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The Warmth of the Hand That was Held

Author: Pia Oyuku
last update Last Updated: 2023-04-24 00:17:12

The next few weeks seemed to fly by. Changmin and I had wanted to drop certain hints prior to the release of 'For Old Times' Sake'. After discussions with the team and Kim PD-nim, we decided to start with a few texts and then a few pictures that wouldn't reveal too much.

10 days before release, DayBreak posted a statement: 'We have lived worth 10 lives.'

The 9th day before release: 'What was it that they said? A stitch in time saves 9?'

The 8th day: 'The winds from 8 years ago have never smelt as sweet before.'

The 7th day: 'Just you and I in all these 7 billion.'

The 6th day: '…6…'

The 5th day, we took photos of our right hands, wearing gloves and put them together such that half my hand and half his hand together made up the 5 fingers of one hand.

On the 4th day before release, we posted a picture of 4 dumplings.

On the 3rd day before release, we posted three blank pictures- one black, one white and the last one a mix of both in an elaborate floral pattern.

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