disappointed. I have to be understanding.
So what about him?
“And brother Nicoli?” I inquire.
“Where is he?”
Belinda’s eye twitches at the question. But she is back to another sweet expression.
“I had hoped to meet him. I have a-“
"Empress Anastasia." Belinda moves swiftly to catch my arm in the loop of hers. I feel almost dragged up because she is so tall. But she leans lower to make up the difference.
Her hand pats mine before resting over it.
“Prince Nicoli has caught a fever and is resting.” Queen Belinda pouts as if saddened by the news.
I feel crushed by the news.
A fever? Is he going to be okay? A sudden well of concern comes over me. It feels like I drank too much water.
But I must be easy to read as she gives me another pat.
“Not to worry. It’s but a mild one. Children often get them. He needs a strict bedrest.” Her voice is calm, and I feel myself having to relax.
With that, we walk toward the castle. But it isn’t a smooth transition. My legs are short, and I struggle to keep in step. It would be fine if she let go, but she pulled me closer when I shifted my arm.
She beams a smile down at me, and I feel trapped. I have to try to put up with it.
Ahead, the castle doors open. Inside is the foyer with the chandelier. I instantly recall the dread I’ve had about it.
It still hangs like a ghost that haunts a house. I have to frown. I’ve never liked that chunk of crystal.I get nervous whenever I look at it. Especially when I see it start to swing, it looks so heavy up there and wants to fall.
I was always scared it would fall on me. I still am. The fear is not gone.
“I hope brother Nicoli will be better soon,” I try to ignore the swing death rock.
Behind me, I feel Maddie. She’s picking up my skirt. I check on her to see her beam a smile back. It’s much warmer than Stepmothers.
Queen Belinda frowns at something. She mutters under her breath.
“Nasty habit.”
“What is?” I ask, looking around. Was someone doing something?
“Ah, your ears. I forgot.” Queen Belinda laughs softly.
I feel her slightly grip my hand with her nails. It doesn’t hurt, but I can’t help but want to pull myself away. That doesn’t seem like an option, though.
“Have you ever had tea, Empress Anastasia?” Queen Belinda carries on.
“No, we don’t drink tea in Nochten,” We have coffee sent in from the colonies.
Queen Belinda smirks for some reason. I feel her long nails graze my skin a bit more. It still doesn’t hurt, but I feel myself shiver.
“Then I think it best to have a taste. I shall have something set up for you.” Queen Belinda coos with a knowing smile.
“We'll have a nice, private tea. Just for us."
"For us?” I look behind me at Maddie. She is smiling, but her eyebrows are starting to bunch up.
“We can catch up.” Queen Belinda carries on.
“Ah,” I nod. It sounds reasonable.
“Then let’s do that.”
“I am so glad.” Queen Belinda curls her lips into a new kind of smile. It’s kinda sharp looking.
How odd. I think, but toss the thought aside.
*Nicoli*
As they walked on, a pair of blue eyes peeked down from between the banister above. The boy was in awe of the girl’s silver hair. It was like nothing he had seen before.
So, of course, he had to consider the owner with more care. The first thing he could note was how much smaller she was. And she looked frail with her thin arms and legs.
I thought she was supposed to be older. Nicoli thought and touched his head to measure.
She’s no bigger than me-“Your majesty, there you are!” One young blond maid harshly whispered upon spotting the stole away at the stairs.
“You are supposed to be in bed!” The maid cried and went to help the boy up.
“What are you thinking just to sneak out? If the queen finds you out here, there goes my head,”
“I only wanted to see her,” Nicoli replied and took her hand. He pouted with a trained cast down of his eyes. It had the result he wanted. The young blond cooed before furrowing with guilt.
“Aye, you are just curious.” The maid went and threw a glimpse to catch the supposed guest.
Sure enough, she could see the telltale mark of her silver hair.No wonder he was curious. Anyone would be.
“The great failure of Dawny.” was what Queen Belinda’s maids referred to her as.
But the maid couldn’t see such a thing. She thought the girl looked quite the opposite.“She’s much prettier than I thought she’d be. Ain't she?”
Nicoli nodded in silent observance. His blue eyes seemed to be glued to the girl who was walking with his mother. They disappeared around a corner.
“But we can’t stay here, your majesty.” The maid again remembered herself.
“It's the queen's orders. So now, let's get back before she finds out, okay?” The maid gently squeezed his hand, and they began to walk.
“Okay,” Nicoli chirped with a practiced smile that made the girl coo again.
“Such a sweet child.” The maid couldn’t think of any child more perfectly willed.
While the maid turned back to look ahead, Nicoli took his chance. He swiftly lifted the skeleton key from the servant's pocket and shoved it into his sleeve.
