"Come to think of it, Shawn. Will your plan work?" I asked when he told me about his plan.A charming smile crossed on his face. It was a smile of assurance. He gripped my hands even more as if he doesn’t want to let go of me."Just trust me." He slowly moved my hair out of my face because of the wind. His sweetness was all over the place. I don’t know how to give Shawn back the tickle and thrill he’s making me feel right now. “I assure you, this will work.” Even though Shawn had already planned everything, I still couldn’t help but feel sad and pensive. With all the evil I experienced with him before, especially what happened at the mall recently, do I deserve all of these? “What’s wrong, Raine?” I shook my head and immediately averted my gaze.“C’mon, Raine.” His hot breath tickled my neck. I looked at him. I just stared into his talking eyes. “I know something’s bothering your mind. I can feel it.” “As much as possible, I don’t want to use other people just to get
"YOU REALLY are stupid, Raine!" I heard Dawn shout from behind. I accelerated my walk to the mall parking lot even more. "What the hell did you get into, huh?" The footsteps of her shoes quickened as she approached me. Dawn took a grip on my left hand. If I hadn't clung to her, I would have stumbled. "Don't turn your back on me, Best. I'm talking to you. What's the issue I watched in Andie's live video? Why did you pour coffee on Shawn?" I simply shook my head. I was not in the mood to listen to her sermons. "Boys will always be boys. And I hate them all." I pulled my hand away from her. "What kind of drama is this, Best?" I never dared to answer. I turned my back on her and continued walking to my car. Dawn followed me again. "You're really bad, Raine!" I heard her shout. I rolled my eyes. “I am no longer happy with what you are doing. Don’t you feel guilty for what you did to Shawn inside earlier? You made him go viral on the internet!”"He deserves it. T
I usually wake up at around four in the morning, especially on weekdays. I have to. I am now in my third year of college in the Business Management course, and unfortunately, the earliest schedule came to me. Seven in the morning is my first period and that was the subject of our terror professor from Understanding The Self subject. Akeala University is twenty-five minutes drive from our apartment so I really need to wake up early. I’m a woman, but I like heavy metal songs. I used to play one while doing my daily rituals. That makes my brother, Javier, sick. His bedroom is next to mine on the second floor of his rented apartment. He often knocked on my bedroom door and begged me to turn off the sound system, but sometimes he just let me get going. “Raine... Raine…” Gradually my eyes opened. I feel something shaking me. "What?" My voice rang out. "Aren't you going to school?" Javier asked. My eyebrows met. “We have prelims today. Why do you ask?” "Then why ar
"So is that how it really is, Best? No flash news?" Dawn asked. Earlier she asked me about what happened this morning, but my focus was not on that incident. I had a test to do, so I remained unspoken. I shook my head and continued driving the scooter. "Why do you want to know? That person made me look ignorant. Also, you heard everything we talked about over the phone. Unless, you ended it early." “That’s right, Best,” Dawn said. She was also busy driving her electric scooter. "Kyle is so dumb. He called me while you were having a drama with that American." "No, he's not a foreigner at all," I corrected. "Let's just say he's a bandwagon and he's trying hard to be one." "Maybe if you have to live there for a few years, I'm sure you'll look and act the same he's doing, once you return here." I grinned. "As if I plan to go abroad! I have a responsibility here in the Philippines, remember?" That was true. After our biggest downfall, I promised Dad I w
It was the last Friday afternoon of September. I was in the quadrangle, busy video calling Mom. She was outside the apartment. Maybe Hannah let her breath fresh air. Even though Mom is still crippled to this day, I can, somehow, see the smile on her lips. I can’t wait to see her back to normal again. I wanted to dance with her on my birthday. "See you later, Ma." I waved a goodbye kiss to her. "Best, even if you kill me for a few more years, I'll still tease you." A pair of human shadows appeared in front of me. The two are side by side. I took a deep breath and looked at Dawn and Kyle. "What? Are you going to tease me again about that moron? I already forgot what happened that day." I never talked to Dawn for almost three days. To this day I am still upset at what she did. She invited a man, who I hated the most. Too bad, she didn’t ask my permission. She pouted her lips. "Couz," Kyle called. "What?" I asked. "I'm confused with you two," he said in di
The symposium on motorcycle riding and traffic rules lasted more than an hour. It doesn’t seem like this month is for me. What happened to me was a mess. It all started because of Shawn Dawn tapped me on the shoulder. I turned to her. "Best, I'll go with Kyle." Many students, in various courses, came out of the entrance of the gymnasium, where the symposium was held. I barely heard what she was saying, but I nodded. "Are you sure you're okay?" Kyle asked as he snatched the key of his motorcycle from his pants pocket. "Yes." I smiled slightly. "I'll just call Javier and he'll pick me up." "No need, Best. Shawn has been texting me lately," Dawn said. "He is already outside the gate. He's waiting for you." "He doesn't need to do that." I shook my head. "He's just exhausting himself." "He’s so sweet, Best," Dawn insisted. "I don't find it sweet. It's a waste of time on his part," I said. "I told him to stop bothering me, but he's stubborn. Why is he botherin
