I got down from the car immediately Samantha brought it to a halt and headed towards the house. I avoided her gaze, I avoided her stare. I didn't want her to see through me. Otherwise, I'll become even more weak than I already was.As I got into the house, I headed straight to the bar and pulled a bottle of vintage Cabernet Sauvignon wine and headed to my room. It was useless, nothing made sense anymore except getting drenched in liquor. I slumped into my chair trying to play the scene that took place at Audrey's house."I can't anymore Lucas," she had said, "I can't continue with this arrangement anymore, it's killing me,"I had reached for her hands but she drew back, "I'm sorry… I know this isn't easy but you can't just call the relationship off, Audrey think about what we shared,"She stood up and walked to the bar and had poured her drink, she gulped down its content in one gulp and exhaled deeply. She didn't look as troubled as I was in fact, she seemed calm about it.I wasn't.
If I were eight and still believed fairies exist, I quickly would make a wish… two wishes. The first would be to know what was eating Lucas up and the second wish would be to make me as strong as I was when the contract kicked off and leave him to his liquor. It hurt me that I cared and it hurt me even more that I could think of not caring.I snatched the glass from his hands and some of its contents spilled on my hands, "Lucas…" I began "Why are you doing this to yourself?"He tried to grab the glass from my hands but I lifted it further into the air. When he looked up, I couldn't tell if his eyes were swollen from tears or from drinking too much alcohol– my bet was on alcohol."Give me that," he said. He tried to stand up but staggered a little. I walked to the bedside and placed the glass on the lamp table. I walked back to the table, I hadn't felt this bad about anybody as I did right now.Now that I was thinking about it, it dawned on me that I had not taken a closer look at Luca
"Damn!" Lucas groaned as he slumped on the ground, his hands clutched to the part I had hit him. My blood ran cold when I realized what I had just done– I shouldn't be going through this. I thought of what made me agree to this contract in the first place and brushed it aside. I should be thinking of Lucas who was curled up on the floor groaning.I crouched beside him and placed my hands in his head, but he angrily shoved it aside, "Stay away from me!" He yelled."I'm sorry Lucas… I didn't mean to do that, I tried to warn you," I said, and regretted that I said the last words.He glared at me for some time and stood up, his hands still on his head. "We should check for any sign of bleeding," I said, trying to touch the injured part."I said, stay away from me!" He said, shoving my aside. My jaw felt tense as I held my breath, "I just wanted to check for any sign if injury that's all,""Oh really?" He smirked, "Samantha, Samantha, Samantha… how thoughtful of you," he teased, his voice
He moved back a little and growled, "What the hell are you doing… watching me?" He questioned, his eyes searching mine.I blinked, and quickly got out of the bed, "I-I-I…" I stuttered."You what?" He questioned bluntly. I turned around and took the cup. "Here you go, it'll help with the headache," I said, stretching my hands to him. He looked at me with his pale sunken eyes, he eyed me viciously and got out of bed.My hand was still stretched, why was he acting this way? I sighed and placed the cup on the tray. I watched as he entered into the bathroom. Was he having an issue with her again?I surely didn't know what I was getting myself caught up in when I agreed to sign the documents. I didn't see myself paying attention to him, I was focused on the compensation that I forgot about the downside of things. Now, I worried for every slightest thing that doesn't seem right.Maybe I could start a proper conversation, maybe I said something to hurt him or the words didn't come out right.
What the hell was I doing? I wasn't usually like this, I wasn't pathetic. But I was gradually slipping into being pitiful and sticking up to someone and I didn't see anything wrong about it.Lucas was turning me into a sober lady, I wasn't a sober person. Maybe, civil to an extent but definitely not sober. "Use your seatbelt," Lucas said, clicking his seatbelt."Yeah sure," I said, and fumbled with the seatbelt, he smirked. I had made it obvious that I was nervous. He pulled the seatbelt and clicked it.He pressed the start button and started driving out of the mansion, "How'd it go?" I questioned, referring to the trip he had gone for. There was no response.I rolled my eyes, he was embarrassing me and he enjoyed every bit of it. "You didn't mention it, I even asked your Dad and–""Samantha cut me some slack," he said. Now, he was acting like a jerk, a cold jerk."Lucas, is there something I should know?" I questioned turning to face him, from the corner of my eyes I saw him staring
"See you tomorrow Emily," I said, as I packed my laptop with one hand and grabbed my bag with the other."Have a pleasant day, ma'am," she replied. Only that my day wasn't so pleasant. I stepped out of the office and handed my access card to her."Here take this," I said, "I'll be a bit late tomorrow, drop my schedule on my table,"She nodded and collected the card from me, "No problem ma'am,"I turned around and started walking towards Lucas' office which was four offices away from mine, "Um… ma'am," Emily called out.I turned around and faced her, "Yes, Emily. What's the problem?"She shook her head, "He left the office already," My hands stiffened at her words, he left the office without giving me a heads up. I felt like I was being stood up– fuck you Lucas."It's okay, maybe he had something urgent to attend to," I replied, trying to hide the look of disappointment that spread on my face.She nodded, "I can order a–"I dismissed her with a wave of hand, "No, no, you go right ahead
I slowly opened my eyes and shut it as fast as I opened it, I worked my way through my body and realized my shirt was gone. I was bare-chest and Why was I wrapped in a down comforter?I tried to get up but it was a struggle, my head hurt so much I cupped it between my hands. What was going on? I looked around and saw Samantha looking at me. She held a cup in her hands, I eyed me looking intently at my face. I wanted to do the same but my head felt like it was being hit by a tornado.We stared at each other for a while, none of us trying to break the silence. I didn't have anything to say to her because I was a jerk and she must really think lowly of me. I left her at the office without checking in to tell her and to top it up. I came home embarrassingly drunk.She didn't look angry, the look on her face was one of disappointment and frustration. I felt a little bad but I had no reason to explain anything to her. If I could just get out of the bed and walk away, but I can't so I looked
I held my breath as Lucas spat out hurtful words, "Stay away from me," he said. If it was easy I'd get up and walk out of the door without giving it a second thought. But, it wasn't I couldn't lift myself up from the bed. So, I just watched him. He withdrew from me and straightened himself."If you would just speak up and stop acting like a…cowards," I mumbled the last word.He growled, "You think I'm a coward?" He thundered. I looked at the door and feared for our secret, he was losing his mind but there was so much we… he would lose if someone walked through that door and met us in this situation.I shook my head, "No, Lucas I don't think you're a coward I-"He cut me off. "You what now," he scoffed. "You want to go all decent and act like you're the victim?"I was the victim. Lucas was pushing me too hard. I wanted to get angry at what he just said. No, he wasn't the victim I was. He came home drunk last night and I watched over him. And last night, when he puked on the bed as soon