~Winter~
There is always a turning point in everyone's life, a defining moment when you know your life will never be the same again. It is either for good or worse, but a change will definitely occur, and you have no power over it.
That was when I stood at the altar with my fated mate, Alpha Brandon Knight of Hayland.
I wished I could snap my fingers and freeze the moment, but I had no such power; my only option was to live through it.
My legs remained frozen on the spot.
I should run, a voice in my head kept telling me to bolt.
Kira, my wolf, had receded, this was for me alone. My moment, my fucking moment.
It was the bluemoon evening, and everything had gone wrong.
I should have figured it out; the signs were there.
Denial is a vital coping mechanism, and I had adopted it all through, ignoring the signs and pushing on.
The recent late nights, control, reluctance, missed calls, and unexplained absences. It was there, but I just kept going.
"What you don't know won't hurt you, Winter."
"Keep your eyes on the price, Winter,"
"He is ours. This is it. We can't lose. We can't fucking lose, Winter," I told myself over and over again.
I blocked my ears to the whispers and pushed on.
Why shouldn't I?
Brandon had no reason not to tell me the truth.
He was Alpha; for fuck sake, he owed me nothing.
I was just a lowly gamma who ran a small orphanage with my best friend.
I mean, I was nobody.
Brandon would have told me if something was wrong. We were fated.
It was supposed to be a sealed deal.
It was supposed to be done.
This shouldn't be happening now, but it was, and I was the object of entertainment.
I met Brandon when Summer and I moved our orphanage to Hayland.
The visit was to connect with the Alpha and join the community if they would have us.
It was love, or will I say ‘fated’ at first sight.
We clicked instantly.
Brandon was warm, kind and gentle. Falling for him wasn't difficult at all. He showered me with love. He convinced me it would work. We would work.
His mother, Pamela, was overjoyed. She talked of the future with grandchildren and always occupied my time. With the way she treated me, people would think I was her child.
She was eager to get things over with, but Brandon wanted to wait for the Bluemoon. I wasn’t a patient woman, but I agreed.
Brandon being an only child, Pamela wanted Brandon to have children so she could see her grandchildren and watch their bloodline grow. She was optimistic.
Pamela would make me carry out Luna's duties and make small decisions. It was her way of preparing me for the position.
It came at a cost, of course.
The bakery Summer and I ran together suffered.
Because I was always occupied with the Luna’s duties, Summer had to run the Bakery alone, and since our recipes were special, we couldn’t employ extra hands, and the children were too young to help out.
Our production output declined, causing a decline in income. We weren't making enough to pay the rent for the orphanage and feed the children anymore.
But it was okay, because Brandon took care of it.
In fact, he did more than we could afford, and since taking care of the orphans was part of the Luna's duties, depending on Brandon a little was okay. Right?
Summer and I weren't from Hayland; we were outsiders from Brighton, but fate had led us here, and together we were surviving.
Sometimes, I would trouble Brandon to get it over with, claim each other and move on.
We didn't need the Bluemoon to claim each other; we were fated, but he wanted to wait for the Bluemoon.
He said he learned it was more intense, and the connection we would make under its blissful light would be worth our while.
He wanted it to be even more special than the first time we had made love. Brandon was a romantic and gentleman. Above all, he was devoted to his duty and his people.
The embargo on Hayland didn’t make his life easy, but he was forging on.
Waiting wasn’t easy because we had to fight the bond and the urge to claim ourselves.
Brandon had marked me with his scent just to calm both our wolves down.
I was always a fool around him. I couldn't think straight. It was as if all my smarts had departed from me and would only return once we were apart.
I wasn't bothered about it.
The Bluemoon was closer than my twenty-first birthday, so it was okay. If I could wait two years before finding my mate, then a few months should be bearable. Shouldn’t it?
I kept myself busy within those months to pass the time, and as the bluemoon approached, I was giddy and nervous.
I thought Brandon was happy, too. I really did.
I cannot force myself on anyone, so I thought being fated was a given, but I was wrong.
The morning of the wedding was strange. The atmosphere wasn't brimming with energy, and though I was happy, the joy that came with the anticipation of a joining eluded me.
I searched for it, but it was nowhere to be found. I felt empty. That was my sign, but like I said, I was good at denial, and this was one of those moments.
I was an orphan, so I walked myself down the aisle. Brandon stood handsomely at the altar, waiting for me.
I wanted to run to him. The gradual steps were taking forever, but I knew it was tradition. Did I mention that I wasn't the patient type?
When I got to the altar, Brandon lifted my veil and looked at me with blue eyes. His mother was from the Southern region, where he got his blue eyes and blond hair, but the rest of his features were his father's.
He was very handsome, and I could not believe he was mine.
I was smiling joyfully, holding the tears of happiness that threatened to fall. I dared not let them fall, or they would ruin my make-up. I doubted the make-up was waterproof, so I controlled my breathing to control the tears.
