Hi, here's chapter 50. enjoy reading! anj
ANNIKA’S POVMy eyes widened, and tears began to form in the corner of my eyes as I felt another wave of contractions. I gasped loudly, and held onto the wall tightly for support. “Aaahhhh!“ I screamed.Hearing my scream, Caspian panicked and almost dropped Juliette to the floor. The door suddenly burst open, revealing Jade who was shocked to see us three.“What's happening here? What is that bitch doing here?” she asked with confusion.Before I could answer her question, Juliette and I let out a loud scream.“Aaaahhh! It's getting really painful, Caspian! Bring me to the hospital!” Juliette yelled. “Help! I think I'm going to give birth now!” I screamed, looking at Jade.Jade looked at me with confusion, but as soon as she realized what I said, her eyes grew wide and her mouth hung open.She looked at Caspian, who was now dazed and almost indecisive. He couldn't even move from his spot, as if he's feet were glued to the floor.He looked at Juliette, and then he turned his eyes to me
ANNIKA’S POVGone? That can't be serious! I shake my head violently, refusing to understand what Jade was trying to say. No! She can't be right! “That's not true, Jade! Tell me that's not true!” I screamed.“Annika, I know you're upset—”“No!” I screamed so loud. My tears began to fall down my cheeks. My chest hurt from the sudden loud and fast beating of my heart. My head spinning from all the things that I tried so hard to ignore. “He's not gone! I saw him open his eyes! It was gray just like his father! He cried! He cried, Jade! He cried!”All of a sudden, everything seemed so vague. I never really understood pain, until this moment. Everything is suffocating me, making it hard to breathe. It felt like the world collapsed on me, and I couldn't lift myself up from this bottomless pit.“Annika, I'm so sorry! I know it's hard to accept it, but that's the truth,” Jade's voice cracked and then, she began crying with me. Her shoulders were shaking violently as she sobbed with me.My tear
ANNIKA’S POVHeart Failure— that's what the Doctor said. It wasn't detected earlier, and what happened so sudden that even the Doctors couldn't explain everything.I sat on a chair as I listened to the Doctor who was explaining to me, but it seemed like I couldn't understand a thing.Jade was standing beside me, letting my head rest on her hips as she tried to comfort me.“We're really sorry for what happened to your baby, Mrs. Ferrer. We did everything we could to save him,“ the doctor said sadly.I nodded my head to acknowledge what he said.“Hey, it's okay. . . We're here for you,” Jade whispered.The moment I heard those words, I lost it. My tears began to fall endlessly again. I still couldn't accept it.That same day, I got discharged from the hospital. The day I left that place, I knew I wouldn't be the same anymore.While I was in the hospital, Caspian attempted to visit me many times, but I pushed him away everytime. I still couldn't face him after what happened.I couldn't l
ANNIKA’S POV“What are you still doing here?” I asked coldly. I looked at him coldly, ignoring the fact that he stayed under the rain just to shield me. It doesn't change anything anyway.“Let's go, baby. You might catch a cold and get sick. You shouldn't be out here in the rain,” he said softly. He was almost touching me, but he couldn't. He looked at me with pleading eyes — full of genuine care and concern. But I didn't want to go somewhere else. I want to stay with my baby. . .my Silas Timothy. I want to sit beside his grave, sing him a song and maybe. . . just maybe, he would come back to life and hug me. I want to sit beside his grave, and wait until he returned. . .or maybe, until I die. I feel hopeless and lonely. “You can go, Caspian. I don't give a damn if I get sick— or even if I die, I will stay here,” I stubbornly said.Caspian let out a deep sigh. His eyes softened as he watched me. His voice sounded desperate as he begged me, “Please, baby. . . Come with me. Let's get y
I stared blankly at the window, watching the cars passing by like it was the most amusing thing to do. Another day had just begun. Another day of pain, of remembering my son. . .Another day of blaming Caspian. Another day of wishing I was dead too. Honestly, I already lost count of how many days it has been since I last felt alive.The streets soon became busy. Everything was in motion, moving towards the future. . .except me.I used to think that someday, the tears will stop falling. . . or that it won't hurt anymore. I used to think that I can move forward and forget everything that happened. Yet, as the days pass by, it only reminded me of the days I would have spent with my son if he was still alive.I eventually realized that it won't be easy. That I have to deal with this loss for a lifetime. That time does not really heal a wounded heart. Yes, the pain will gradually lessen. . .but the scar of that moment will forever remain, haunting me even in my dreams.I silently wept. I do
