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Chapter 11
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2021-10-24 16:22:58I woke up earlier than my alarm and I don’t know why. To think that I wasn’t able to have the correct amount of sleep, I’m weirdly energetic today. Dahil ba ‘to sa gatas kagabi? Speaking of what happened last night, it never left my mind. At ngayon, naaalala ko na naman kung paano halos lumuwa ang mata ko no’ng makita ko si Sidhean.
I shook my thoughts away and got ready for work. I prepared the breakfast for the royal family and prepared to go to Morning Dew. Maambon nga ngayong araw. Sinuot ko ang jacket at sumakay ng tricycle papuntang coffee shop. When I entered, si Kuya Ian lang ang bumungad sakin. Wala ring customer siguro dahil masyado pang maaga. I ordered my usual and after eating, dumagsa na rin ang mga drivers at mga early birds na mga estudyante. Naging busy ako hanggang sa natapos ang shift ko.
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