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2021-05-09 00:44:23The sunlight coming through my half-opened window, hitting my bare face and causing me to awake. “Ah, shit” I groan, stretching my body. “This place is messed up!” I say as I’m looking at my house. Everything scattered, food wrappers everywhere, the shoes not placed like they used to, the fridge full opens, making the room temperature kind of cold. “Fuck!” I sigh, getting up from the couch. “I can’t believe this is happening to me” I mumble.
I make my way to the kitchen and about to shut the fridge door, instead of cleaning the mess, I grab an apple from the fridge and bite the apple little by little while processing my mind. “I think I have to call Ben and ask him for some help...” I say deep inside. I walk towards the living room and place my ass on the couch, making a good position for me before I grab the phone. “Fiuhhh…” I sigh, grabbing my phone and make my way to call Ben.
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“You’ve been in prison too, dad. You too, Grandma. It’s a family record” I say. “I’ve been there just two days” My grandma replies.“Well, two days is two days, you still in prison though” I shrug, my eyes point her. “This is not a joke, Maia” My mom responds. “Oh God, come on! Don’t you think that I don’t know what this family has done? You all are liars” I state. “Watch your mouth, Maia!” My mom exclaims.My dad suddenly comes and he just talked on the phone with our family lawyer. I crossed my arm and sigh, landing my back on the couch. He sits and he gives me a look “Look, you have four offenses here” My dad starts. “One, you violated public safety. Two, you damaged the company’s property. Three, you attacked someone. And the last, you brought a gun, illegally!” He ends. “Are you fucking kidding me? I shoot the casino’s lamp, not people!” I shout.
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