"Very well, and then... Where are you going to sleep? "I asked with a smile on my face.
Gina and Gabriella looked at each other, then expressed the same countenance of debauchery."Giulia, you're not really thinking that you will have enough rooms for each of us in the house, are you? "Gabriella asked, and my smile began to die little by little. "We are going to share this room, while the boys stay in the next room. I said it was silly that they had to be in another room, because you are already well used to them, but you know how country parents have a very closed thought.I was jaw-dropping with Gabriella's information and audacity."And how would I sleep in the middle of two couples? You can barely look at those men without wanting to jump on them, and would I have to put up with all this while I try to sleep? The cruelty that is being put me in a tiny room is not enough, do I still have to share it with other people? That's too much for me. I can't stand it.Gina rolled her eyes."About the part of sleeping with two couples, I don't agree either, but about the rest... Giulia... Please, you know why we are here. Don't make things difficult. I have no doubt that Cadu's brother is already telling his parents about how spoiled you are. Remember that we will not be able to leave here for a few days.I sighed, falling sitting on the single bed that was already totally full of the clothes I took out of the suitcase. To my surprise, she didn't move or creak. So I lowered my head and lifted the hand-sewn quilt, taking the biggest fright when I noticed that much of the bed's structure was made of bricks as construction. I straightened up again with wide eyes and denied it with my head as if I were in an outbreak."Oh, no, Gina. That's too much... We could go anywhere."And we would be found anywhere too," she replied."Gaby, I can't stay in this place," I tried again, already forcing an air crisis. I didn't have asthma, but I used to use that tactic to have something I wanted or have some attention. When you are raised in a home with five sisters, you learn a few things about always being in the spotlight. "It's not just about the animals, nor this horrible smell of manure, nor about the people here being so outdated that they don't know what the internet is, but it's about not thinking that this will change something. And when we get back? And when they meet us again? You and Gina have been through life or death situations, but what if the same is happening with one of our sisters and we don't even know? I don't want to be isolated anymore."You're trying to convince yourself that this place is more dangerous than the city, but it won't work," said Gabriella, irreducible. I sighed again, Gabriella approached. “Listen, Giulia. I know it's a little shocking for you, but we're just following mom's orders. She told us to stay close to our men, because only they could understand what was happening and keep us safe. She trusts them just like Gina and I. And I know that the reality of the interior is not something you dreamed of knowing, but it can be good, if you allow yourself to appreciate the place.I made a face, but I tried the effort to see the good side of the whole thing. I even took the trouble to get out of bed and look out the window. The material of the walls was weird, it reminded me of a cake dough, so fragile, and at the same time, it was too strong to withstand the few foundations of the structure. The window was of a green tone that released paint, and it was also of a material that reminded me of something edible. I looked outside, and saw nothing but bush, animal, and a bad smell that impregnated the brain."I can do this "I guaranteed for myself, despite knowing that that nature was nothing compared to the luxurious sites I have already visited for events, and that those animals did not have half the vaccines and treatments that expensive breed animals. "I can get used to it and not cause problems."That's the thought! "He celebrated Gabriella, grabbing me by the shoulders. She shouldn't be having any idea of the heat of that room, or she wouldn't hold me so close to her own body. The place looked like an oven, and I didn't know how I would get used to the hot days and without an air conditioner. "Besides, you can try to have a friendship with Bernardo and be taken to the parties in the countryside. Pablo said that there are many of them, almost every weekend, because they get together after work in order to relax, just like we do.I doubted that anything in that place was the same as what we did, because I would never submit to going to the end of the world in order not to die easily at the hands of the people who had been looking for us for years to settle scores. Gina and Gabriella were going to our mother's idea that the safest place was on the side of people who said they were willing to protect us, but they didn't understand my point of view. And even if I explained, they would still not understand."I can do that," I reheated with a false smile."Great," said Gabriella, pinching my cheek. So she turned to Gina. "Did Cadu not tell you that there is a waterfall nearby?"It's a stream," said Gina, watching her long, well-made nails. "Besides, I don't think it's a good idea to go out without them. You know, they are still taking their parents' sermon, and now that their brother has joined them... This should take much longer than we think. Maybe we can go tomorrow morning.Gabriella waved with her hands."Oh, no, I won't wait for them to have the chance to refresh myself. It's hot to kill in this room!"I thought no one would notice, "I booed when I crossed my arms.Gabriella had a naughty laugh."So let's find out where this waterfall is."It's a stream! “Insisted Gina.“Are you coming? "Gabriella asked, arching her eyebrow for me.Of course, I was always willing to submit to what my older sisters proposed, and of course I was always regretting it when I realized that the idea was a complete bore. For example, the moment I let them drag me into the vastness of the field, and I convinced myself that I was really going to a beautiful refreshing waterfall. But I wasn't prepared for half the disappointments, starting with the chosen path.Gabriella was a wonderful lawyer, but as a tour guide, she was a disaster. She managed to get us lost in an open field. She simply did not know which direction made the most sense for the point that her boyfriend had pointed out as the place of the waterfall, and this made us practically spin in circles and not reach any point."Yeah, I think we should have waited," said Gabriella, leaning against a tree full of ripe mangoes. "But I thought things were closer around here, as it usually is in the interior of the cities."It's just that the field connects all the other farms," said G