I guess I was a blind bitch because while all the emotions were coursing through me, I didn't notice the pain in Brandon’s eyes.
He wasn’t confident. The sadness and fear he tried to conceal were evident. I should have picked up on it. But I didn’t. It was our wedding, after all, and we were both at the altar. The rest could be resolved later. I would ask him what was wrong, and we would sort it out later, but not now, not during the wedding.
The officiator was about to begin when Brandon signalled him to stop.
It was a gentle gesture. He said it as if he forgot something which wouldn't affect the ceremony. He said it as if he wanted to compose himself before we proceeded, so I didn't think much of it, but when the silence lingered, and he did not signal the officiator to start, people began to murmur.
His eyes looked misty. They were pleading with me to understand, but I couldn’t.
I couldn’t understand, and the foreboding that washed through me held me in its clutches, fixed to the spot.
I should have bolted. I should have spared myself what happened next. But being the slow bitch I was around Brandon, I stuck around for it.
I lingered for the entire thing, wanting to get to the bottom of it, hoping he would change his mind. Stupid, but that was me, always hopeful.
Brandon took my hands gently. He caressed my fingers, stroking them gradually and staring at me lovingly with tears streaming down his cheeks. There was a slight tremor in his hold as if he was forcing himself to do this.
“I love you, Winter. I love you so much, and I hope you will forgive me for this,” he linked me, and I was confused. I didn’t have the time to process his words. His eyes glazed over, which meant he was communicating with someone, and as if on cue, he began to speak.
"Winter, you are an amazing woman," he began and everywhere was silent.
"In the little time I have known you, I have seen your qualities. You have a big heart, and you are selfless. It is everything a pack will want for their Luna. Someone who will care for them, watch out for them and love them. You have all the qualities, Winter. My friends love you. My mother adores you, and the people accept you. Though you are new in Hayland, it is as if you have been here all your life. You blended in excellently and brought joy into the lives of the children at the orphanage, and I am forever grateful for that." He said, and I wondered why he couldn't wait until we were asked to say our vows. This sounded like him saying his vows unless I was delusional.
"fate tied us together. I don't know why, but it did. And you are an amazing gift, Winter, but you are not for me," he said, and the entire hall went utterly still. I went utterly still.
I felt something had hit me. This was the part where I should have bolted, but I had to stick around for it.
"I have spent two weeks contemplating this. I have tried rationalising it because I never want to hurt you, but we aren't compatible," He continued, and the tears fell from his eyes. Brandon was acting as if he was about to recite a script he had painfully memorised.
"I apologise in advance if anything I am about to say is hurtful. It is my truth, and I feel it best that you know it." He said and adjusted his stance, looking at me with cold, uncaring eyes, and I knew I was fucked.
I should have left, but I remained. I fucking stood there and took his shit.
"We aren't compatible, Winter. You are bland. You don't know how to have fun. You take life too seriously, and when we go out, you are so clumsy that you embarrass me. You do not know how to dress or behave publicly like a lady. You act as if you aren't educated. The worst part is your inadequacies rub on me. You say and do things a proper lady would never do," He said. I remained still; my feet wouldn't move. It was too good to be true, now I knew.
~Winter~ I should have walked and not waited through the whole thing, but my feet won't budge an my heart wont let me. Some people laughed, and some people gasped, but tears just streamed down my cheeks and his cheeks. If this was hard for him to do, then why was he doing it? "I have waited for my fated, and I must say, I was disappointed when I found you. I tried to love you. I tried to make excuses for you in my head, but I just couldn't. The day I knew I couldn't go ahead with this was when I could not introduce you to my foreign friends. Your sense of fashion is terrible, you have no taste, not an ounce of sophistication, and you do not seem like you care to learn. Hayland needs a Luna that would build it and help it survive these trying times. You aren’t that person, Winter. I wanted you to be so badly, but you aren’t that person," He said and released my hands. "I must say, only a foolish alpha in my position would settle down with you. If I were a peasant or a commoner, wit
~Winter~ I felt a hollowness when I woke up. An emptiness that I would do anything to fill up. The break wasn’t complete either, Brandon and I were still faintly connected, and I did not know why, but it worsened my emptiness. Remembering the incident made me cry. I cried all night into the morning. I scratched his mark on my inner thigh until the skin was marred and sore. I hated myself for falling and letting him do this to me. I hated myself for daring to believe. Fate never gave me anything good. Why did I think this would be different? Summer and I grew up in an orphanage. We were dumped at the orphanage with only our last names, and they referred to us as thus until we decided to give ourselves names when we turned four. I chose Winter because it was my favourite season, and she chose Summer for the same reason. Summer was a darling by giving me space. The children did not come to check on me in the morning, and I knew it was Summer’s doing. I was glad, but I knew
