The following week was relatively uneventful as Max and I settled back into life at the former funeral home that I’d rented. To my relief, both Angela and Evan were away on a mission, so it was only Megan, Max, and me in the house.
To my disappointment, Max was so devastated and preoccupied with his loss that I felt disconnected from him. It didn’t help that he hadn’t made love to me once since our return. For a man who’d wanted sex with me on a daily bases more times than I could count since we’d gotten together, this was a shock.
When he wasn’t working, Max spent a good deal of time in private conversation with Megan, but I didn’t ask the topic. Knowing the history between them, I guessed that he was processing the loss of her sister, Melissa, on a permanent basis. Having her ashes in his possession for all of those years had to make him feel like he still had a part of her with him; because he did. Losing them in the fire was a final parting that induced grieving that should have been completed years ago.
I’d never had someone who I loved commit suicide, so I couldn’t relate to his emotions like Megan could. Knowing the intense pain, helplessness, fear, loss, and heartache that I felt when Peter left me and went back to Africa, I could only imagine what it was like for a fifteen-year-old boy who thought he was in love to have the object of that love hang herself. I’m sure that the fact that Melissa was pregnant with his child when she did such a horrific act only doubled the impact.
I understood that he needed to converse with Megan about his pain, but I also felt very hurt that he didn’t trust me enough to confide in me.
We’d been back for ten days when a small, porcelain jar appeared in our bedroom on the top of the tall boy that Max was using for his clothes. It’s intricate hand-painted floral artwork was impossible to walk past without noticing, so when I asked him where he got it and went to pick it up to examine it better and he almost bit my head off, I was genuinely both surprised and hurt.
“I don’t understand what’s happening with you, Max. I’m sorry for the loss of your home. That has to be a devastating thing, but I thought that we were a team. You’ve literally shut me out since we’ve returned. Not just with your thoughts and emotions, but in our bed. You haven’t made love to me once since we left Puerto Rico,” I complained as I slipped my arms through the straps of the bra that I’d selected from my intimates drawer.
He stood in the doorway of the bathroom with a towel wrapped around his waist, looking sexy with his hair towel dried and uncombed. My eyes settled on the tiny beads of water that were still on his chest from the shower that he’d just stepped out of. Just days earlier, I would have been passionately licking that water from his chest while he took me with a fervor that couldn’t be matched. Instead, I stood staring at him, unsure of what to do or how to act. So much had changed between us in such a short period of time. It was almost as if he was a stranger to me.
His face grew dark and angry looking to the point that I stepped back a few inches. He shocked me when he rushed forward and pulled the bra back off my body before I’d had the opportunity to fasten it. He tossed it to the floor and then flung me onto the bed.
I could hear the lace of my panties tear as he yanked them down with such force that it felt like a layer of my skin was removed from my thighs along with them. Frightened, I struggled to get out from under him, but he had me pinned with his entire weight.
I was about to ask him to stop when he covered my mouth with his own. His
kiss was aggressive and passionless to the point of almost being cruel. He’d positioned his face over mine in a way that my breathing was compromised. I was genuinely concerned about suffocating, so I paid little attention to the harsh way that his hands attacked my breasts with what seemed like minimal regard for my pleasure. It was as if he was fondling them for the sake of fondling them instead of with a passion and tenderness of touch that was meant to arouse and excite.
When he finally freed my mouth, I sucked in air with a desperation as I told him that his attention to my breasts just wasn’t working for me and, perhaps, we should just forget having sex.
I realized that it was a mistake to say that to him when his face got even darker; his eyes mirroring an anger that welled from deep within him. When he lowered his mouth over a nipple, I jolted from the impact of his aggression. When his hand moved down to the apex between my thighs, there was nothing about the roughness of his touch that was in the least bit arousing.
Instead of preparing me for his entry, he was causing my body to shrivel up from the inside out. All that I wanted to do was to escape and hide. The harder he worked at it, the worse my body got. I found it difficult to believe that he didn’t realize my dryness when his fingers entered me on more than one occasion. If he did, he did nothing to alter the situation.
When he finally did ram his manhood into my depths, I was surprised that he didn’t react to the pain from the assault that my dry interior must have had on his tender flesh since it felt quite painful to me. Either I was wrong and it didn’t bother him that I was dry inside, or he was too emotionally worked up to care because he continued to thrust himself inside of me until he’d reached the point of release. After which, he rolled off of me and lay on his back with his legs dangling off the edge of the bed.
“There. Satisfied?” he grumbled before getting up and going to the bathroom to clean up without sparing me so much as a glance.
