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VALENTINE'S DAY Warm but Cold
Valentina’s P.O.VHe kissed me and left me, since he didn’t do more than kissing the first time I thought it was okay, but what if he demands for something more than kissing me someday?What am I going to do if Ethan decides to touch me and do those things to me? Since he never even bothers to ask for permission.I know all too well, how weak and powerless I am against him, I will be completely at his mercy, should I also report this to his father?I’m scared…I reached for my lips again, it didn’t feel repulsive, even though I hated that bastard, the kiss wasn’t too bad, to the point that I craved the warmth of his body.Is it wrong to feel those things? All these things that I feel inside, I don’t know what they mean, I’m curious about them but I’m too scared to know.Should I talk to Ethan instead?He should know the reason why he keeps on kissing me, I know they do things like that with people you like but I’m not his girlfriend, I can’t even think of dating someone like him in a
VALENTINE'S DAY Best Wedding Gift
Ethan’s P.O.V“Good day, Master Ethan.” Junis said as he collected my bag from me, I nodded at him in acknowledgement; he is such a diligent old man. “How about supper? Mary has gotten the table ready.”“I’m not hungry,” I answered waving him off as I approached my room, I got inside plumped down on my bed, and forced my face into the pillow.It is difficult, this is challenging.“Why can’t I stop thinking about her?” I asked myself but I didn’t have the answer to my question. “Maybe something is wrong with me.”“Master Ethan.” Junis was knocking on the door, and I rolled my eyes, the old man is very persistent. “I brought your dinner.”“What part of I’m not hungry do you not understand?” I yelled back, and the other side of the room went silent for a while before the knocking came back. “Oh Goodness!”I hopped off the bed and opened it, but instead of Junis, it was my father, I wanted to slam the door in his face but he was standing at the doorway preventing me from doing it.“Let’s
VALENTINE'S DAY What is this?
Valentina’s P.O.VThe best I could do was run around on the field, there was nothing else to do, and no one would pass the ball to me. Either way, Mr. Colt promised to fail me if I didn’t participate in the games, I haven’t been participating in a long time, but running around like this should work.“Valentina!” Mr. Colt yelled again and I felt my heart rate increased. “You should run in the direction of the ball and not away from it.”Oh God! I rushed toward Valerie who had the ball in her hands, but I didn’t make any attempt to take it from her or anything.“I tell you, I’m terrible at sports,” I complained to Mr. Colt who was already determined to end my sporting career before it even started. “I did my best.”“I know but it wasn’t enough.” He yelled at me again and I cringed. “I’ll give you one last chance if you practice with the others.”“Tch!” I sighed in exasperation, and I walked away from him going back to the field, where the rest of the students were having the time of the
VALENTINE'S DAY None of your business
Ethan’s P.O.VValentina was being unnecessarily stubborn today, but I couldn’t help but notice just how hard she flinched when I touched her in some places. I couldn’t ignore the painful whimpers that escaped her lips when I held her hands as well.Something was wrong with her.“Are you hurt?” I asked out of concern, her tear-filled eyes narrowed at me, it seemed as though breathing was difficult for her as well. She was hurt, but she wouldn’t tell me where.“Will you only stop when I’m hurt?” She asked curiously and I rolled my eyes before I tightened my grip on her arms and just as I expected she caved in, she yelled loudly trying to push me away from her. My eyes narrowed at her, when I noticed her small marks around her neck, it would seem as though she was strangled.“What is this?” I asked as my fingers brushed away her hair from her neck, my eyes inspecting the wounds properly.“It’s none of your business!” she snapped at me. “Just let me go!”Since she wasn’t willing to do it
VALENTINE'S DAY Just talking
Valentina’s P.O.V I never knew I could cry so much, especially in front of Ethan, I wasn’t expecting him to take me seriously but he did otherwise. I bit my fingers in frustration as I regretted my decision to snap at him, he must thought I was a weirdo, I could recall vividly the shocked expression on his face while I bawled my eyes out. When did I suddenly start caring about what he thinks about me? I scolded myself, hitting myself on the head repeatedly, I’m such an idiot, that bastard assaulted me and he was in the middle of assaulting me, it’s not my fault I reacted in the way I should. I told him to stop countless times, but he kept forcing himself on me, so it was natural I got mad, if anything he is the weirdo. I didn’t have any money, Norah stole my money while I was unconscious, I walked to school, and now since I don’t have the bus fare, I was walking to the pizza shop for my part-time job, and at this rate, I’m going to be late.I have finally resolved within myself
VALENTINE'S DAY I'll Pay
Valentina’s P.O.V “I feel a bit feverish,” I confessed to the physician and Ethan lifted his hands to my forehead, feeling me up, and I glared at him in response. The doctor has a thermometer what the hell are you being too forward for? As if I could dare to say something like that, instead I slapped his hands away and the doctor’s surprised gaze rested on him. “Just treat her.” He said clearing his throat, he got up and excused himself, giving us space, and only then was the doctor able to concentrate on me. “Are you friends with Ethan?” He asked curiously, a small harmless smile printed on his face, and I barely controlled the urge to roll my eyes, probably in my next life, it didn't seem possible in this one. “You seem very close.” “As if,” I blurted out even before I could stop myself, he seemed taken aback by my response but he chuckled. “You seem quite embarrassed.” He noticed and I turned my face away from him, he dabbed the sides of my mouth with a cotton bud, running it
