91 - Jessy

I was a first-rate liar.

First, I convinced Hazz not to say anything in the presence of my mother about the dinner I had attended without him. Then I convinced my mother that she was keeping me only at the hotel all the time with Hazz.

Neither of them realized that I had my own reasons for that. My mother didn't agree with that facade relationship I had with Nicolas, and Hazz would probably resent the lie by understanding that he would never be enough to be with me. It was true.

No matter how bad it was to say it out loud. Hazz and I could not be together, until he accepted that life as his own, until he stopped being just a man who keeps two dull jobs and with a golden opportunity in his hands. The worst part is that my goal to take you on that trip was for protection.

So that he would not be vulnerable in Brazil, with our enemies, at least until my family found out what was happening. But something else grew in those days of travel and maddening sex. Something has changed. And I sho