Of course, I was always willing to submit to what my older sisters proposed, and of course I was always regretting it when I realized that the idea was a complete bore. For example, the moment I let them drag me into the vastness of the field, and I convinced myself that I was really going to a beautiful refreshing waterfall. But I wasn't prepared for half the disappointments, starting with the chosen path.
Gabriella was a wonderful lawyer, but as a tour guide, she was a disaster. She managed to get us lost in an open field. She simply did not know which direction made the most sense for the point that her boyfriend had pointed out as the place of the waterfall, and this made us practically spin in circles and not reach any point."Yeah, I think we should have waited," said Gabriella, leaning against a tree full of ripe mangoes. "But I thought things were closer around here, as it usually is in the interior of the cities."It's just that the field connects all the other farms," said Gina, as if she were saying something very intelligent and unthinkable. "So we're kind of already on another property, and we're not getting to the creek that Cadu said belongs to his family."I don't think I can stand walking anymore," I grumbled as I sat next to the tree. The trunk was well injured by time, but the fruits seemed very appetizing according to the vision I had from the bottom up. The smell there wasn't unpleasant either, it seemed to be the only thing stronger than cow manure. "And I can't even stand this sun anymore. Why didn't any of you think about bringing a bottle of water?"You didn't think about it either," Gabriella said, frowning. "But now that I'm thinking more coldly, I think it could be in that direction.Gina and I looked, there was nothing apparent, just more trees and probably animals. But at least it was in the east direction, which could take us back to the Soares family property. Anyway, I was discouraged to have to keep walking, and I started taking off my shoes. Free from the expensive shoes, I put my feet on the lawn and took a deep breath, relaxing."This time I'll have to agree with Giulia," said Gina, leaving sitting next to me. She was sweaty, almost stuck to me when she bumped into each other, but she felt disgusted and straightened up. "I have the dirt of three homeless people, Gaby. I won't be able to take any more steps forward. I may even be able to go back, but I don't want to get to know this stream.Gabriella kept that expression of someone who knew very well what she was saying, but finally stared at us."And what do you want? Waiting for the boys?I shrugged."Either I wait for them, or I wait for the rain. Because I'm not going to walk in this sun."My sunscreen is melting," said Gina, checking her arms. Her face became even paler when she noticed that the sweat was also on her forehead. "And my very expensive base went to the bag too.Gabriella snorted like an angry bull.“Gina! You complain about Giulia, but you are acting with the same immaturity and pride as her. You are the oldest of us, you have to set an example.Gina made a sound of agreement, then removed her shoes, pulled up against the trunk of the tree and closed her eyes as if she were going to take a nap. It took a while for Gabriella to understand that she would not do anything that her age required. And I laughed out loud. I could hear some birds nearby. Not the cute and small type. But birds like herons or bigger things, which made a peculiar and even scary sound. By the time I laughed, the sounds just increased."Gaby, the truth is that even you can't stand this place.“We've only been here for half an hour, Giulia."And even so, no one else can stand this place.Gabriella rolled her eyes, then put her hands on her hips and tried to see beyond those high and mountainous fields. That waterfall could be hidden anywhere, and the crazy one of my so responsible sister had had the brilliant idea of exploring the place. I didn't know if I could consider myself so stupid at that point, because I had agreed with the idea, but I definitely knew that I would never fall into their talk again."So what will we do? "Gabriella asked."I'll wait until Cadu appears," said Gina, still without opening her eyes. The dark hair flew against his face, as soon as a hot breeze with that horrible smell of dirty animals found us. "Because I'm not going to walk all this again. They could have left us here by car, if you didn't have the idea of walking through the woods."Finally someone understands me," I sighed with a little smile.Gabriella nibbled her lower lip, as if she were thinking. However, his expression showed more curiosity than new hypotheses of cwahss. I watched her already aware that some idea of an Indian was coming."There's a house not far from here," she said, pointing to nothing. I didn't know when his vision had become an eagle, because I kept seeing bush and animal. "We can wait for the boys there, so at least you won't be so vulnerable below that caterpillar's foot.I widened my eyes and looked for some mangoes on the floor. There were no caterpillars in it, but when I looked up, trying to see the leaves of the tree, I didn't know if I was imagining things, or if something green like the leaves was moving slowly to reach the trunk. I got up in a jump, but Gina stayed in the same place."I swear to God that if there is no one in that house, or if we keep walking like idiots, I will kill you, Gaby," I promised with a finger pointed at your face.Gabriella raised her hands in a gesture of surrender."Come on, hopefully, those people know the boys."Well likely," said Gina, still sitting and with her eyes closed. "Since everyone here seems to know each other very well."Then why are you still sitting there? "I asked with suspicion.Gina shrugged."I said I wouldn't leave until Cadu found me, and I won't. Have a nice trip, Girl Scouts.I grumbled, but Gabriella took me by the hand and dragged me again through that open and infernal field. I could deny as much as I wanted, but my sisters always managed to take me to the hole they wanted. It was the kind of influence they had in my life.In the end, Gabriella had no sense of location and we couldn't find the waterfall. We went back to the farm and had to listen to Gina laughing out loud for our failure. In fact, that trip would be hell.Gina looked at the dress and then at me with a gentle smile.“Giulia, I think it's a little too much for dinner here on the farm. Maybe you should opt for something simpler and more relaxed. "she suggested.Gabriella agreed, adding:"That's right, Giulia. We want you to feel at ease, but this dress is a little extravagant for this environment.Deep down, I knew they were right, but something about me insisted on wanting to impress, especially because Bernardo's parents would be there. I wanted to make a good impression and show that I struggled to be part of that family."Do you think it's really exaggerated? "I asked, hesitantly.They nodded with an encouraging look."I'm sure you'll look beautiful in any outfit, Giulia. But it is important that you feel comfortable and confident. "said Gina, supporting me.I took a deep breath, thinking about their words, and finally decided to follow my sisters' advice. I chose a simpler blouse, combined with an elegant skirt, but not as bright as