*Ana* We are escorted to a set of guest rooms that are freshly cleaned with flowers in every vase. The rooms smell sweet and airy. And it feels bright with the yellow wallpaper and soft cream-colored furniture. It was more than adequate for anyone staying in the castle. But I feel odd about having to use it. Why can't I use my old bedroom? I remember having one of my own. Though I can’t say exactly what that looked like. But I did. So why not just let me use that? Unless someone else uses it now. It strikes me that they might not be free anymore. It might be his now. I smile when I think of him. If that's the case... I don’t mind the room change. It’s insignificant to me. "What you smiling about?"Maddie is in the middle of unpacking. She opens trunks to pull out packed clothes. "I was thinking that this isn't my room." "Oh? You remember that?" Maddie pauses to roll a pair of socks. "I'm surprised you can. You were so young when you left." I lessen my smile a little at tha
*Ana* Maddie was right. I feel dismal as the temperature drops the closer the maid guides us outside. She leads me down the patio steps toward the gardens. All the while, I try not to shiver obviously but it’s becoming more frequent. The Autumn chill is no joke. I have to pull the shawls closer. But they are not effective and the cold stabs through. Worse, it’s just around my shoulder. My feet and legs are getting the worse end of the deal. The chilly air seems to lick at them. I should have just put on that stupid dress. I am suffering silently. Ahead of the maid, I can make out a stoned seating area. A table has been set with china and snacks on tiers. The table has two chairs. One is empty as Stepmother sits in the other. Upon seeing her, I dart my eyes about. I’m hoping to find another smaller figure. Someone that should be either shorter or around my height. But, as we draw over, my expectations die. There is no one else around. It is going to be just the two of us. Thoug
*Ana* “Queen is how I’d prefer you call me if you don’t mind. Since we are not related, after all.” Queen Belinda smiles to thin out her lips. Her blunt white teeth look sharp even though she is human. She doesn’t have fangs but I feel like if she did- she would be lashing out at them. But why? I look at her so confused. My head starts to shake before I even know it is. Why are you looking at me like this? “But, we're family-“ “Empress Anastasia,” She again addresses by title. “I’ve been in society long enough to recognize those of talent. You, my dear, I can validate. You may do great things one day.” Queen Belinda motions for Julia. The maid pours more tea into my still-full cup. I see it begin to overflow and stain the tablecloth. It grows up to the edge of the table and threatens to spill over. I have to quickly switch away less it drip and burns me. “What are you-“ I look to Julia, but Queen Belinda demands my attention. “You have no mother and will never know how it is
*Ana* After my Stepmother leaves, I don’t move from the table. My mind is blank as I feel the events linger. I’m trying to make sense of things, but it doesn’t stay still enough. It keeps rolling around in my head. I can still feel her kick under the table- her phantom nails grating over my skin. But the final blow was to hear that I won’t see brother or father.- that he doesn’t want to see me. She could say all of this without losing her smile. “It can’t be…” My voice comes too late. No one is here to hear me. I have no one to listen. I’m not sure it could change anything, though. Even if I had spoken up then, what could I say? What could I prove? Did I have anything to counter her with? That I was safe? That Father wanted me? But then why wasn’t he here? Was it really true that he had to leave? Or was that an excuse? What proof do I have? Did I have proof that it wasn’t true? Nothing. This is the quickest answer that comes to mind. I have nothing. What I have is a single le
*Side note to readers: song recommendation while you read. Try Once Upon A December by Emilie Pandolfi* I groan while stirring from sleep. My eyes burn as I flutter myself awake. But they give me the chance to adjust to the darkness. Each blink helps clear my sight as I see better at night. And it is night. Some time deep into it. I can tell by how dark it looks outside from the windows. “Maddie?” I am up. My eyes scan the room, for her but see nothing. However, I find that the trunks are all closed and stacked up. Maddie must have finished packing and gone off to bed. The sight brings a small smile of relief. We can leave as soon as it’s morning now. I feel myself grow a little warm at the thought. Home never sounded so wonderful as it did right now. Home. I never thought I would look at it like that before. Until now, I had thought this was- At least I know people will be waiting for me. They have to. But the thought gives me no solace. I feel myself grow cold again. I mo
I must be in the right direction. The song is getting louder. Thank god, I’m relieved that I’m going the right way. It's been a couple of minutes of following down the strange hall. And it would be a waste if I wasn’t. I’ve been trying to remember this when I turn- so I can find my way back. I don't want to be lost. But it’s easy to get distracted by what I found here. My eyes can’t seem to stop themselves from roaming. But seeing it has proven one thing for sure, this hall is abandoned. It has to be. It’s full of discarded pieces with little to no organization. As if this were the land of castaways- I see furniture covered up in big white sheets and portraits piled on each other. Unidentifiable pieces of wood and building supplies are bundled haphazardly together- as if someone intended to come back for them. But that must have been who knows how long ago. Everything has a thick coat of dust. I move my hand to trace a line over an exposed armrest. It’s clean against the thick c
