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64. Back To Reality
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When Regret Isn't Enough 65. A Changed Man
It was high-pressure, fast-paced, and exciting but stressful working for her dad. Yet, Amanza needed to stay busy. At the end of my work day, all she had the energy to do was come home, kick off my stilettos, and plop down on her comfy sofa. Amanza took her job very seriously. When her father made her boss she told him she was ready for any challenge. She fought tooth and nail against every competitor to make sure Diamond are forever Designed jewelry was up the ranks in Paris and other countries. In her short time here as president, she’d opened several successful stores within the UK. But lately, she has been craving a slower pace. Right now as the boss she needs a vacation or a break. After all the work she’s done, Amanza knows she’s earned one.But she’s been hesitating to select vacation time because her personal life is in limbo and things weren't simple or clear between her Holland. Amanza needed certain questions answered. Has Holland found out if Susie’s baby is his? Will th
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Amanza's POVI hear a tap on my door. "Amanza, are you awake?"I awakened, realizing it was Holland's voice. I had forgotten that he rises at the crack of dawn.I searched the closet for my robe and pulled it over my silk nightie as I walked barefoot to the door."Good morning, Holland."He's standing there with a big smile and wearing a pair of satin gray pajama pants that left little to the imagination—looking good enough to eat. The last time I saw Holland without a shirt seemed like forever, but it was doing the storm when we shared that cabin. And the man looked even better! He looked more muscular. His dark, wavy hair is still damp from the shower. My eyes took in the profoundly tanned, well-muscled shoulders. My eyes made the mistake of traveling down his eight-pack stomach, following that trail of fine dark hairs that disappeared into the drawstring waist of his pajamas that hung on his hips. I had this overwhelming urge to untie the drawstring, pull them down, and take a peek.
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"So please accept my sincere apology for all the pain I caused you.""I'm also truly sorry about bringing Susie into our life and marriage. I realize now she had no business there. I feel bad about that. I didn't want you to leave. I didn't think I would ever see you again. And then that storm happened, and it was the perfect storm. It brought us back together. I can't forget how my eyes were opened in so many ways."I felt a little embarrassed. I ate my light breakfast and ordered another glass of tea.Holland had eggs over easy and broiled salmon. Two men walked past our table and smiled at me.I saw the scowl on Holland's face, "Why are you frowning?""I don’t like when men check you out like I'm not sitting here. Granted, you are beautiful, and I would have difficulty keeping my eyes off you too.""In Mexico, you could care less if guys were staring at me. I don't recall that ever bothering you.""Well, today, it is getting under my skin. I have been this way, trust me. I can’t hel
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"I understand, Amanza. I don't want to start a new relationship with you doubting me. So you don't have to give me an answer yet. The evening has just begun, and I still have time to convince you of my sincerity. But, everyone, including Susie, is under the wrong misconception, and trust me, it has been corrected.” "Is it possible you are under the wrong misconception, Holland?""I don't think so. I know my reasons for staying by Susie's side. But I have a feeling; she thinks I have stronger feelings for her than I do." He said, holding his head down."You gave her reason to think that way.""But that’s the past. I want to marry you, and I will never do anything to make you want to divorce me. No more business trips without telling you. I will give you no reason to bring up a divorce ever again.""I’m hoping Susie gets it.""She will when she sees that I don’t want her but wants so badly to be married to you. I will choose you any day.” "Humph, we will see.” “This month being alone.