"Yes, it's a constant process. But we're getting over it little by little. "I said, trying to change the subject. “I think I'm going back to the room and try to sleep again.Bernardo agreed with a nod and accompanied me back to the room. Although I was not yet ready to open up completely, something inside me began to consider that maybe he could be someone I could trust and find support, even if we needed to keep our distances for now.The next morning, the sun began to illuminate the sky when I was awakened by a loud moan near the bedroom window. My heart raced for a moment, but I soon realized that I was just one of the animals on the farm, and I laughed at myself for scaring me.When I looked at the beds next door, I noticed that Gina and Gabriella were not there. I was surprised, because we usually woke up together, but I imagined that they were exploring the farm or enjoying the beginning of the day in some way.I decided to get up and get ready for the day. I brushed my teeth an
Suddenly, I heard the noise of hurried steps, and soon I saw Gina and Gabriella running back towards the house. I realized that they were being chased by a playful ox, which only increased my fun.“Giulia, run! The ox is chasing us! "Gabriella shouted, with a mixture of fright and laughter in her voice.I laughed even more and got up quickly, following them towards the house. The ox seemed to be having as much fun as we were with that unusual joke.We ran as fast as we could, laughing and breathless. Finally, we managed to enter the house, closing the door behind us to protect ourselves from the playful ox."Hey, my belly is hurting from laughing so much! "I exclaimed, holding my abdomen while catching my breath.Gina and Gabriella were also laughing, sharing the same feeling of joy and fun."That was quite an experience! "Said Gina, still laughing.“True! I think the ox was wanting to have fun with us. "Gabriella added, trying to contain the laughter.As we recovered from the scare a
“I... I don't feel comfortable with that, Bernardo. In addition, I have no experience with animals in this way. "I tried to explain, feeling the frustration grow in me.He didn't seem satisfied with my answer."That's no excuse, Giulia. You are here on the farm, and you need to learn how to deal with things as they are. It's not fair that you simply refuse to help. "he replied, visibly angry.My emotions were on the surface, and I felt attacked. The tension between us increased, and before I could think better, I ended up saying things I didn't want."I'm not a farmer like you! I've never been raised like this! I'm just here to support my sisters, and not to be part of it all! "I exploded, letting my irritation escape.He looked at me surprised, but his face was still loaded with irritation."You don't have to be a farmer to help. This is a matter of collaboration and being part of the family. "he said, with a calmer voice, but still hurt.Before the discussion went on, I felt that it
While we were exploring the fair, I felt Bernardo's presence next to me, and his excitement in showing me every detail of the city infected me. Gradually, my insecurity was giving way to a feeling of belonging, and I felt grateful to be there, with him, in the midst of that genuine experience.When we returned to the farm, I was tired, but with a heart full of new emotions and discoveries. That trip to the city, even with its challenges and surprises, had been another important step in my journey of self-knowledge and acceptance.As time went by, I started to get used to the routine of the farm and the people who shared this place with me. I learned to value the little things of everyday life, such as the smell of the earth, the noise of animals and the heat of the sun on the skin. Every moment here had a unique charm, and I tried to connect with all this in the best possible way.While my family and Bernardo's brothers were exploring the farm, I preferred to stay in the room. I felt
In the dream, the kitchen of our house was immersed in a gloomy twilight, and the heavy atmosphere enveloped me. I revived the high-pitched sound of the knife cutting the air, the look of terror in my father's eyes and the feeling of despair taking over me. I screamed, but there was nothing I could do to stop the tragedy.I woke up in the middle of a hiccup, my heart beating fast in my chest. The painful memory of the past made me even more shaken, and I felt taken by the sadness and longing for my father.Despite being far from home and the city, I felt like I was facing my fears and insecurities head-on. It was as if the farm, with all its simplicity and authenticity, was helping me to confront my painful memories and find a way to move on.I decided to get up and distract myself a little, walking around the farm. The fresh air and nature around me calmed me down. I still felt physically weak, but mentally I was more determined to face my emotions.I knew I couldn't escape the past,
While the video was loading, I felt a mixture of emotions. It was challenging me to face my vulnerability and share my journey with other people, something I didn't do so often before.Even that night, with the loneliness of my absence at the city bar, I found myself thinking about the meaning of all that. The farm and the people I met there were teaching me to see life from a new perspective, to value the present and to face my fears with courage.The dawn was cold and silent. My cough bothered me, and I decided to get up to get a glass of water in the kitchen. When I got to the kitchen, I felt the cold air against my skin and wrapped myself in a hug to keep me warm.While drinking the water, I looked out the window and noticed that Bernardo was on the balcony. Your profile illuminated by the moon intrigued me, but I didn't have the courage to get close at that moment. I still felt a little insecure, as if my emotions were on edge and I didn't really know how to act.I decided to wai
Upon hearing the question about his childhood, Bernardo seemed to reflect for a moment before starting to share his memories."I was born and grew up here on the farm. My parents always took care of this place for the real owner, and I spent my whole life here. "He started, with a nostalgic tone in his voice.As he spoke, I felt that his connection with the farm was deep, and that made me even more curious to know more about his history."I had a very happy childhood here. I played with the animals, ran through the fields, helped my parents with the tasks on the farm. It was a very simple time and full of joy. "he continued, with a sparkle in his eyes as he remembered those moments.I found myself imagining Bernardo as a child, free and surrounded by nature, and that brought me a smile."But not everything was easy. A few years ago, we went through a difficult period. The drought hit the region and the animals were weak, we didn't have much food. It was a moment of hunger and hopeless