ANNIKA‘S POV“Good morning.” I smiled at the guard who looked too stunned to see me.I walked inside the hotel with a renowned confidence. It was liberating, like I had been reborn and now I was able to flap my wings and fly. It feels like I was a new person. . . Someone who's stronger and knows how to stand her ground. Every pain I felt in the past few months had become a weapon— a shield I could use to protect myself. . .to protect my heart.As I take each step, a few head turned to my direction. I heard a few gasps, and then slowly, I heard faint voices talking behind me— murmuring and wondering who I was. I smiled at a group of employees who were taken aback, “Good morning,” I said. Hearing my voice, they finally realized who I was. Their eyes were widening in shock as they followed me with their gazes.“Is that really her?” someone murmured. “She looks different,” someone replied, disbelief was obvious in her voice.“I wonder what happened to her.” Another girl joined. I let t
ANNIKA’S POVThe sound of the falling rain was like my heartbeat— slow and steady, and then, fast and loud at one moment. I was sitting on the couch, my mind lost in a sea of thoughts while I stared blankly at the walls of my apartment.I've been sitting here for quite some time now, yet I didn't have the urge to stand up or move. I suddenly felt exhausted, even when my work wasn't really that tiring.I let out a deep sigh. It was Caspian.He was the reason why I was feeling this way. I never really realized how tiring it was to argue with him. . . to face him. . . to repeatedly push him away. His words rang inside my head, and for a moment, I felt enraged.‘How can you do it so easily?’ his nagged inside my head.I let out a sarcastic laugh. Oh, how I wish it was so fuckig easy! But it's not! I had to endure the pain for a long time! I was trying. . . Truly trying to heal from that painful loss, so how dare him accuse me of such a thing?My heart began to race as I breathe heavily,
ANNIKA’S POVThat night, I cried so hard. A feeling of relief and sadness washed over me. It was freeing to know that it's over, and yet, a part of me aches at the same thought. Jade and I spent the night with alcohol, oblivious to the fact that we both have work the following day.Jade was silently comforting me, gently patting my shoulders and stroking my back. I was silent too, but my tears were loud. They kept on falling like it was the only way for me to finally let it go. I didn't know how the night ended, but I woke up the next day feeling way better, though my eyes couldn't lie for me.When I got to work, Aries didn't say anything about my eyes looking so red and puffy. We were quiet the whole morning. Aries had a meeting with a potential investor by the afternoon, and he let me come with him to record the minutes of their meeting. Somehow, I was grateful because it took my mind off my worries. It distracted me from thinking about Caspian and me.“Are you okay?” Aries finally a
CASPIAN'S POV It was a fine summer day, the warm breeze of air kissed our skin as the birds sing along with the melodious song playing in the backgroun. Everybody was dressed accordingly. The guests were chattering, exchanging their curious glances with each other. The beautiful and colorful flowers made the surrounding so magical -- enchanting, just like how I felt with her. I smiled as I watched her walking down the improvised aisle, along with Pachelbel's Canon D filling the place. I still coulnd't believe I'm getting married to her. . .again. I could still remember the very first time I saw her in my office. She was dressed like an old maid. She was always quiet and nervous around me, and I barely even look at her. She seemed too ordinary for me. And yet, something about her eyes caught my attention. She was aloof. Unlike my previous secretaries, Annika never tried to make advances on me. In the last years that she worked for me, she never looked at me as if I was someone inter
CASPIAN’S POV When I was young, I used to believe that we had a perfect family. Many of our friends and relatives envied the kind of relationship my Mom shared with Dad. Yet, even as a child, I noticed the sadness hiding in Mom's eyes whenever she's alone. My mom was a beauty. Many tried to pursue her, but my Dad won her heart. Dad, was already a successful businessman, but my Mom came from a family of old riches. It was late for her to realize my father's true intentions. In front of everyone, my father painted a picture-perfect family, but no one knows the tears my mother cried when we're left alone at the house. I didn't understand it then. . .But when I saw a woman begging for my father's attention outside our mansion, my gut turned cold. Who was the woman? And most importantly, who was the child he was holding?The child looked a little older than me, but he was skinny. He was dressed poorly and he smelled like he hadn't taken a bath in a week. His eyes were almost deep with hu
ANNIKA'S POVI was up early this morning, watching the two handsome men in my life as they hugged each other tight. The warm golden rays of the sun are slowly creeping in, reminding me that it's a brand new day I should be thankful for. I stared at the boys, uttering a silent prayer to the one above for keeping us safe and bringing us back to each other again. I stared at them, unmoving, as I was afraid I'd lose them in the blink of an eye.Gently, I touched my son's cheek as if making sure he is really in front of me. And when I felt his soft skin on my fingers, a lump formed in my throat as the dreaded memories of the previous day haunted back my mand. I'd lose my sanity if anything happened to him. It will surely be the death of me. And again, I thanked the heavens for not allowing it to happen.Slowly, I got out of the bed, fixed myself and made my way into the kitchen to prepare our breakfast. I immersed myself into cooking while humming a happy tune. It's a day to celebrate. . .