~Winter~ I heard slow footsteps heading in my direction and composed myself. Brandon walked in, and I did not bother to greet him. He did not deserve my respect. I felt the pull he felt it too, it was in his eyes, but I refused to acknowledge it. He seemed partially drunk in his wedding suit. He had dark circles and looked like shit. His buttons were opened, and his shirt rough. It was clear he hadn't slept at all. He should be happy after the show he gave the crowd yesterday. He should pat himself on the back. Brandon’s eyes were misty and sad. He was broken. He moved close to me, to touch me, but I stepped away from him. "Winter," he said almost in a whisper, emotions pouring out of him, but I was numb, his blue eyes misty, remorse filling his eyes as if he had a wake-up call but realised it was too late. I didn't let his emotions get to me. I was the one that was humiliated and shattered, not him. I was the one marked and ruined for life. I was the trash that had been discar
~Winter~ It's been a month since the Bluemoon incident, and I still haven't been able to get over what happened. It's Brandon’s damn scent and that residual bond causing an emptiness in my soul. I can't move past it, and the helplessness of it is infuriating. Summer believes I will be okay; I think so, too, but the stares and gossip aren't helping matters at all. Now, a month has passed, and I can't say I have healed completely; in fact, I still cry about it. Every time I go out, someone is pointing and gossiping. People look at me with pity. Brandon has tried to reach out several times, but I shut him out. It is best this way. The earlier he accepts he ended things and it is over, the better. I have yet to hear from Lesley, but I know I will. At the rate Brandon is going with his pleas, she will come for me. Even Brandon's mother has reached out a couple of times to check on me. Who was I kidding? It wasn't every day a fated got dumped at the altar. I couldn't believe
~Winter~ Summer and I remained at the window, drinking and staring at the moon. I wondered what the moon had in store for us next. Would we ever get a break? Will my heart mend? I couldn't tell, and I hated being in the dark. "Right now, I need time to be still to plan our migration," I finally spoke, and Summer was silent. It would have been easier just to leave if the children weren’t involved, but we owed a duty to keep them. Walking away wasn’t an option if we wouldn't be doing it together. That is when an idea clicked in my head. I could not tell if it was the alcohol or something spontaneous, but the idea was vivid, and I was willing to share it. "Are you squirmish about crime?" I asked Summer, and she looked at me wide-eyed as if I were crazy. I knew I needed to calm her down, which I did. "Please just answer," I said, and she relaxed. "No, tell me, Sparkle, I am listening," She said, and I nodded. "I say we rob a jewellery store, sell the loot, head to Greenville and
~Winter~ Another two months passed, and Summer and I never discussed the planned robbery. It was as if it was a forbidden project, and we shouldn't discuss it. Although Brandon had stopped sending the food support, we could still feed ourselves. Regardless of the calmness of the situation, Summer and I had it at the back of our minds that we would have to leave Hayland eventually. Brandon had stopped troubling me too, but I knew it was Lesley's doing, not his heart's desire. I was still healing, and the ordeal with the orphanage had kept me occupied. We baked more than usual, and the people patronised us often to support the orphanage. If baking could secure our roof, I wouldn't be so apprehensive. Returning from a bread delivery, I noticed Brandon's car parked at the orphanage's gate. A lump formed in my chest, and it felt like something was squeezing my heart. My pulse quickened, and a sense of nervousness enveloped me. The apprehension only intensified. Despite the false
~Winter~ I did not give two fucks about Lesley's weak attempt at public display of affection. I knew Brandon didn't love her because even though she interlaced her hand with his, his eyes were fixed on me. I could see regret and pain evident in Brandon's eyes. He was in pain, and he wasn't hiding it. I wondered how bad the threat to Hayland was that he opted to ruin himself like this. I could see he wasn't a happy man, but there was nothing that could be done about it. Lesley smiled at me, and I fought the urge to laugh at her. Knowing she was just a money bag to Brandon made me want to laugh. "Well, this place is an eyesore. We must tear it down and build something better to rent out at a better price to outsiders when they come. If you can afford the rent, you can move back in, but I want you out in six weeks," She said and stood up. "What!" I exclaimed and looked at Brandon. By then, Lesley was leaving. I could see clearly that she was the Alpha, not Brandon. "Six week
~Winter~ Six weeks was a very short time to plan and execute a crime successfully, so Summer and I had to devise a plan quickly. Planning to commit a crime was one thing; laying out the plan was another. We were amateurs that were under a lot of pressure. We had to be careful not to make mistakes. The options were between Haymonth and Mountain. They were both wealthy places, but Mountain was closer. We spent two days looking around the place while we baked loads of cakes and bread, hoping to come up with some money. Brandon requested we deliver cakes to him at his house for three days, and I planned to make those rounds successfully in the evenings to create an alibi. The bus left Hayland for Mountain in the afternoons, so delivering cakes in the evening would mean we never went anywhere. No one would suspect if an investigation were launched because we wouldn’t be taking the bus; we would be going through the woods in wolf form. It was a dangerous venture, but that was our bes