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VALENTINE'S DAY Swollen Eyes
Ethan’s P.O.VValentina stared hard at the broken glasses, and she withdrew her shaky hands ignoring me as though I wasn’t there, she began to pick up her books from the floor, and one of them caught my eyes. It was a plain white book with folded edges, it seemed like a fictional book. “Valentine’s Day” was the supposed title, it was written in bold blood-red letters, I was interested in the book because this is the first time I’ve seen such a unique title. I snatched the book out of her hands and I stared hard at it, the book was written by “Guillotine” who the hell is that? I had never heard of such an author, and it made me even more curious to know what the content of the book was. Valentina’s head was raised in my direction, but I couldn’t tell if she was looking at me because her hair was covering more than half of her face. “Please give me back that book,” She whispered as she stretched out her hands, if not for the dead silence that was in the hallways I would have missed w
VALENTINE'S DAY Bitter taste
Ethan’s P.O.V I ran my finger along the broken skin and the painful swell on her face, and I felt something snap in my chest, I don’t know what it was, but it wasn’t a good feeling, especially the bitterness that started at the back of my throat. Was it anger? Or sadness? I wasn’t so sure. If it was anger, why was I angry? And if I was sad, what was making me so sad? Valentina hissed in pain and recoiled away from me, I tightened my grip on her shoulders and she glared at me. I could tell she wasn’t in a good mood today either, she was visibly expressing her anger and hatred for me. “Let go of me!” She snapped trying to wrench her arms away, but I tightened my grip on her wrist and dragged her along with me until we were at the rear exit of the school premises; I suddenly halted making her frail body collide against mine, she winced in pain, still struggling to get her hands away from mine and I smirked. I spotted my black Mercedes-Maybach S-class driving toward our directio
VALENTINE'S DAY A better kiss
Valentina’s P.O.V I don’t know why Ethan seemed to be very interested in how I got the wound on my face, it was none of his business, but I felt telling him was the least I could do since he allowed his doctor to attend to me. I didn’t ask for it, but I still felt indebted to him, the doctors’ eyes narrowed suspiciously at my confession not buying it. Any other thing would only threaten my family, I don’t blame Ron for hitting me since I brought it upon myself, it was selfish of me to even think I could have a conversation with Mother. I knew I should have avoided her that evening, if only I had done that, none of this would have happened. The doctor applied some soothing balms after he was done cleaning and disinfecting my wounds, he handed me the rest of the balm and prescribed me some painkillers. “You should massage your neck with the balm, in the morning and night, use a cotton swab for your eyes.” He advised as he arranged his equipment back into his bag. “Use the painkil
VALENTINE'S DAY Battle line drawn
Valentina’s P.O.VEthan’s lips left mine, and a moan of disappointment escaped my lips, I struggled to catch my breath and I felt tears prickle in my eyes. This was the very first time, someone had held me so passionately, even if the kiss was from someone that I hated so much.While his lips were on mine, I didn’t feel any hatred from him, but I was still unable to call it love.I felt the clouds, I felt the butterflies, I felt everything Clarissa talked about and somehow, I wanted more, I wanted him to kiss me some more. I loved the warmth that was between us for that short while, I craved the sense of completion that kissing him gave me.The feeling of having someone, and the comfort that comes with that sense of ownership, except for the fact that Ethan could never belong to me. I stood there in a daze and in the aftermath of the sensation that traveled all over my body, I was lost in the forest of those green eyes that bore into mine intently…This was the second time, but I was
VALENTINE'S DAY It was me!
