ViaMy capacity to differentiate between the two ideas, truth and falsehoods, had been completely rendered ineffective. I started to get the feeling that I was either being held up or that I was going in circles wherever I went. I felt as like I was in the midst of a never-ending conflict, one that I was well aware I would never be able to win but that I much desired."Aye, you ready?" Aiden asks me, holding a strange-looking tiny breakfast burrito on a platter."For what exactly?" I inquire, looking down at the little burrito, unsure if I should actually eat it. "And what is even in this?"Aiden laughs. "I actually have no idea." He shrugs. "Your dad made it before leaving for work. Maybe because I was starving, but I ate mine and it didn't taste that bad," he rambles. I giggle at his confession, and it makes him flush."Anyways." He hands me a cup with something pink in it. "You have to speak with them today when you see them. Are you equipped to handle that?" he says, making my sto
Via"Is there any way you can't get sexy with that lollipop? Many of the males at Amberwood High School give you the impression that they want to devour you," Kol remarks while breaking up his chocolate bar."Permit them to examine. I'm not bothered," I say sarcastically, winking and putting the lollipop back in my mouth."You think this situation is funny, but I don't," Kol deadpans. "You may be on a break with your men, but if anything happens between you and anyone else, it's my ass on the line.""They wouldn't hurt you, and I wouldn't mess around with any other guys," I scoff. "I know my place, and I know it is with them."I was still really hurt and in excruciating agony, but I didn't want to be with anybody else but them. That wouldn't make me feel better, so I wanted to beat them, shout at them, and yell at them.They would allow me to harm them, then give me a hug and say they understood that I needed to let it all out. After that, I would feel like garbage. It has previously
Via"Did you put me in?" I ask as we turn onto another street. Aiden shakes his head."No, I don't want you to place bets. If you do, please contact Ethan or myself. We'll place your wager," he answers as we finally see our school down the road."But why exactly?" I ask, still perplexed."By you making bets, your personal information can be released to hackers by inputting just a few things in the system for other people to see," he explains. "I wish not to subject you to that. In this world, there are some unhealthy people," Aiden says as he enters the school's parking area."Oh, okay then." While I am resting back against the seat, I begin to tap on the handle of the automobile door. At this same moment, I was experiencing a great deal of anxiety. It was a terrible experience.Rather than going to the theater, why don't we all go to the theater to watch a movie instead? I'll pay for the movie, my food, and my beverages! It is my suggestion that you make Kol and Ethan laugh."Despite
ViaIt's been three days since I started avoiding them and as much as I hated to do so- I needed to do it.Me and Kol lied about going on a trip but I just couldn't stand to see them. I especially couldn't stand seeing Sebastian. I couldn't think about having to confront him about the fact that he lied and is still engaged to Nichole.I especially couldn't face the rest of them after they helped him lie to me. They helped Sebastian instead of telling me upfront and I resented them due to it."You really don't want to go to school today?" Kol asks me as he slides me a small bowl of arroz con leche."No." I pick up my spoon. "I feel incredibly nauseous." I say as I eat a bit of my breakfast."Via." Kol grabs my attention. "As much as me and Christian love to have you here-" He sighs. "Our home isn't your secret hideaway." He says and I look away from him."No, it's not and I know that." I take another spoonful of arroz con leche. "But I just can't go home. I live right next door too Ale
"I don't even know what the fuck I'm even trying to find," I tell him as I put the previous binder down and open the next one.The moment I open the binder, I freeze and my stomach turns into knots."Well, I'm sure you'll get your answers in here," Kol says, giving me a weak smile.The entire binder is filled with pictures like the previous one, but this one also contains documents."I can't look through this," I state as I close it up and put it aside.I was doing too much. What was I even doing? Why the fuck was I even here?I hated myself for getting to this point. I felt like a stalker-type girlfriend. I wasn't like this, and I felt like shit."Really?" Kol asks as he snatches the binder from the floor. "If you aren't, then I will." He opens it up and instantly begins looking through it.You know what—then again, I had a very good reason for doing this.They are all collectively hiding things from me, and if I couldn't get answers from them, then I was going to simply resort to fi
Via"I walked into your brother having sex with a girl who we both met at a bar," Kol states, causing me to freeze."Kol, you don't have to—" He cuts me off."I'm not telling you this because I want sympathy or because I expect you to lash out at your brother again on my behalf," he says as he lays his head against my shoulder. "I'm saying this because if I could redo that entire day again—I would." We stay together with our heads against each other's. "It hurt when I found everything out, but I needed to hear it. Just like you need to get answers for yourself. Answers that they aren't giving you.""Does the pain go away?" I ask him softly.He nods. "Yes." He says, and I finally let go of the binder."I don't know how I'm going to deal with this," I state as I flip to the second set of pictures.The more I pay close attention to the pictures, I see what Sebastian told me that day during our dinner. He doesn't seem happy in any of the pictures. He looks serious, but Nichole looks happy
Via"Okay class, It's the start of a new semester so I hope you all threw out all old documents from my class." Mr. Beaumont says and I have to bundle up my hands into to fists to get myself to not say let alone think about saying something sarcastic.I didn't want to give him the pleasure of starting a fake argument.Our arguments would always get us extremely heated and I'd end up wanting him. I simply wasn't in the mood for that right now.Mr. Beaumont proceeds to make sure we also clear out any old unnecessary documents from out laptops. "Okay, now that all of that has been successfully been delt with."He projects a document on the board. "For this entire first week I will be just giving you all an easy assignment." Everyone gasps at that. "I know, very unlike me." Mr. Beaumont chuckles and I feel knots in my stomach.Oh god, I missed his laugh so fucking much. I didn't even realize how much I missed his voice and him in general.Me and him make quick eye contact and I have to lo
ViaThree hours. More or less.I was anxious. I didn't want to go to the school's quad since I knew I'd see them there. I didn't want to though. At all.Hell, I didn't want to be here at school in the first place, yet here I was."You want to go to the quad to see the teachers' competitions?" Aiden asks, and I glare at him.I didn't want to see them today more than I had to. In fact, I wanted to be away from them—as in me at home and them here at school type of far."No." I state as I bite a big chunk of my white chocolate Reese's peanut butter cup.For Kol to even assume, let alone ask me if I wanted to go, made my stomach hurt. I hated him at this very moment for even putting that option out there."Come on, V." Kol nudges my shoulder, and I almost choke on my damn chocolate."Hey, I'm not the only one that doesn't want to go." I motion in Ethan's direction. "He doesn't want to go e—" I get cut off by Ethan."I honestly want to go too," Ethan says, then gives me an apologetic look.