CH : 4

                           {- JESSY -}

I didn't want to see his face but he was standing in front of me with a bouquet. His face was a reminder of the biggest mistake I ever did.

He has changed a lot. He looked more handsome now. I don't know if people change in 1 year but he really changed. 

"I'm sorry Jess." He said while I just stood rooted at my place trying to figure out how to push him out of here.

"For what?" I asked trying to play dumb even though knowing everything.

"See, Jess, I know that was my fault. I'm so sorry. I'm stupid." He said apologising hoping to be forgiven for something which didn't even deserve to being talked about. 

I smiled and replied sassily "Done? Now go!" 

"Wait! Happy Birthday Jess." He pushed the bouquet ahead towards me with a sheepish smile. I took a deep breath and looked in his eyes. Those eyes once used to be one of the best views but now they were just signifying the fake and ruthless persona. I quietly took the bouquet to avoid unnecessary drama. 

"Thanks." I pushed the door and tried to shut it but Harry stopped the movement of the door with his left hand.

He moved closer giving me more of his cologne. He grabbed my waist and squeezed me towards his body..he leaned forward and kissed me. The same feeling, the butterflies in my stomach and his touch which I thrived for was again reaching my brain cells passing signals to react the same way he did. But as soon as the thoughts about what he did entered my head, I pushed him away. He rested his head on mine still not leaving me. 

"I love you. And I know you love me too. It's difficult to forget the 1st love. Like I couldn't forget you." He whispered while tightening his grip on my waist. I struggled while trying to remove his hands from my body.

"We spent 3 years together baby. You can't forget me like this. I never forgot you and will never. Please! I know you still have feelings for me." He said and kissed me again. My lips sensed wetness as his lips sucked on my lower lip.

His words infuriated me and built up anger in me henc I pushed him and threw his bouquet at him.

"I got someone for whom I'm special! Like you said. " I shouted lying and trying to sound as pathetic as I could.

"You are still bad at telling lies!" He chuckled while trying to reach me.

"Get outt!" I screamed and felt tears running down my cheeks. The melodramatic and idiotic guy didn't leave hence I passed a frustrated glance at him.

"I will go. But remember you still love me. I'm always here for you. Call me anytime. And you didn't block my number. You know why? Because you still had faith in me. That one day I would call you. That's enough proof." He smiled and went away. His words somehow affected me and my inner conscience. 

I shut the door and sat on the floor. I rested my head on my knees and folded my arms together. Tears started flowing from my eyes like water from mountains. The memories hit me like a hard rock. The way we both laughed on each other's silly jokes, the way I used to rest my head on his thigh and fall asleep was so good and lovely. That girl, whom I left behind an year ago, wanted to be a part of me again. All those memories were shouting on me to experience that again.

Suddenly another strange feeling shook me from bottom to top. What if Harry really loves me? What if he changed?

I shook my head in dismay. I didn't want him back. What if he hurts me again? What if this time he takes more than what he took last time?

The noisy doorbell brought me back to present. I wiped my tears and fixed my clothes. I smiled so I could look normal. I opened the door with a smile and looked at my friends who were standing with excited demeanour.

"Hi!" Kate and Bobby shouted together.

I broadly smiled to look normal and fine. But before I could say something, Kate engulfed me in her arms.

"Don't hide anything from us. That was Harry isn't it?" Kate said while tightening her hug.

I didn't know how but they sense when I am sad. I couldn't stop myself so I cried. Bobby hugged Kate from behind. She squeezed my hand assuring everything was going to be fine.

"You are such a bad lier." Kate said sniffing a little.

Finally we let go of each other. I wiped my tears and smiled.

"I know. But how do you know that he's Harry? " I asked.

"I saw tears in his eyes when he passed by us. And after looking at your face , it became obvious." Kate said presenting her smart personality in front of me another time.

"Wow! You are an eagle. That's why you score good in exams because you cheat from others with the help of your eagle eyes. Isn't it?" Bobby snapped and we laughed. Kate punched Bobby's shoulder while the latter scrunched her nose.

We ate a lot, danced, watched movies and totally forgot about others. Finally after the little get together, Kate and Bobby went home. Bobby was in a hurry because she was leaving tonight for her causin's wedding.

It was 9 , when my parents came back home. We took dinner together. After that Mom and Dad went to pack their bags for tomorrow. I went to my room and started packing. I packed 7 pairs of clothes, one nightsuit and a new toothbrush.

After packing I went to sleep. I climbed on my bed and suddnely my phone buzzed. I didn't want to pick but reluctantly had to. It was Harry.

On Phone

Harry: Hi!

Me: What do you want now?

Harry: Open your window!! I'm just about to fall. Fast!!

Me: What are you doing?

Harry: Jess!! I'm about to fall!!!!!

He hung up. I went to open the window in a hurry. I found Harry hanging outside my window as if recreating the spider man scenes. I helped him to climb in.

"I think doors are made for display. Isn't it?" I asked angry.

"It was so great out there. Nice experience! You should try it once" He smirked.

"Yeah!! Obviously! It's no joke Harry. What if you-?" I was just about to finish but Harry's expression made me stop dead in track.

"You care?" He asked with a straight face but soon it turned into a smirk.

"No! I don't care. Why would I care? Go die! Why- why there's a need for me to care?" I muttered hurriedly so as to make it clear that I didn't care.

Harry took my hand and gave it a little squeeze. We were looking at each other.

"What are you doing here? " I asked so as to change the subject and break the eyecontact.

"I wanted to talk to you." He said.

"We can talk tomorrow. Go now!" I said and fixed my gaze on the floor.

"Pls! I love you Jess." He said.

"Ok! Listen. You love me that's okk. Keep on loving me. But I don't love you. Understood?" I snarled.

"Pls! Just one chance. " He said while getting on one knee. He pulled out a rose which infuriated me more because that act proved that he didn't even know my favourite flower. 

"I promise I will love you truly. Trust me. I've changed. " He confessed while I grunted to conceal anger.

"Give me some time." I said so as to avoid more conversations.

"Ok! As much as you want. I will wait." He smiled and nodded.

I took the rose and told him to leave. He was about to jump from the window but soon I said something which didn't make any sense.

"I'm not a Virgin." I lied in hope that he would not try to insist again. He smiled and chuckled.

"I don't care. I never loved your virginity. I Ioved you. And will always do." He said and went away in the dark. I lied and he didn't get it. I closed the window and went to sleep.