Gina looked at the dress and then at me with a gentle smile.“Giulia, I think it's a little too much for dinner here on the farm. Maybe you should opt for something simpler and more relaxed. "she suggested.Gabriella agreed, adding:"That's right, Giulia. We want you to feel at ease, but this dress is a little extravagant for this environment.Deep down, I knew they were right, but something about me insisted on wanting to impress, especially because Bernardo's parents would be there. I wanted to make a good impression and show that I struggled to be part of that family."Do you think it's really exaggerated? "I asked, hesitantly.They nodded with an encouraging look."I'm sure you'll look beautiful in any outfit, Giulia. But it is important that you feel comfortable and confident. "said Gina, supporting me.I took a deep breath, thinking about their words, and finally decided to follow my sisters' advice. I chose a simpler blouse, combined with an elegant skirt, but not as bright as
"Yes, it's a constant process. But we're getting over it little by little. "I said, trying to change the subject. “I think I'm going back to the room and try to sleep again.Bernardo agreed with a nod and accompanied me back to the room. Although I was not yet ready to open up completely, something inside me began to consider that maybe he could be someone I could trust and find support, even if we needed to keep our distances for now.The next morning, the sun began to illuminate the sky when I was awakened by a loud moan near the bedroom window. My heart raced for a moment, but I soon realized that I was just one of the animals on the farm, and I laughed at myself for scaring me.When I looked at the beds next door, I noticed that Gina and Gabriella were not there. I was surprised, because we usually woke up together, but I imagined that they were exploring the farm or enjoying the beginning of the day in some way.I decided to get up and get ready for the day. I brushed my teeth an
Suddenly, I heard the noise of hurried steps, and soon I saw Gina and Gabriella running back towards the house. I realized that they were being chased by a playful ox, which only increased my fun.“Giulia, run! The ox is chasing us! "Gabriella shouted, with a mixture of fright and laughter in her voice.I laughed even more and got up quickly, following them towards the house. The ox seemed to be having as much fun as we were with that unusual joke.We ran as fast as we could, laughing and breathless. Finally, we managed to enter the house, closing the door behind us to protect ourselves from the playful ox."Hey, my belly is hurting from laughing so much! "I exclaimed, holding my abdomen while catching my breath.Gina and Gabriella were also laughing, sharing the same feeling of joy and fun."That was quite an experience! "Said Gina, still laughing.“True! I think the ox was wanting to have fun with us. "Gabriella added, trying to contain the laughter.As we recovered from the scare a
“I... I don't feel comfortable with that, Bernardo. In addition, I have no experience with animals in this way. "I tried to explain, feeling the frustration grow in me.He didn't seem satisfied with my answer."That's no excuse, Giulia. You are here on the farm, and you need to learn how to deal with things as they are. It's not fair that you simply refuse to help. "he replied, visibly angry.My emotions were on the surface, and I felt attacked. The tension between us increased, and before I could think better, I ended up saying things I didn't want."I'm not a farmer like you! I've never been raised like this! I'm just here to support my sisters, and not to be part of it all! "I exploded, letting my irritation escape.He looked at me surprised, but his face was still loaded with irritation."You don't have to be a farmer to help. This is a matter of collaboration and being part of the family. "he said, with a calmer voice, but still hurt.Before the discussion went on, I felt that it
While we were exploring the fair, I felt Bernardo's presence next to me, and his excitement in showing me every detail of the city infected me. Gradually, my insecurity was giving way to a feeling of belonging, and I felt grateful to be there, with him, in the midst of that genuine experience.When we returned to the farm, I was tired, but with a heart full of new emotions and discoveries. That trip to the city, even with its challenges and surprises, had been another important step in my journey of self-knowledge and acceptance.As time went by, I started to get used to the routine of the farm and the people who shared this place with me. I learned to value the little things of everyday life, such as the smell of the earth, the noise of animals and the heat of the sun on the skin. Every moment here had a unique charm, and I tried to connect with all this in the best possible way.While my family and Bernardo's brothers were exploring the farm, I preferred to stay in the room. I felt
In the dream, the kitchen of our house was immersed in a gloomy twilight, and the heavy atmosphere enveloped me. I revived the high-pitched sound of the knife cutting the air, the look of terror in my father's eyes and the feeling of despair taking over me. I screamed, but there was nothing I could do to stop the tragedy.I woke up in the middle of a hiccup, my heart beating fast in my chest. The painful memory of the past made me even more shaken, and I felt taken by the sadness and longing for my father.Despite being far from home and the city, I felt like I was facing my fears and insecurities head-on. It was as if the farm, with all its simplicity and authenticity, was helping me to confront my painful memories and find a way to move on.I decided to get up and distract myself a little, walking around the farm. The fresh air and nature around me calmed me down. I still felt physically weak, but mentally I was more determined to face my emotions.I knew I couldn't escape the past,
While the video was loading, I felt a mixture of emotions. It was challenging me to face my vulnerability and share my journey with other people, something I didn't do so often before.Even that night, with the loneliness of my absence at the city bar, I found myself thinking about the meaning of all that. The farm and the people I met there were teaching me to see life from a new perspective, to value the present and to face my fears with courage.The dawn was cold and silent. My cough bothered me, and I decided to get up to get a glass of water in the kitchen. When I got to the kitchen, I felt the cold air against my skin and wrapped myself in a hug to keep me warm.While drinking the water, I looked out the window and noticed that Bernardo was on the balcony. Your profile illuminated by the moon intrigued me, but I didn't have the courage to get close at that moment. I still felt a little insecure, as if my emotions were on edge and I didn't really know how to act.I decided to wai