Valentina’s P.O.V “Valentina,” I raised my head as soon as I heard my name, Mrs. Cindy, our management teacher called me. “Please carry these test manuals to the staff office.” “Yes,” I stepped out of my desk, and stalked towards the table to pick up the test manuals, I wondered why she called for me instead of the class president but anyway, I would rather be anywhere but in the class.The swelling on my face had reduced, thanks to the balm Ethan’s doctor gave to me, the pain had also lessened and I wanted to thank him, but I couldn’t do that anymore because I had drawn the line. That bastard needs to know his place, I might be poor but that doesn’t make me less of a person. “Ouch!” I hissed in pain when I tripped on something or rather someone’s legs, I lost my balance and my knees collided with the marble flooring of the hallways. “Ahh… Valentina, I didn’t see you there.” Lucille chuckled, she was as annoying as ever, I lowered my head to take a closer look at my knee, and it w
VALENTINE'S DAY Ruining Ethan's plan
Travis’s P.O.V“Travis, let me go!” Lucille squealed as I dragged her along with me, we went across the hallways and stopped just before we reached the boy's locker room, she squirmed trying to get out of my grip and I slammed her against the wall. “Are you fucking crazy!?”She yelled at me she held her wrists and glared at me, if only looks could kill I’ll probably be dead by now.“I will ask you just once. It was you, right?” She blinked back at me nervously and continued to rub her arm, a small bruise forming on her very pale skin. “You are the one who tore the manuals they accusing Valentina of, right?”“What do you mean?” She asked pretentiously, and in response, I pressed her even tighter into the wall, she winced in pain. “Let me go!”“You know exactly what I am talking about, it was you who did that to Valentina, right?” I asked again, this time rephrasing myself in case she didn’t understand what I meant the first time. “Don’t you think it’s strange that you and those stupid
VALENTINE'S DAY A confession
Travis’s P.O.V“Now, tell me what is the meaning of this nonsense, Travis?” Ms. Carla asked with challenging eyebrows creased at me. “I know you didn’t do it.”“Yes, I did it,” I answered back, making her more speechless. “I will accept any punishment given to me.”“Even an expulsion?” She drawled curiously, and I paused for a while, wondering how my father would react to his son getting expelled from school. Since he is also friends with Mr. Lords, I am very sure the school could reach an agreement, this is something that wouldn’t happen if it were Valentina in my shoes. “Are you willing to get expelled?”“If that’s the punishment decided by the school disciplinary committee, then I do not have a choice,” I answered very confidently. “However, I’m willing to apologize to my classmates, Ms. Cindy and Valentina, for my misconduct.”“Travis, you are one of the best students this school has ever had.” She reminded me. “Taking responsibility for something like this would only tarnish you
VALENTINE'S DAY I want to disappear
Valentina’s P.O.V“Aren’t you going to say anything?” Alvin asked before pushing me, and I stumbled backward a bit before I was able to regain my balance. “If you destroyed something that isn’t yours, the least you could do is to apologize.”The whole class was restricting me from entering into the classroom, only then did I understand Ethan’s threat, I understood what he meant when he said he was going to show me my insignificance.He asked me if I understood what I was asking for, I guess I didn’t understand what he meant, but now I was overwhelmed and that son of a bitch wasn’t even in class to own up to his actions. I caught a glimpse of Chloe, the class president reaching for my bag on my desk and she strolled towards me with a grimace on her face.“Do you call this a bag?” She asked me curiously, and my eyes trailed to the patchwork of a bag, it was terrible, I know but she didn’t have any right to mock my bag when they were responsible for the destruction of the first one.“Oh!
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VALENTINE'S DAY Epilogue- Valentine's Day
Writer's P.O.V "How is the book ending?" Maurice my assistant asked me, "I thought you were working on it the previous night." "Oh yes, but I didn't like the ending." I answered her and her eyes fell towards the laptop screen, she was too strict with me, even though I didn't sleep all night while writing this ending she might still criticize me for being a shitty writer. "I like this." A small smile reached her lips. "I never liked the fact that Valentina would die at the ending, you would never reach best seller with that mentality." I was never trying to be best seller anyways, but since she approves of this ending, I know that the book is done. I will miss talking to Ethan, and also my number one fan, Valentina, even as she died she called my book, beautiful and a masterpiece. It was different from the way the toxic web readers did. But how did the book end again..."You're going to get late for your interview." Melissa yelled at Valentina, just because Valentina was trying t
VALENTINE'S DAY The start of the original ending
Third Person's P.O.V"Travis, what are you doing here?" Valentina asked curiously before she could push the door close, he stopped it with the tip of his foot and pushed her away instead. She fell to the ground, she knew she wasn't supposed to let him come inside. "Travis." Her eyes widened when she noticed he was holding a knife again, and that was when she remember a memory that escaped her mind, that day in the crowd, she saw the person who stabbed her, and that person smiled at her. It was Travis. "What do you want?" she asked fearfully as she thought about he could be looking for, was he trying to kill her again? Or could he be looking for Ethan instead. "I see you have gotten quite close with Ethan." His eyes scanned through her angrily, and they narrowed. "You are even wearing his clothes, what is this, are you guys married now?" "What do you want?" she insisted on knowing that first. "Are you telling me you don't know? I know you remember everything, don't you try to act
VALENTINE'S DAY Travis
