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2024-10-29 19:42:56I was indeed afraid of what Hawk would do to me as penance for my escape.
But not enough to stop my mad flight back through the castle. My hands tracing the corners that I’d clung to when I’d gone to his chamber. Using them to find my way back.
His fury had felt like enough to bring the bricks of this castle down around my ears.
But even that wasn’t as terrifying as the realization that I’d been so relaxed in his presence that I’d nearly fallen asleep on his chest. And he’d welcomed me there like a familiar lover.
Not like a less powerful mage he was controlling with his blasted magic.
I’m not his toy. I was soon pacing my chamber. His threat ringing in my ears so vividly that I couldn’t sleep.
‘I swear by all that’s holy Mary, if you do not finish me, I’ll take you on your knees like a dog tomorrow!’
He wouldn’t.
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