I lay on the bed with silent tears soaking the coverlet while I waited for him to dress and leave the room. He did so with equal silence. It felt like when the house burned down his love for me burned with it.
I waited until I heard his vehicle pull out of the driveway before I took a quick shower to remove the remnants of his sexual assault – I just couldn’t think of it as love making since I’d felt no love coming from him. I not only wanted to remove the sex juices that he’d left inside of me, but I wanted to erase the feel of his cruel touch from my body. So, I scrubbed with a loofa until my flesh was deep pink and then got dressed.
Megan was making pancakes when I entered the kitchen. She wore a concerned look on her face as she flipped each four-inch round with easy care.
“Is there enough for me?” I asked in a quiet voice.
“What’s going on between you two?” she asked without taking her eyes off of the pancakes.
“I wish I knew,” I sighed as I helped myself to some coffee. “It’s like the Max I knew was lost along with that house. I barely recognize him now.”
“So, the honeymoon’s over,” she said, thoughtfully.
“If he continues on the path that he’s on, so is the marriage,” I said, bitterly, as I placed my hand on my tender, lower abdomen.
“Do you want to talk about it?” she asked in a tone that made me question her sincerity.
I thought for a moment and decided against it. Max wasn’t the only one who was acting strange since our return from our shortened honeymoon. Megan’s behavior was off as well. Something was clearly troubling her and I questioned if it had to do with Max’s house burning down. I didn’t think that it was fair to burden her with my marital woes on top of whatever troubles she was working on dealing with.
“I think I’d just like to eat some breakfast and then get down to the lab. I have some vampire scientists coming to pick up the formula to the werewolf antidote. I want to talk to them about focusing on vampirism now.”
She slid a plate containing two pancakes and one egg over easy in front of me. “Do you want honey or maple syrup?”
“Honey, please, my honey,” I grinned.
She flashed a weak smile in my direction and fetched the squeeze bottle of honey that was shaped like an adorable bear from the cupboard.
I studied her with my peripheral vision and finally said, “What’s wrong?”
“What makes you think that there’s something wrong?”
“You haven’t been yourself since we got back.”
Megan slumped down in the chair next to me. “I don’t know how to tell you this.”
“It’s probably best to just hit me head on with it. My day has already been shitty and I’ve been up less than two hours.”
“I feel like the sky is falling down around me in a world that’s gone mad,” she moaned. “I’ve had to deal with darkness and threats to my person and to those I love off and on over the years, but never at such a non-stop and consistent level as I have over the last year and a half.”
“It’s been intense,” I said as I squeezed honey onto my pancakes.
“You don’t know the half of it,” she muttered. When I looked at her with a look that was both expectant and questioning, she said, “I have been trying to deal with this on my own, but it’s becoming clear to me that my emotions and sentimental attachments are hindering my effectiveness. It began when Max first met you.”
“You need to be a bit clearer. What began?”
“Melissa. I started seeing her when Max first met you. She was riding on his shoulders,” she said with hesitancy.
“What?”
She looked away. “It’s hard to explain, but in layman’s terms, she’s attached herself to Max. She’s probably been attached to him since her death and I just never noticed because he didn’t date anyone until you. She’s been getting more and more aggressive about connecting to him. I’m sure that’s why he’s behaving like he is.”
“Could her attachment also be the reason why he didn’t date?” I asked.
“If she was attached to him, he would have felt complete without looking elsewhere. So, yes,” she said.
“Yet, he came after me hard,” I mused.
“Which means that he really loves you. I’d guess that the reason she’s gotten more aggressive was because she was jealous, but I don’t think that’s what it is. She understands that he’s still living and deserves happiness. I just don’t know the reason.”
“Can’t you cast her off of him like you do everyone else?” I asked with angst.
“I don’t do it with everyone. I do it with most. Now that the place has thinned out with its resident ghosts, I’m actually able to identify who is still here.”
“Really?”
“You won’t like it,” she said with a shake of her head.
I ignored her last comment as the thought struck me. “So, when Max and I are alone in our bedroom, Melissa is watching?”
“Not just Melissa,” she said, anxiously. “I believe that there is an incubus occupying the house who has targeted you. And, also, a shadow person.”
“You mentioned an incubus before, but I never bothered to research it. What is
it?” I asked.
“To be short and clear,” she said as she sipped on her coffee. “It’s a male spirit who is often called demonic. He has sex with sleeping women. His female equivalent would be a succubus.”
“That afternoon…”
She nodded. “If it wasn’t an incubus - which I believe it was – it was a nasty and very earthbound entity who I’ve yet to be able to cast out.”