*Ana* "What is this place?" I feel a little silly to even ask. Because I know what it is. Sorta. It’s a room. But it’s not like I’ve ever seen it. The colors are so vivid- I must blink to ensure my eyes aren’t playing with me. I want to say they could be because I’ve been in the dark for so long that it’s not adjusting to the light just yet. But they’re fine. My eyes are not seeing things. I am standing in a room like that which I’ve never seen. And I’m blown away right there. If I had to break it down, the room should start with the walls. They have painted shades of blue in yellow of the likes I have never seen. It’s almost garish in the shade- seldom used in nature. It’s a color I never expect to find in my palace. But that is just the walls. What is inside the room is as follows- a lush purple carpet that sinks in with every step. It borders most of the room save for the sides where the furniture is. I see toys everywhere- they litter the ground. I see trains, building blocks
“Hello, little brother,” I repeat. But I still don't believe it. I never thought I would get to say those words. Let alone see the very face that is my brother. This must be a dream. Or not- as I hear another snore from him. It breaks the fantasy- only proving that this has to be real. I don’t think anyone ever dreams about someone else snoring. But still, I can’t help but stare on. “He’s adorable.” I find myself needing to gush over him. His face looks so sweet, like a little doll- a miniature of my father in almost all the ways, save for the beard. But outside of that, I am happy. It's good he takes after Father. Better than the alternative-if he happened to take after my stepmother more- I don’t think I could do that. I already know. It would make this very difficult. Just thinking of her makes me shiver. What a scary woman. Was she always like this? I can't remember. But there is something I was right about. If this was his room, which it had to be-This child is well tak
Naska stared at the cup instead of taking it, more shocked than surprised at the motion. Someone poured her drink? It was indeed a first. No one had ever done anything for her. She was so used to doing everything for herself. And glancing up, the sight of who did, only made her more confused.It was one of the veiled women—a Bulgeon, a human. Her eyes lined in that inky black shadow seemed to regard her in silence just as she did. Her hand lifted the cup, steady, as if she were still waiting. Naska, not knowing what else to do, took the cup. But her eyes remained glued to the woman. Because of the veil, she couldn’t know what expression the woman was making. Was it friendly? Bitter? What did her face even look like under the cloth?Watching her, the mysterious woman moved with grace. She poured another ladle of blood, not wine, to steam against the glass. Her thin fingers peeked out of her sleeve to swipe a slice of meat to dip in, and she moved to eat under the cloth. Naska raised
*Naska*“What a joke of a party,” Naska muttered, baring her fangs as she leaned against the wall. ”Mine will be so much better.” Her pale red eyes flickered over blue and gold streamers hanging from the center of the high ceiling with a sneer. Ugly colors, she immediately found it stupid. But not as stupid as having to sniffle every other minute. Her nose was irritated and starting to run from all the damn pine scent in the room. Each breath was like choking on a bottle of soap. From the platform near the far wall, the gentle strains of stringed instruments played a song too delicate and indistinct for her to recognize. It filled the air like perfume—pleasant to some, she supposed, but meaningless to her. Light laughter floated between the nobles, punctuated now and then by the sharp clink of crystal goblets. Beneath the noise, however, the pressure in the room was thick. Everyone waited for Her Empress to return. The tension curled under the music like smoke, unseen but unmistakab
*Johan*As he entered the banquet hall, Johan quickly noticed quite a few things. The first was that King Alexander was nowhere to be seen, though Johan expected that. He must have still been talking with Queen Bratha.What surprised him, though, was that others were missing—two, to be exact. The handsome brunette prince was not in the banquet hall as he thought he would be, considering he did not see him in the lobby or even the line. He was gone, and neither was Ana. Who he did see was just Hidi.The giant queen stood out among the partygoers- not just because of her size. Her very presence seemed to overpower anyone who dared draw near. Those who attempted to pass her either darted their eyes down or weakly bowed before hightailing it inside. Johan could see that even that old coot kept a safe distance if anyone wanted to try to talk to her, like the ever-eager Sir Celbest.The blonde was not pleased about something, and Johan could easily see it. The girl had never been one to hi
