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Chapter 36
I catched my breath when I confirmed that I ran enough for him not to catch me by his eyes. Hindi ko alam ang magiging reaksiyon ko sa ginawa niya kanina. Hindi ko rin alam kung ano ang dapat maramdaman. Gusto kong magalit ngunit gusto ko rin siyang tanungin dahil litong lito na ako. Pero saan nga ba ako nalilito? Sa ginawa niya? O sa nararamdaman ko?
Nang bumaling ako sa harap para sana dumiretso sa bahay, pero nakita ko si Maverick na nakatayo sa labas ng gate. Bakit hindi siya pumasok? Nakayuko ito habang nakasandal ang likod sa gate.
I composed myself before going to him. When he noticed me, he stood up straight and approached me. I nervously looked at him. Hindi naman niya nakita ang ginawa ni Sidhea
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