ANNIKA'S POV "Annika!" "Baby!" Jade and Caspian shouted in unison as they rushed towards me, but I didn't falter. I remained kneeling in front of Aries, holding tight onto his pants as I begged for him to let go of my son. "Aries, please. . .don't hurt my son. He doesn't deserve all of this," I begged. I couldn't stop myself from crying. I felt so helpless. . .so useless! I can't save my own son. As Timmy looked down on me, my heart shattered, seeing the fear that's clearly written in his eyes. My heart broke as I watched him struggling to break free from Aries. The cops slowly backed down, repositioning themselves as they strategized on how to take down Aries. Juliette stood frozen to the ground as Aries began to walk backwards, still holding my son while pointing the gun on his head. "Everyone, don't move or I'll blow this child's head!" he warned. My eyes grew huge in fear! I cried so hard as I melted to the ground. Caspian reached out for me and pulled me back up.
ANNIKA'S POV I felt so anxious. It's been hours since Aries and Juliette took Timmy, yet we still haven't heard an update. Ms. Brown was sent home to rest. Her eyes were swollen from crying the whole afternoon. The management of the school also called to inform us about the repercussions of Ms. Brown's actions that put our son's life in danger. Caspian was pacing back and forth, his eyes couldn't hide the worry and anger that filled him. He was breathing harshly, and I can feel his growing impatience. It's already dark, we're tired, and yet, we couldn't afford to go home without any news about the whereabouts of our son. "I can't wait here anymore. I need to find my son!" he muttered angrily. "I'm coming with you," I stood up and ran to him. Just then, the police officers approached us. "We've already searched around the area, but there are no sightings of them. We've also put a lookout bulletin for them, and alerted the security of the nearby towns. They won't get far, we
ANNIKA'S POVThe moment we left the hospital room, Caspian fell down on his knees. He looked so weak and vulnerable, his tears kept flowing down his already wet cheeks. His eyes held guilt, regret and most of all. . .pain. If only there was a way I could take it from him.Slowly, I bent my knees down and sat down in front of him, holding his face with my hands. I gently wiped his tears, hoping that I could wipe away his pain. I touched his cheek, resting my forehead against his and whispered, "Don't blame yourself, Caspian. Your feelings are valid. You were angry and hurt.""Still. . .I could have been the bigger person. I should have forgiven him a long time ago. I should have talked to him a long time ago. . ." he whispered regretfully.He was vile man. He has done so many terrible things to both us. He has hurt us in many ways. And yet. . .I couldn't find any reason not to forgive him. Those things that he did in the past were bound to happen. I never understood it before, but look
ANNIKA'S POV"Be good, okay?" I instructed Timmy as we dropped him off to school."Yes, Mommy," he replied."We'll come back for you later," Caspian said.Timmy chirped happily as he went inside their classroom to play with his classmates. We stayed for a few moments, and I couldn't help but shed a tear seeing him enjoying his class. I couldn't actually believe that I'm here now. . .that I'm witnessing this moment that I once thought would never happen in my life."Are you okay?" Caspian asked."Yes, I am. I'm just a little overwhelmed. I honestly thought I'd never get to experience this," I said softly.Caspian pulled me to his side and kissed my temple. I closed my eyes in oblivion. I could feel the loud beating of his heart or the harsh breaths he take as he hugged me tight."And I never thought I could do this with you again. Let's go? We have an important appointment," he saidWe left the school to go to the police station to ask for an update. The cases have been filed by Caspia
ANNIKA'S POVI took a deep breath and stared into the wall. Caspian was hugging me from behind, our naked bodies covered under a warm blanket. I could feel his warm breath on my neck while his right hand was stroking my shoulders, trying to put me to sleep. But I couldn't.It dawned on me -- what happened at the restaurant. I couldn't forget how mad Juliette was and I got a feeling that something might happen. My heart raced at the thought, and soon, worry and fear crept into my heart."What's the matter, Annika?" Caspian asked softly.I turned around to face him. He was looking at me intently, his eyes were filled with genuine concern. I took another deep breath. I couldn't explain how I feel."I don't know, Caspian. I just feel like something's bound to happen--"Caspian tightened his embrace, pulling me closer to his body before planting a soft kiss on my head, making me stop talking."Nothing's going to happen, baby. I won't allow anything to happen. They will pay for everything,
ANNIKA’S POV I closed my eyes, wrapping my arms around his nape as he deepened the kiss. His right hand fell onto the small of my back, holding me closer to his body. He licked my lips and gently nibbled it, provoking an entrance. And when I parted my lips, he immediately slipped his tongue through my mouth. I gasped as he kissed me fervently, tasting every corner of my mouth while his hand began stroking my back in an erotic manner. A soft moan escaped my lips when I felt his hand gently squeezing my bottom. “C-Caspian. . .” I moaned his name. It's been a long time since I felt this kind of sensation. The way his hands expertly moved around my body, leaving each spot tingling with a delicate sensation and igniting a fire in me. I felt feverish, my mouth gaped open as I arched my neck to accommodate his sweet lips. “Ooohhh,” I moaned again when he sucked on my neck, gently nibbling on it. Caspian showered my neck with soft, feathery kisses. I felt myself melting under his tou