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"So, where are we going now?" I asked Holland as he drove off."I know you think I forgot all your pleasure spots and points, and even though it's been years, if I don't do this one thing, you will be out of here on the fastest plane leaving tomorrow. But, of course, knowing you, you'll probably take off while I'm sleeping if I fail to do this one thing.""What on earth on you talking about now? Are you sure you are describing the right person? I'm not that young lady you met in Mexico who was easily impressed. So whatever you think you still know about me, I could have changed.""I don't think so..." Holland teased. "You change this one thing I'm talking about? I don't think so. That's unlikely."Holland says, looking over at me as he's driving. "No, when I think about it. I've changed. I probably like doing this more now than I did back then." He said, winking at me.I squinted at him, trying to figure out what he was talking about now."I love it when I have you all worked up and co
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We entered this very upscale nightclub of famous and elite business people. Once we were seated, we made small talk, and before I knew it, I finished my second strawberry delight and rum frozen drink. I felt good, perfect. I slid from my chair, tugged on my thigh-length dress, and took Holland by the hand. Then, moving with precise steps in my Navy blue stilettos, Holland followed me to the dance floor."So you do know me after all!" I said, looking back at him over my shoulder and grinning happily. I didn't recognize the song, but it had a beat that wouldn't quit!The club sat at the edge of our city, surrounded by a spectacular view. The exclusive nightspot tucked away in this private part of town is owned by someone Amanza knew who is famous. It dished out music that drew the tourists who wanted to socialize, enjoy the upbeat sounds, and dance the night away. Whirling strobe lights give me fractured glimpses of Holland, who I guided into the gyrating crowd.When we started dancing,
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Holland's PerspectiveWhen I opened my eyes the next day, the sun had risen. All my thoughts went to my wife, who was sleeping only a few feet away. It was the start of a beautiful week because she was still here with me. I couldn't believe it, and Amanza and I were on talking terms. If I didn't want that to end, I needed to take some time off from work.“Mmm, last night, she was so temptingly beautiful.”I smiled, and my heart felt light as I tugged on my underwear. I repeatedly paced, "I can't take off from work just yet. I need to implement some changes right away."“Good morning,” Amanza says sweetly.“Good morning, my love. Are you feeling okay?”“Yes, I’m great. What about you? If you are too tired, can you rest today?” Who now looks like a tall, dark, and handsome predator this morning. He wore a crisp white shirt, deep blue tie, and charcoal grey suit pants that fit his powerfully tapered thighs and muscular legs.“No, I’m okay. Thanks for thinking about me.” I say, looking at
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Holland's Perspective:It had been a tough week without Amanza at home. When I talked to her over the phone, she was sad but happy to spend time with her friend Olivia who needed her support. She returned home from Olivia's Friday evening. I had just returned from my business trip. When I pulled up in the driveway, I was excited to see my lonely house lit up with lights. 'She's back home!'I hurriedly and entered the house, calling for her.“Hey, babe, are you home?”“Yes, I’m in here.”I went from one room to the other, like an excited teen searching for her. Then, finally, there she was in the laundry room washing clothes.“Welcome home. How are you feeling?” I gave her a big hug.“It was a rough day. When my flight landed. I got a call from Collin telling me to come to the office. I was told my father took off from work today and we had a deadline we had to meet. So I went in for a few hours to assist Collin..."Right in the middle of our conversation Holland got a phone call. “Bab
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When Regret Isn't Enough 93. Please Give Me A Chance
Collin takes Olivia by the hands. "No! Never! What I'm saying, I was wrong. I've fallen in love with you.""I've fallen in love with you."Collin reached up, stroked a finger down her cheek, and lowered his head. He hovered close enough for their breath to mingle. Just as he was about to touch his mouth to hers, Evie and her husband walked up. "Olivia, sweetie, your big Sis. is about to leave for her honeymoon." Olivia and Collin quickly stood up, looking slightly embarrassed. "I think you two better put a hold on that. Marvin is still in the running for that hand in marriage." "Stop it, honey. Olivia, Daddy will straighten this out for you in the morning. And make sure to listen, okay? Listen with your heart, Olivia. Promise me." "I promise.""Don't rush into nothing. Marvin isn't perfect, but he understands you and your people.""Evie, I know that...but Collin understands more than you know." "Well, honey, I'm going.""Have a good time, you two." Olivia and Evie hug one another.