VALENTINE'S DAY I messed up
Ethan’s P.O.V “Is the soup not to your liking?” Junis’ curious voice tore me out of my train of thought, I glanced at the already cold soup, I stopped twirling the spoon around the soup, and a small frown crawled up to my face. “Is it bad?” “Junis,” I called him tapping on the table, he stared down at me, he nodded understanding the assignment and he pulled out a chair for himself. “This old man probably has no reasonable answers to your question, but I could render you the services of lending a listening ear.” I scoffed this old man thinks too highly of himself but he is the closest thing to a father for me. “What would you like to ask?” “Is it possible for a girl who hates me to stop hating me?” I was a bit open about my question because I trusted him enough to seal his lips. “If you are talking about Miss Chandler then I’m afraid, it is going to be a difficult task,” I felt my heart sink at the opinion, I knew that much but hearing it from Junis made me feel even worse. “I’ve s
VALENTINE'S DAY Please Leave
Valentina’s P.O.V “I need you to leave this place.” Ron’s soft voice resounded in my ears, I stared down at my shoes in disappointment, I had always been prepared for a day like this but I never expected to feel so sad. “Nobody is happy with your presence.” “I know that much,” I whispered back, his face tightened up immediately at my response, he clenched his fist and I winced prepared for the hit that never came. “I’m not threatening you, Valentina.” Is it me or does his voice seem to be lower than usual? “I’m begging you.” My eyes widened in surprise, this was the very first time I’d seen Ron like this, especially to me, and I stumbled back when he suddenly grabbed my hands. Pressing on them softly, I hissed in pain and he loosened his grip when he noticed I was hurt but he didn’t let me go. “Please Valentina, your mother is very sick and your presence deteriorates her health even more, I can’t bear to see her in such pain any longer that’s why I beg you, please leave.” My hear
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VALENTINE'S DAY Epilogue- Valentine's Day
Writer's P.O.V "How is the book ending?" Maurice my assistant asked me, "I thought you were working on it the previous night." "Oh yes, but I didn't like the ending." I answered her and her eyes fell towards the laptop screen, she was too strict with me, even though I didn't sleep all night while writing this ending she might still criticize me for being a shitty writer. "I like this." A small smile reached her lips. "I never liked the fact that Valentina would die at the ending, you would never reach best seller with that mentality." I was never trying to be best seller anyways, but since she approves of this ending, I know that the book is done. I will miss talking to Ethan, and also my number one fan, Valentina, even as she died she called my book, beautiful and a masterpiece. It was different from the way the toxic web readers did. But how did the book end again..."You're going to get late for your interview." Melissa yelled at Valentina, just because Valentina was trying t
VALENTINE'S DAY The start of the original ending
Third Person's P.O.V"Travis, what are you doing here?" Valentina asked curiously before she could push the door close, he stopped it with the tip of his foot and pushed her away instead. She fell to the ground, she knew she wasn't supposed to let him come inside. "Travis." Her eyes widened when she noticed he was holding a knife again, and that was when she remember a memory that escaped her mind, that day in the crowd, she saw the person who stabbed her, and that person smiled at her. It was Travis. "What do you want?" she asked fearfully as she thought about he could be looking for, was he trying to kill her again? Or could he be looking for Ethan instead. "I see you have gotten quite close with Ethan." His eyes scanned through her angrily, and they narrowed. "You are even wearing his clothes, what is this, are you guys married now?" "What do you want?" she insisted on knowing that first. "Are you telling me you don't know? I know you remember everything, don't you try to act
VALENTINE'S DAY Travis
Valentina's P.O.V Today is the day that Ethan said I was supposed to die, I have been in Ethan's house for the last three days and he had been nothing but kind and sweet to me. I didn't even notice just how lovely Ethan was until recently. I have been getting some very strange memories, this was probably the memories of the Valentina in the previous timeline, the Valentina that died. I thought Ethan was the one who assaulted me, but he was actually the one who helped me. I just understood just how much I had misunderstood Ethan's intentions. I didn't tell him about the strange memories that I am getting, I remember so much about us now, and even the first time he kissed me in his house. "Valentina are you okay?" Ethan asked me curiously, I was spacing out while we were cooking, he nudged me softly. "I didn't know you could cook." I mentioned as i washed the vegetables under the running water. "You cook so good." "I once told you I used to cook for my mother while she was still
VALENTINE'S DAY Fight