“Is it generally that difficult to cast a spirit out?” I asked with trepidation.
“Normally, it’s quite easy,” she admitted.
“Which is why you think it is an incubus?” I asked.
She nodded.
“What about Melissa? Is she demonic?” I asked with a trembling voice.
Her eyes grew wild with insult. “Why would you ask such a thing? I just got done telling you that she understands Max’s love and need to be with you.”
I jumped in my seat at her aggression in responding. “I wasn’t trying to upset you. I have limited knowledge of these things. You’re telling me that she’s riding on Max’s shoulders and is watching us have sex. Does Max know this? Does she have his permission? I’m just trying to understand.”
She took a deep breath. “I’m so sorry. I’ve spent most of my nights trying to communicate and cast out spirits since you left. I’m sleep deprived and exhausted.”
“I’m so sorry,” I said. “Why nights? Why can’t you do it during the day like when we cleansed the house?”
“Nights are easier because most of the area is shut down and sleeping. It gives me more energy to pull on. The remaining entities are powerful. I need a lot of energy,” she offered.
“Is there something that I can do to help?” I asked. “I have zero knowledge, but I’m willing to try.”
“Actually, there is something that you can do.” The sound of Evan entering the house brought our conversation to a halt. She whispered that we’d talk about it later while I steeled myself for seeing him for the first time since he’d confessed his love for me.
The sound of blood mixed with adrenaline that rushed through my body almost drowned out the heartfelt greeting that he gave me as he dropped his luggage onto the floor near the door and rushed in to hug me.His lips brushed the flesh of my ear as he told me, in a soft tone, how good I looked. “Marriage must agree with you.”I felt a sense of relief and joy in seeing him that I hadn’t expected. I cared for Evan; deeply. I had to admit that to myself and come to terms with it. Had Max not been in the picture, I was certain that there would be something between us that was more than the friendship that we’d developed or the cat and mouse game that we’d played since Peter left and I’d started dating Max.Perhaps it was because of what I’d been through with Max just an hour earlier, or perhaps it was my discussion with Megan about the incubus, but I found myself wrapping my arms around Evan’s nec
Max dropped me off at the house with the promise to be home in time to take me out for dinner. I practically skipped into the house and rushed up to my bedroom to freshen up after my impromptu lover’s tryst.As I walked past the porcelain jar containing Mellissa’s ashes when I came out of the bathroom to select a fresh pair of panties, I couldn’t help feeling resentful. “Why won’t you go away?”“Where would you like me to go, baby?” echoed a man’s voice that came from nowhere.Not only was I freaked out because the voice was a disembodied voice, but it was a familiar one. I recognized it as the voice that had chuckled so wickedly after doing those things to my body while I slept that afternoon, not so long ago.Too freaked out to take the time to put my panties on and grateful that I’d changed into a sundress so that I was covered, I clutched my panties in my trembling fist and
I ran to my bedroom to clean up and fetch fresh panties for the second time that day. When I entered the room, I was shocked to find Angela stretched out on the sofa in the sitting area.“What is it about you that men can’t resist?” she asked without looking at me.“Why are you in my room? That’s a bit invasive, isn’t it?” I asked as I went into the bathroom and locked the door behind me.“Cleaning up after your little love tryst?” she bellowed.I scowled. That kiss he’d given me had made a mess of my panties. I needed fresh ones, but if I grabbed a pair in front of her, it would be like a confession of guilt.My mind whirled over what to do.I decided to start a bath. As the water filled in the tub, I stuck my head out of the door and said, “Max is taking me out to dinner. If you don’t mind, I need to get ready.”&l
Instead of taking me to the local motel as I’d expected, Evan drove several hours away and checked us into a four star hotel. He insisted that he wanted to keep me safe in a place that Max would never think to look. He immediately called Megan to tell her our location, but, to our surprise, she asked that we keep it to ourselves for fear that the spirits would hear as well. In fact, she refused to stay on longer than necessary for fear that they could trace our whereabouts from the energy connection of the telephone call.I sighed with frustration over the feeling of helplessness that consumed me where Max and that incubus were concerned.Megan had packed an easy week’s worth of clothing for me. As I began to empty my suitcase, I noticed a few very nice dresses in the mix.“Good,” Evan said as he took the dresses to hang in the closet. “You have something to wear to dinner tonight.”“I don&
It took ten days for Megan to contact us and tell us that, with the assistance of a priest, she’d managed to rid the house of the incubus. She expressed her exhaustion over performing such a task while battling the forces that were constantly being sent her way from the evil spirit witch. She was eager to have me return so that she could work with me in hopes that I could help her talk reason to the wicked witch and get her to leave on her own accord since all of the banishing methods that Megan knew had failed. Why she felt that I would be able to do something that she wasn’t able to do surprised me. Then, perhaps I placed too high of expectations on my friend who was, after all, only human. As she might be doing on me. Even so, I was willing to give it a try.When I asked about Max, there was a long silence before she spoke. He was behaving more like his old self, but he was hurt and angry that I’d gone off w
We’d spent a good deal of time talking and working through emotions that had built up since the fire. When we were finally at peace with what had happened and what was between us, we promised each other that we’d work hard to make our marriage work. No matter what happened in the past, there was a strong love between us that we were sure could be salvaged and reignited. We sealed our agreement with blissful, passionate love making. It was as it used to be… as if we’d never returned from our honeymoon.Waking up from a deep sleep, I felt a need to cuddle, so I rolled over and searched the darkness for my husband. I was surprised to discover that I had the entire bed to myself. I opened my eyes and struggled for them to focus on the digital clock. The red numbers were so bright in the darkness that they hurt my eyes as I waited for the blurriness to clear up. It was four o’clock in the morning.
