CHAPTER 90

"When I'm old, as I said, I want everything to be in order before doing things like that. Because I... I don't want happiness to come first and then be followed by tragedy. I want everything to be in order first, so that I'm sure... finally... I can give Hen an answer."

Because truth be told, nothing in my plan was rejected. I've been waiting for a long time for my relationship with him to become real. He may not actually... told me directly that he loves me... or perhaps he learned to love me, whatever the reason he has for giving me his love, but it's okay that he doesn't tell me anything. I have five senses, enough for me to feel something that his mouth can't say yet.

"I'm happy for you," he said, sincerely. There was no bitterness or anything else on his face. As if, he is really sincere. "Despite knowing the fact that you're my wife... and actually, I'm still your husband until now... on paper... but if my attempt to pursue you will ruin your happiness, I won't just do it."

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