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Chapter 38
Trigger Warning: Anxiety attack
It’s past midnight but I am still wide awake. I can’t seem to sleep with all the thoughts and worries running in my head this time. I am anxious of everything. I am anxious of what will happen in the future, with my sister in rehab, with my other sister having her family and might neglect us, and how would I support our youngest to school. I am very burdened of everything. My anxiety attacks once again.
It is no joke. It eats my brain at the moment that I think it would be better if I am numb right now. I am in the corner of my dark room, unable to breath properly. My thoughts suffocate me. I can see my mom, my aunt, Ate Kaitlyn, and Lalaine blaming me for everything. For their deaths, for their situation in the present.
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