I was supposed to enjoy my sleep. But Shawn was too excited. He woke me up at around five in the morning by knocking on the door many times. I didn’t want to show up for the conversation, but I thought it was a small thing I would do now compared to the help he was showing. He had been nice to my mom. He seemed to have good vibes with Javier. He was kind and gentlemanly, and yes, okay, I somehow forgot about the incident. I thought it was time to treat him fair. I opened the door and Shawn showed up to me already dressed. He had on his casual t-shirt, above the knee shorts, and biblical sandals. He also had just combed his wet hair with his fingers. He looked like a simple man, far different from the man I used to know. "Good morning." "Where did you get that outfit of yours?" I asked. Even though Shawn was simply wearing them, they looked expensive and it was impossible that they were my brother’s clothes."Oh, I always have extra clothes in my car." A wide smil
"Best, what does this picture mean?" I closed my eyes emphatically as Dawn breaks into the peaceful mood of the library where I was at. I just covered my face with the book I was reading out of embarrassment. I was sure the students inside were watching us. "I thought Shawn isn't your type? You have a hidden agenda with him, eh!" "A little respect for other students, Miss Galera. Maybe you forgot you're in a library?" reprimanded the librarian, who was over thirty years of age. "This isn't the place to gossip. If you want to, go out." With all the shame she got, Dawn still managed to do a peace sign. "I'm sorry, it won't happen again," she said almost in a whisper. "Let's go outside, Best. Let's talk there." She grabbed my hand, then pulled me away. I almost fell off my seat, luckily I got my balance back. "Okay, fine," I whispered. "I'll just return this book." I shook my head. She was acting like a kid again. I wanted to be angry with her, and sometime
"Come to think of it, Shawn. Will your plan work?" I asked when he told me about his plan.A charming smile crossed on his face. It was a smile of assurance. He gripped my hands even more as if he doesn’t want to let go of me."Just trust me." He slowly moved my hair out of my face because of the wind. His sweetness was all over the place. I don’t know how to give Shawn back the tickle and thrill he’s making me feel right now. “I assure you, this will work.” Even though Shawn had already planned everything, I still couldn’t help but feel sad and pensive. With all the evil I experienced with him before, especially what happened at the mall recently, do I deserve all of these? “What’s wrong, Raine?” I shook my head and immediately averted my gaze.“C’mon, Raine.” His hot breath tickled my neck. I looked at him. I just stared into his talking eyes. “I know something’s bothering your mind. I can feel it.” “As much as possible, I don’t want to use other people just to get
I was trying to call Dawn many times, but she didn't respond. That was new to me. I’m not used to not seeing her messages or chats with me every morning. A few days have passed and she is ignoring me. Especially at work. I was bombarded with death threats and curses when I opened my social media accounts. They didn't put me to sleep for weeks. During those same times I had no one to talk to. Javier has been exhausted. He was focused on Mom's treatment and I didn't want to add to his fatigue. I feel like Kyle is avoiding me too. I live with them, but he doesn't talk to me. I was alone. I only have me, but I don't trust myself either. Why am I really mad at Shawn? What's urging me to treat him like that? Shouldn’t I be happy and he has someone else? I knew Chloe was better than me. And I’m happy for them. I was so stressed right now. Aside from the fact that I was lacking sleep, there was a lot more work to do. My head hurts. It's like being squeezed. I would like
It took me a couple of seconds before I finally realized that the man in the hoodie jacket was Shawn. It's him. My only Shawn was finally back! I smiled automatically. I waved my right hand for him to notice where I was. "Shawn!" There were customers in the shop who looked at me with a streak of seriousness, but I ignored that. My attention was always for him. Slowly he turned to me. He just stared at me as if he didn't know me. My forehead furrowed. What's he doing? Why doesn’t he seem surprised to see me? I don't understand. Why? I was about to approach him, but the woman he was talking to suddenly rushed at me earlier. Her face was in rage. Scary. It's like I want to be followed. And I was not wrong. I screamed when the woman suddenly grabbed my hair and pulled it. I couldn't resist the burning sensation on my scalp. I couldn’t help but cry in extreme pain.Other customers were also surprised and I heard their discussions. Everything would have been fine. I