*Nicoli*Nicoli held onto Ana like a man gripping the edge of a cliff—tight, unyielding, unwilling to let go for even a second. The very idea of releasing her, even to their father, was absurd. No. Absolutely not.He had waited too long, ached too much, spent years longing for this moment. And now that she was finally by his side again, he refused to let anything—anyone—take her away. Not tonight. Not ever. So be it if he had to fight off the entire court to keep her close. Vampire, noble, or king, he didn’t care. He’d take them all on.She was his Anastasia. And now that they were together, everything felt right again.A rare, genuine grin tugged at his lips—one that wasn’t for show, unlike the practiced smiles he wore in Dawny. This was different. This was real.But as they moved through the white halls, his excitement warred with Ana’s slow, deliberate steps. Too slow. She still walked like an old lady.Nicoli’s muscles twitched with pent-up energy, his entire body screaming to mo
*Ana*My body freezes, every muscle locked in place as Nicoli leans in closer. His face is inches from mine, and I feel my breath catch, a whirlwind of confusion and anticipation racing through my mind. What is he doing? Is…he going to kiss me?But we can’t—we shouldn’t. We aren’t children anymore.As children, it was innocent. Nicoli used to kiss me on the lips, but it was always affectionate—nothing more, just like when he would hold my hand or offer a playful hug. It was natural to him, something that didn’t feel strange, something I expected from him without question. But that was then.Now, we’re adults. And that changes everything.We can’t– I try to tell myself that, but something in me hesitates, unsure whether I want him to stop or... not. I’m paralyzed, my heart beating so loudly I can hear it in my ears. As his face nears mine, I feel the world shrinks, the air around us thick with tension. A strange eagerness stirs in my chest—a warmth I don’t understand. It coils through
*Ana*“Nicoli–” He’s going the wrong way again. I shake my head, the soft chime of my gold chains punctuating my amusement. But he insists on leading, judging by the stubborn set of his shoulders. He’s determined to get somewhere despite having absolutely no idea where that is.For the past twenty minutes, Nicoli has forged ahead with all the confidence in the world, only to crumble in confusion when we inevitably hit another dead end or loop back to the same hall. Left, then right, then left again. Each turn is taken with steadfast determination — and each time, I have to stifle a new laugh as we encounter yet another wall.“Nicoli, just let me show you–” I try, though I’m already bracing for him to ignore me. It would be far easier if he let me lead, though. This is my palace, after all. I know the twists and turns, the subtle variations in the endless white corridors. But he seems lost in his resolve. As if doing this out of spite at the challenge and not wanting it to get the bett
*Hidi*“But, what about me–” For once in Hidi’s life, her voice was too soft to hear—lost, swallowed under the sound of laughter. Their laughter. Hidi froze, her breath caught in her chest, her words useless in the space they left behind. Her eyes only widened as she stared after them, watching–watching, but not moving in disbelief.The two of them were running, laughing, hands clasped like children lost in their own world. And she was still standing here.She blinked. Did they really just… leave me?The air seemed too still while everything else moved too fast. Nicoli had been right there. Right there. She could have reached out, close enough to brush her fingers against his sleeve. But he hadn’t even looked at her. Didn’t even voice a hello.Not once.His sapphire-blue eyes had locked onto Ana, and nothing else had mattered.For the second time.A cool flick of irritation ran beneath her ribs, lodging itself somewhere deep inside her. She knew this was their grand reunion, knew th
*Ana*Standing between my aunt and uncle in the banquet hall, I must appreciate everyone’s hard work for the party. They really put in a lot of effort.The banquet hall is beautifully decorated with blue and gold streamers cascading down to the center of the high ceiling. Each arched window features a garland of fir and pine, filling the room with a clean yet sweet reminder of the winter outside. The candelabras are all set and lit with fresh beeswax candles, brightening the room and causing the windows to fog up slightly. The tables that line the walls are adorned with an assortment of cakes, meats, and double boilers filled with various types of blood for those who prefer.It’s everything I could have hoped for. And I swell with pride. So far, I think my first real celebration is going well. I gaze over the steady stream of new guests. Once again, I have to note that most of those arriving are unaccompanied men I spot yet another group. They put on a show by bowing or smiling at m
*Nicoli*“So… this is Nochten,” Nicoli whispered, his breath barely stirring the cold air. He paused at the threshold, eyes sweeping across the grand lobby. He wasn’t sure what to expect, but it was certainly different from home.His gaze traveled upward, taking in the domed ceiling overhead, the polished stone walls that gleamed in the candlelight. Beneath his feet, a mosaic of a bat soaring toward the moon—Nochten’s national symbol—stood in sharp contrast against the pristine white stone. The palace lacked the excessive paintings and portraits he was used to. Instead of gold trim and plush fabric, there was only carved stone and painted walls. Even the flooring was a departure from what he knew. No wood, only cold, solid stone.Nicoli's eyes caught the mosaic again, its intricate details holding him transfixed. Slowly, a small smile pulled at his lips.It suits her. He thought. Yes, it most definitely did. This was most definitely Ana’s home. But, where was Ana?He stepped further