When Regret Isn't Enough 92. Pretending Not To Be Married
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When Regret Isn't Enough 91. Let's Talk Son
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When Regret Isn't Enough 90. Who Is This Man
The Reid household was in a cheerful mood this afternoon. Fresh flowers were ushered inside by several florist trucks that just pulled into the long driveway. Today was an amazing and eventful day! One of the Reid girls was getting married this afternoon. Miss Reid is married to a wealthy Jamaican man who has been a long-time friend of the Reid family. According to custom, the oldest daughter should be married first. Now that the Reids have accomplished that, Mr. Reid is so happy he's about to get his eldest daughter married today, and now he can focus his attention on his next beautiful daughter.That would be fine if this daughter were certain she wanted to follow the traditions of marrying a Jamaican even though her first experience with a foreign man left her hurt and feeling used. She forced herself to put being in love again far from her mind. She still wasn't sure if the traditional route was what she wanted to take. Even though Jamaican parents aren't sticklers for arranged m
When Regret Isn't Enough 89. Meeting Olivia's Family
“Where do I start? This is hard. I didn't know how or when to break this news to you.”“What is it, Collin?” Amanza asked.“Amanza, me and Oliva got married.” “Really! Oh, Collin, I'm so happy!” She said, getting up and hugging him. “Why didn’t you bring Olivia with you?”“She’s on a business trip, and I have to pick her up a couple of hours from the airport today. But I thought we should talk alone, and I wanted to apologize for going off at your wedding.” “Thank you for apologizing. But I’m so happy for you two.” “Well, from the first time I met Olivia, I have been crushing on her. Besides, I didn't want to get caught sneaking around. So I thought it was best I say something to you especially. But I can't help myself. I love Olivia so much, and I miss her right now. “Ah, I’m so very happy.” “But I feel bad about ruining your wedding. But I don’t trust my brother, and I don’t want to see you hurt.”“I’m going to be fine, and it doesn't matter to me, as long as you and Olivia an
When Regret Isn't Enough 88. Why Collin?
Holland smiled at Amanza this evening, so happy that all that had happened was now behind them. “Baby, you sure are looking good this evening.” He stated, watching Amanza get dressed.Amanza POVI knew he had been standing there the whole time as I slipped my feet into my 5-inch pumps and fixed my pencil skirt and silk blouse before putting on my black fitted coat and matching hat. I smiled as Holland continued to eye me."Wow, you look beautiful, what's the occasion?" Holland's natural reaction was to hug me. But it wasn't just any kind of hug. Instead, I got a big bear hug that lifted me off my feet into his muscular arms."Where are you going? Should I let you go?""Yes...I'm going somewhere very important. I shall return, and then I will be all yours."I barely squeaked out the last few words before Holland set me down, planting a kiss on my lips that I had no time for but couldn't resist. That's when I heard a car horn honk outside. I looked up, shimming myself free from Holland
When Regret Isn't Enough 87. You Have A Right To Fight
Amanza PovOnce I was home. I let the phone ring for a solid minute. Then, when I got no answer, I immediately sent a text.Holland, I know you will see this text since you refused to answer my calls.But you will ignore it because you think I will understand your care for the weak and naive Susie.Soon, you'll learn that you are mistaken. Amanza Ended the Text.I promised myself I wasn't going to cry. Tears didn't help. They had never helped in the past, and they sure weren't going to help now.Nothing would help but get justice. But, like serrated blades, the memories of what has happened in such a public way. He has sliced into me and tore at me. Had I been so naive that Holland would never return to Susie? And how very wrong I'd been.Weary and broken, I lay in my bed, reflecting on all the pain that has filled my heart."God didn't create fools. Fools are something you let others make of you."I have to free myself from all the games and free myself from all the pain. I'm so tired
When Regret Isn't Enough 86. Shock and Awe
Amanza smiled and said. "Yes, I'm ready even though this day has been like a dream, dad. I don't know how to describe it."Amanza's father smiled and said. "Holland seems to have come to his senses; your mother and I are happy for the both of you."They continue to walk. Amanza felt this overwhelming nervousness and excitement come over her. It was a good thing her father held her arm tightly. Amanza didn't know Holland would go this far to prove his devotion and love for her. It wasn't expected. It just keeps getting better and better.All eyes were on her again. "Dad, thank you for everything you've done for me. I love you and mom dearly. I'm so happy you got to be a part of my wedding this time."Her father smiled back and said. "We're always here for you. I will always be with you like I am today. Ready to support you if you need me to. But I'm confident Holland will take good care of you. Look, we both are getting emotional."Amanza's father opened the door. He stepped out first a