It had been more than five months since I last saw Shawn. Every night I prayed to God that I would be with him again. Hopefully he will answer at least one of the text messages or chats. Dawn already knew everything. I have run out of reasons. She was more upset than I was. She was very upset. It's good that she knows because I'm tired of hiding. Inevitably I look at the stars in the sky, waiting to see wishing stars. I would be wishing for him to come back. Even if he only shows up. I missed him a lot. I missed his smiles. I missed his presence. I was already losing my hope, but I shouldn't be. I’m willing to do anything just to find him - I can just tell him how I really feel. “Javier, come back here with you know! Even just a set of my favorite makeup brand.” Dawn broke out the silence. Javier just looked at the rearview mirror and smiled. I just took a deep breath and went back to sight seeing outside the window. The sunshine is high now and the traffic fl
I really made the worst decision in my entire life, and now I was paying for it. A week without Shawn showing up. He doesn't even answer my calls, texts, or chats on his social media accounts. I also tried to ask Aunt Avila again, but she still didn't know where he was. I also tried to call Governor De Vera, but he doesn't answer my calls. Even the most powerful man in our province is angry with me. It was Friday, and I was at my favorite spot on the campus. Akeala employees had an urgent meeting on our last period subject. They were just given an assignment. Other students occupied other concrete benches, while many went home. I didn't feel like going home yet. My conscience was killing me. I wanted to talk to Shawn, but I couldn’t. I love you, Shawn . . . Kyle and Dawn notice that as well. I never told them what had happened that night, and I still don't know if I'll let them know about it. "Hey, Couz!" Kyle greeted who was approaching. He was with Dawn, as
"I saw what happened to you earlier with Shawn." I stopped walking when I heard Javier's voice. I found him in the hotel lobby sitting alone on one of the couches. His arms were crossed while his right leg was on top of the other. The serious look in his eyes was haunting my conscience. The front desks just keep working. "J-Javier . . . What are you talking about?" He stood up, but his eyes were still focused on me. "Can we talk outside?" I automatically nodded. He left the hotel first. I followed him with my mouth shut. He drew a deep breath. "I saw you two kissing." My eyes widened slightly. He saw it? "I don't want to interfere with what you and Shawn have. You're too old to follow your decisions, but I just want to make sure you don't regret it later." I shook my head. "I think I made the worst decision, Javier." "Why? If Shawn and you are happy with each other, Mom and Dad and I are happy too," he continued. He still doesn't seem to understand wha
The program ended past midnight, but the celebration did not. Some guests were left on the beachfront and others chose to go home. After the disaster happened in our family, this was the happiest night of my life. I was exhausted, but it was worth it because I thoroughly enjoyed my debut. We said goodbye to Javier and Aunt Avila to go to Dawn and my room. The girls couldn't shut their mouth up after they went inside Shawn's car. The five of us fit in the backseat, leaving Dawn no choice, but to sit next to him. We just let the boys walk. I noticed that Shawn couldn't break a plate. Ever since he returned to the venue after taking a pee, he didn’t talk to me or let out a single word. He was just nodding his head every time Javier asked him a question. Dawn also wonders why we don’t pay attention to each other, but it’s good that she doesn’t know. Shawn and I had to keep that thing from them. In less than five minutes we reached the entrance of the hotel room. I jus
As time went by, the nervousness disappeared in my chest. I have nothing else to feel but the great joy. We are all tired of just going through this night. I was sure Dad was proud of me. I excused myself after the eighteen, no, nineteen roses dance. I will change clothes for our surprise number. As Shawn promised, he never left me. He drove me back to the dressing room since it was a bit far from the beachfront. "Are you sure it's okay for you to wait for me here outside?" I asked him when he stopped right in front of the door of the dressing room. "I'll change in the bathroom." He smiled. "No, it's okay, Raine. I'll just wait for you here." "Okay." I smiled. I finally went inside. The makeup artist was already inside, setting up her kits, and my next outfit was lying on the bed. It took me over five minutes because my gown was so hard to take off. I also retouched and changed the hairstyle. It was just relaxed and matched with the reddish cocktail dress Sh
IT'S REALLY happening. Our efforts were all worth it. Earlier I was nervous while in the backseat of Shawn's car so that it would be more social to look at the entrance. Well, it was one of Dawn's creative imaginations and I couldn't keep quiet because I was so nervous. "You'll be okay, Raine," Shawn said as he smiled glancing at the rearview mirror. He was carefully driving his car down the pathway to the main venue. "You own this moment and you must enjoy it." I tried to smile, even though my lips were trembling. I’m not nervous because of the guests, but I’m afraid of what they’ll judge. Especially the children of Mom and Dad's friends who are here now. We always threw elegant parties before when we were still rich. Our situation is different now. Also, I don’t know if what I look like right now matters to me. I looked like Cinderella. My hair was in a bun like hers, matte makeup was done by the artist, and when I looked at myself in front of the mirror wearing