Travis P.O.V“I never knew you were this kind of person.” My mother said and her eyes widened in horror as she threw a slap at me. I clenched the part of my cheeks that she hit. “Mom, I had told you not to go into my room, without my permission.” I was at the store today, because I noticed that my tapes were running out, so I went to get a new one. Mother claimed she was cleaning my room and she found my collections, pictures and videos. “You invaded my privacy.” “How dare you…” Father joined in, ah, I forgot to add that after looking through my stuff she also invited my father to see things too. “Who are those girls in the pictures and did you do that to them?” “Yes and what if I did?” I asked them curiously. “What are you going to do, are you going to hand over your precious son to the police?” I was daring them, my mother broke down in tears, and the tapes contained images of badly beaten women that I had sexually assaulted. I used the recordings as a blackmail I never needed t
VALENTINE'S DAY Last Act
Ethan's P.O.V I woke up with Valentina in my arms, her eyes were shut tightly, as she slept peacefully, a smile reached my face, and finally this is everything I wanted. Valentina and I like this, every day. She stirred slightly, and soon enough her eyes flew open, they blinked slightly as she stared back at me. At first two of us, just stared back at each other in silence, and then a small blush creeps on her face, and she tried to disengage from me. "Wait..." I whispered as i pulled her back to my chest, "Where are you going in such a hurry?" "Ethan..." She whispered, i loved it whenever she calls my name like this, she was very embarrassed at the moment, and I wrapped my arms around her. "We can sleep some more." I advised. "N-No..." She muttered again. "I-I need to go home, I need to go to school." "Valentina," I turned her towards me, and she hid her eyes away from my gaze, i held her chin softly and tilted her face slightly until her eyes met mine. "We can't go anywhere u
VALENTINE'S DAY Kisses
Third Person’s P.O.V (Somewhere not so near)“I am telling you this will be a success.” Guillotine said as he closed his laptop shut and he turned towards Maurice his assistant and content editor. “We should be grateful that the reviews are coming back positively tonight.” Maurice answered with a small sigh. “To be honest with you, you are such a terrible writer.” “Oh, no Maurice, don’t do this to me.” He chuckled as he reeled himself in his chair. “Writing is the only thing I know how to do.” “Your writing has been messed up lately, I was becoming concerned for you, I was about to tell the publishers you would need some rest.” Maurice added and Guillotine noticed the sarcasm in the note as well. “But since the newest chapter had been released, the readers and subscription had increased.” “Oh…” He cracked his neck tiredly, he couldn’t care less if there are people reading the book, but one thing interested him tonight. “And the characters likability?” “Um, everyone wants Ethan t
VALENTINE'S DAY Captivity
Valentina’s P.O.VThe doctor said I could go home today, I was getting discharged, and I decided that I was going to quit school and leave home. Once I stepped out of this door now, I would be free, I would try my best to hang on to my life before I disappear completely.I stepped out of the bathroom, and that bastard, Ethan was still in the room, he was sitting on the bed, and speaking to the nurse who came to clean the room. Was it me or his hair had grown a bit longer than usual, well, I shrugged, I didn’t care.Just before I was able to slip out of the room, his voice stopped me.“Valentina,” He got up from the bed and strolled towards me, I turned back and glared at him. “Where are you going?"“I’m going home,” I answered confidently, just being close to him irked me so badly, I knew I had no right to get mad at him for not keeping my secret, but I hated the fact that he was just so carefree about it. “Thank you for the support.”I forced out between clenched teeth but Ethan didn
VALENTINE'S DAY Move in with me
Ethan’s P.O.V“Valentina,” Nathan shouted again, this time even higher than before, it seemed that he was struggling with the security personnel, I withdrew from the bed, and strolled towards the door, I opened it and it was just as I presumed, he was struggling with the security personnel in front of the door. “Let me in, my sister is inside the room, Valentina!”“What is going on here?” I asked curiously as I stepped outside, only then did the security men let go of Nathan, Nathan’s brown eyes shot in my direction, and there was no sign of recognition. He didn’t recognize me, seems like Guillotine took my request into consideration. “Who is this?”I asked feigning ignorance as well, his eyes widened and a hint of recognition hit him.“You are Ethan Lords, right?” He seemed to remember me, but not more than that. “Please tell them to allow me to speak to my sister, I heard she was involved in an accident in the school.”“Of course, come inside,” I answered and the security men nodded
VALENTINE'S DAY Anger and Adoration
Ethan’s P.O.V“I said no, you can’t go home.” I rephrased as I tried to aid her understanding even better. “No matter what you do, you can’t go home unless I allow it.” I finally realized it, I can’t be soft with her, if I do, she would continue to be stubborn, I leaned in her face and she scooted backwards glaring at me. “You will stay here and leave when I allow you to.”“You can’t do that.” She snapped and I smirked. “You don’t even have any right to do this, after what you did to me, do you think I am going to listen to you?”I nodded, before pulling back, tiredly, since I was still anemic I strolled back to the couch and sat down crossing my legs again. Valentina was just too stubborn, once she had set her mind to it, she would it, she didn’t care about reasoning, what she is focused on more is her hatred for me, and there was no talking her out of it.That’s why I have decided for myself. “You have no reason to listen to me,” I shrugged my shoulders, “I will not stop you, but