If I hadn’t been in a position to have to make the funeral arrangements for Max, I think that I would have begged to stay at Megan’s home and never leave it. I found the energy light, airy, and cozy all at the same time. It lacked the heaviness that is caused by death and invading entities; be they earth bound or inter-dimensional. By the second day of being there, I felt whole and healed.It was like living in a fairy tale land. Sadly, when I left her house to brave the real world again, all of my grief, guilt, and anguish came flooding back at me.Megan accompanied me on my trip to deal with the funeral director. As anticipated, pasty faced, creepy Zacharias was his usual arrogant and obnoxious self. I was able to get away with being rude and aloof because of my grief.Max never attended church, so I didn’t bother to be hypocritical and have the service in one. Instead, we held it at the gravesi
Megan’s light, airy, and cozy cabin suddenly felt cramped and stuffy as I sat staring at the flames in the fire that Evan lit . It wasn’t that the air had a chill. It was more to warm the mood that had overtaken the cabin and its occupants.I was furious with Max. So angry, in fact, that I was at a loss over how to express it. Since Evan and Megan knew about his secret life and hadn’t immediately told me, I used that fact to focus on and turned my disappointment with their lack of telling me as an outlet for my rage.Not only could I not look at them or talk with them, but I desperately wanted to be free of their company. I needed to be out in the open air where I could breathe without hindrance and allow my body the relaxation that it just couldn’t find while within those four walls with them.Using the excuse that I needed some air with an attitude that warned them against offering to join me, I slipp
Megan was waiting for me at the airport when the private plane landed. She’d brought Evan’s van to transport him in. I found that to be a touching thought. He’d like that rather than to be loaded into a hearse.Since he wasn’t human, we couldn’t offer him the traditional burial service, but I didn’t think he’d want that anyway. We took his body to Megan’s land and buried him beneath the ancient oak tree that he was prone to sit under when we were staying with her and he wanted to think. He said it gave him a peaceful feeling. As for attendees. It was me, Megan, and my aunt Lily.I’d asked his proprietor friend to take care of notifying whatever vampire committee needed to be notified of his death and he’d agreed. I had to trust that was enough. I didn’t know how to contact his army people and, quite frankly, after what Roman had done, I had no desire to rea
Evan had purchased a dozen boxes of condoms in anticipation of our wedding night and we put them to good use. In fact, we didn’t leave our room for several days. There was something very sacred and special about consummating a marriage commitment that we just couldn’t get enough of. We were in agreement that, somehow, the sex felt different. Better.By the time Megan called to tell us that the coast was clear and we could come home, we’d been behind closed doors for three days; opening them only to receive the meals that Evan had convinced his friend to supply us with, rather than make us join the others in the dining room.Although we would have liked to continue with a nice long honeymoon, I was eager to get started on my research for vampirism. Fortunately, Evan understood.We purchased tickets for a flight back home the following morning. It was a very early flight, so Evan went to the front desk an
I’d spent the two and one half hour flight with my head rested on Evan’s shoulder and my eyes closed. Part of the reason was because I was exhausted from the trauma of the day, but it was also because I had a foreboding feeling that I wasn’t ready to talk about. He was very astute when it came to my moods and I was afraid that he would pick up on it.He gently shook me alert so that I could enjoy the city lights as they boasted the excitement that awaited us once the plane landed. Since I’d never flown into a city of such magnitude in the dark before, I thought the lights a sight to behold. I kissed him on the cheek and thanked him for waking me while the flight attendant announced that we were about to land and everyone should be secured in their seats.The energy of the city consumed me as soon as we stepped out onto the sidewalk and hailed a cab. I found it a completely different feel to that of Las Vegas.