Valentina's P.O.V Today is the day that Ethan said I was supposed to die, I have been in Ethan's house for the last three days and he had been nothing but kind and sweet to me. I didn't even notice just how lovely Ethan was until recently. I have been getting some very strange memories, this was probably the memories of the Valentina in the previous timeline, the Valentina that died. I thought Ethan was the one who assaulted me, but he was actually the one who helped me. I just understood just how much I had misunderstood Ethan's intentions. I didn't tell him about the strange memories that I am getting, I remember so much about us now, and even the first time he kissed me in his house. "Valentina are you okay?" Ethan asked me curiously, I was spacing out while we were cooking, he nudged me softly. "I didn't know you could cook." I mentioned as i washed the vegetables under the running water. "You cook so good." "I once told you I used to cook for my mother while she was still
VALENTINE'S DAY Fight
Travis P.O.V“I never knew you were this kind of person.” My mother said and her eyes widened in horror as she threw a slap at me. I clenched the part of my cheeks that she hit. “Mom, I had told you not to go into my room, without my permission.” I was at the store today, because I noticed that my tapes were running out, so I went to get a new one. Mother claimed she was cleaning my room and she found my collections, pictures and videos. “You invaded my privacy.” “How dare you…” Father joined in, ah, I forgot to add that after looking through my stuff she also invited my father to see things too. “Who are those girls in the pictures and did you do that to them?” “Yes and what if I did?” I asked them curiously. “What are you going to do, are you going to hand over your precious son to the police?” I was daring them, my mother broke down in tears, and the tapes contained images of badly beaten women that I had sexually assaulted. I used the recordings as a blackmail I never needed t
VALENTINE'S DAY Last Act
Ethan's P.O.V I woke up with Valentina in my arms, her eyes were shut tightly, as she slept peacefully, a smile reached my face, and finally this is everything I wanted. Valentina and I like this, every day. She stirred slightly, and soon enough her eyes flew open, they blinked slightly as she stared back at me. At first two of us, just stared back at each other in silence, and then a small blush creeps on her face, and she tried to disengage from me. "Wait..." I whispered as i pulled her back to my chest, "Where are you going in such a hurry?" "Ethan..." She whispered, i loved it whenever she calls my name like this, she was very embarrassed at the moment, and I wrapped my arms around her. "We can sleep some more." I advised. "N-No..." She muttered again. "I-I need to go home, I need to go to school." "Valentina," I turned her towards me, and she hid her eyes away from my gaze, i held her chin softly and tilted her face slightly until her eyes met mine. "We can't go anywhere u
VALENTINE'S DAY Kisses
Third Person’s P.O.V (Somewhere not so near)“I am telling you this will be a success.” Guillotine said as he closed his laptop shut and he turned towards Maurice his assistant and content editor. “We should be grateful that the reviews are coming back positively tonight.” Maurice answered with a small sigh. “To be honest with you, you are such a terrible writer.” “Oh, no Maurice, don’t do this to me.” He chuckled as he reeled himself in his chair. “Writing is the only thing I know how to do.” “Your writing has been messed up lately, I was becoming concerned for you, I was about to tell the publishers you would need some rest.” Maurice added and Guillotine noticed the sarcasm in the note as well. “But since the newest chapter had been released, the readers and subscription had increased.” “Oh…” He cracked his neck tiredly, he couldn’t care less if there are people reading the book, but one thing interested him tonight. “And the characters likability?” “Um, everyone wants Ethan t
VALENTINE'S DAY Captivity
Valentina’s P.O.VThe doctor said I could go home today, I was getting discharged, and I decided that I was going to quit school and leave home. Once I stepped out of this door now, I would be free, I would try my best to hang on to my life before I disappear completely.I stepped out of the bathroom, and that bastard, Ethan was still in the room, he was sitting on the bed, and speaking to the nurse who came to clean the room. Was it me or his hair had grown a bit longer than usual, well, I shrugged, I didn’t care.Just before I was able to slip out of the room, his voice stopped me.“Valentina,” He got up from the bed and strolled towards me, I turned back and glared at him. “Where are you going?"“I’m going home,” I answered confidently, just being close to him irked me so badly, I knew I had no right to get mad at him for not keeping my secret, but I hated the fact that he was just so carefree about it. “Thank you for the support.”I forced out between clenched teeth but Ethan didn
VALENTINE'S DAY Move in with me
Ethan’s P.O.V“Valentina,” Nathan shouted again, this time even higher than before, it seemed that he was struggling with the security personnel, I withdrew from the bed, and strolled towards the door, I opened it and it was just as I presumed, he was struggling with the security personnel in front of the door. “Let me in, my sister is inside the room, Valentina!”“What is going on here?” I asked curiously as I stepped outside, only then did the security men let go of Nathan, Nathan’s brown eyes shot in my direction, and there was no sign of recognition. He didn’t recognize me, seems like Guillotine took my request into consideration. “Who is this?”I asked feigning ignorance as well, his eyes widened and a hint of recognition hit him.“You are Ethan Lords, right?” He seemed to remember me, but not more than that. “Please tell them to allow me to speak to my sister, I heard she was involved in an accident in the school.”“Of course, come inside,” I answered and the security men nodded
VALENTINE'S DAY Anger and Adoration
Ethan’s P.O.V“I said no, you can’t go home.” I rephrased as I tried to aid her understanding even better. “No matter what you do, you can’t go home unless I allow it.” I finally realized it, I can’t be soft with her, if I do, she would continue to be stubborn, I leaned in her face and she scooted backwards glaring at me. “You will stay here and leave when I allow you to.”“You can’t do that.” She snapped and I smirked. “You don’t even have any right to do this, after what you did to me, do you think I am going to listen to you?”I nodded, before pulling back, tiredly, since I was still anemic I strolled back to the couch and sat down crossing my legs again. Valentina was just too stubborn, once she had set her mind to it, she would it, she didn’t care about reasoning, what she is focused on more is her hatred for me, and there was no talking her out of it.That’s why I have decided for myself. “You have no reason to listen to me,” I shrugged my shoulders, “I will not stop you, but