I’d expected Megan to be angry at discovering that the incubus had attacked me again, but I hadn’t anticipated the intensity of that anger. After she calmed down enough to consider how it got through the barrier, she realized that she’d put the barrier up against physical intruders, not demons or spirits. The fact that we hadn’t seen a spirit since we left my old house made us forget all about them.“Now that I think about it, we haven’t even seen your aunt Lily since we moved in here,” she said to me as she accepted the glass of brandy that Evan offered her. “That surprises me.”“I’ve been so busy settling in and setting up that I hadn’t noticed, but you’re right,” I said as I sipped on the iced raspberry herbal tea that my fiancé had fetched for me. I looked at the engagement ring on my finger and wondered how she’d react to my hastiness in accepti
We spent the next two weeks focusing on setting up the lab and making sure that the entire house was put in order. Like me, Megan had an aversion to clutter. We didn’t mind if a room was either empty or sparsely furnished as long as it was clean and not riddled with dust. So, while we shopped, lugged from the store as well as the old house, and organized, the cleaning crew was kept busy going from room to room.By the time we were finished and satisfied with the way things were looking, I felt exhausted on both a physical and emotional level.As odd as it seemed, setting up the new lab made me think of Peter. Perhaps it was because I was preparing to do research on the very thing that took him from me. I wondered if he’d made any progress with his research in Africa. It would have proven handy to be able to know his findings and share in his progress. Instead, I was starting from scratch.Megan ma
Megan and I took our time exploring the house. Even though we were searching for a suitable place to set up the lab, it didn’t detract from the fun of exploring.One of the first things that we discovered was a dumb waiter that led to a large room on the second floor. Megan called it the ballroom and, since the house was old enough, it may very well have been used for that. Shortly after, we found a butler’s elevator. Since the house had three stories and a basement, we were certain that the elevator would get a lot of use. Before moving on, we checked it for hidden doors like the one in my house had. We were happy to discover none.I checked out the basement. It consisted of a large room and then smaller rooms that ran down a narrow hall. Most of the rooms had concrete floors. One was a furnace room and the others were used for the utilities and for storage. At the far end of the basement ne
The master suite consisted of three rooms and a bathroom. I found the mahogany, French provincial furnishings a little ostentatious for my tastes, but I could live with them.The king sized bed sported a mattress that looked and felt so new that I questioned if it had ever been slept on. The cleaning crew had steamed it on both sides. The bedding for it, including a cotton covered memory foam mattress pad were laid in a neat pile at the end of the bed.I quickly set to making it.By the time I’d put my bed together, I could feel the muscles in my body begging for a reprieve. I discovered a deep, jacuzzi tub in the bathroom that was just begging to be filled with steaming hot, lavender scented water.While I waited for the tub to fill, I breathed in the scented steam that rose from it as I pinned my hair on top of my head. In the corner of the spacious, marble tiled room was a free standing oval mirror
To say that the estate house was impressive would be an understatement. I was so shocked by the magnitude of size and wealth that this house portrayed that I was completely speechless. The cleaning crew that I’d hired just hours earlier were impressively efficient. They’d managed to clean up a few rooms for Megan and I to start off using.It was clear that they had an easy month to go before they’d be done getting the place back into a livable condition. It wasn’t run down. Not in the least. It was just so thick with dust after years of sitting dormant that it looked like a light layer of snow inside the rooms that were yet to be addressed by the cleaning crew.“I thought that my house was too big and imposing. I could put three of them in here. Maybe four,” I said with wonder. “Who needs a house this big? Better yet. Why build a house this big?”&ld
Evan spent the night helping us pack up what we wanted to take to the estate house. It was shortly after midnight when we decided to call it quits. To my surprise, he went to his apartment to sleep. He said that it was because he still had things to do to prepare for his going before the vampire army board, but I guessed it was also because he wanted to put some space between us.I was assured that he loved me by the number of times that he’d said it. The fact that I was carrying Max’s child didn’t diminish that. It was more that he was serious about lessening the vampire bond between us. I could understand his desire to want to be sure of the source of my feelings for him. I even appreciated it. I also felt terrible that he had such little confidence to think that I’d only want him because of the vampire lure. I was eager to prove to him that my feelings were real. If that meant s