Chapter 9

Nakatulala ako habang iniisip ang nangyari kagabi. Hanggang ngayon ay 'di ako makapaniwala, that was my first  and I just gave it to the man who never gave damn on me. 

You're so stupid Shen?! Why the hell did you let that happen?

Inis akong pumasok sa bathroom ng kwarto ni Hage at naghilamos saka nag toothbrush. Inayos ko na rin ang pagkakatali ng buhok ko at pinasadahan ng tingin ang kabuuan. 

I am sore down there, I can even barely move. Para akong binugbog sa sakit ng katawan at ulo ko pati ang pagitan ng mga hita ko kaya naman hindi ako gano'n makakilos. I am just wearing his black shirt with my panty on. Wala akong bra at hindi ko na ininda 'yon. Bumaba ako sa kusina para magkape ngunit bahagya akong nahinto sa pagkapasok sa pintuan ng maabutan si Hage without his shirt on. Abala ito sa pagluluto kaya tahimik akong tumungo sa cup board at nagtimpla ng coffee. 

I can't even dare to speak a simple word. My mind was so occupied by what happened between us and he seems like he doesn't even care about it. Well, he would never give a damn anyway. I know it was just a pure sex, humanap lang siya nang mapaglalabasan at nataunang ako ang kasama niya. 

That thought lunge on my chest. Nasapo ko ang noo ko habang naglalaro ang mga daliri sa handle ng cup ng kape ko. 

Napahinto lamang 'yon nang may maglapag ng gamot sa harapan ko.

"For hang over," kibit balikat na sabi nya at muling nagpatuloy sa pagluluto. Nagpalit-palit ang tingin ko sa kanya at sa gamot bago 'yon kinuha at ininom. 

"Aren't you going to slap me for what happened, because I am not sorry?" he ask not looking at me. 

"Why would I? It's not a big deal for me anyway. " of course to save my pride. Matapos sabihin yun ay tumayo na ako sa pagkakaupo at nilagay sa sink ang tasang pinaginuman ko, I was about to walk out when he grab my wrist so I could face him.

"Not a big deal huh?"

"Why? Is it a big deal to you?" Nilabanan ko ang mga titig niya sa akin. His eyes darken as what I've said that makes me taken aback. 

"You can't fool me Shenlo."

"And you can't fool me too Hage," Mariing sagot ko sa kaniya saka marahas na hinila pabalik ang kamay ko. 

"What? You're expecting me to cry in front of you, slap you? To make a scene here because that was my first? Because you fucked me after you fvcked your woman? Huh? Well to tell you Mr  Frost, I won't do that. I am not like that. I could fuck other man too, thanks to you. Dahil ngayon wala na akong iniingatan, nakuha mo na ano pa bang mawawala 'di ba? You just freed me to fuck guys," pangaasar ko na mas kinadilim ng mukha niya. What? Did I just stepped on his ego?

Mabilis niyang hinawakan ang panga ko ng mariin that makes me winced in pain. 

Mariin niya akong tinitigan as he stepped forward that made me stepped backward until I felt the hard, cold wall against my back. Itinukod niya ang isang kamay sa gilid ng mukha kong bahagyang nakaangat dahil sa pagkakahawak niya sa panga ko. He gritted his teeth as he lowered his face inch away from mine. 

"Don't you ever do that Mcdemort. Don't try my patience, I can be the devil you used to call me, don't ever try me. I can kill without mercy." Napapikit ako ng mas dumiin ang pagkakahawak niya sa panga ko. I tried to pushed him away but he immediately captured my lips, he kissed me roughly. Tila ba lahat ng galit niya ay ibuhos niya doon. 

I can't breathe properly, I was trying to punch his chest but he gripped on my wrist and pinned it above my head, he pushes his tongue inside me. I groaned against his mouth, kahit nakakasakit ang mga halik niya ay hindi ko parin maikakailang nag r-react ang katawan ko rito. Hanggang sa unti-unti na akong sumuko at hinayaan nalamang siyang gawin ang gusto niya. I shut my eyes as I move my lips against his, kissing him back with the same intensity. Bumaba ang kamay niya mula sa panga ko, agad na naginit ang pakiramdam ko ng humaplos iyon sa dibdib ko hangang sa tiyan ko. 

He lowered it down on my waist as he gripped on it and slide his hand inside my shirt, touching the side of my stomach up until it reaches my mound and cupped it. 

I gasp against his lips, still playing with his tongue inside my mouth. Mayamaya lang ay agad na niya akong binuhat at mas diniin sa padir as he wrap my legs around his waist that makes my legs spread wider. Halos mapaungol ako ng maramdaman ang kaniya sa pagitan ng mga hita ko.

"Remember this feeling Shenlo, I must be the only one who will make you feel this way," He whispered slightly sucking on my lower lip as he kissed my jaw line down on my neck. 

Naramdaman ko bigla ang pagbaba ng panty ko that makes  my eyes openend in shock. Nanatili siyang hinahalikan ang leeg ko nang maramdaman ko ang unti-unti niyang pagtulak papasok sa loob ko.

"O-oh fvck Hage! Tangina masakit pa!" 

"It's your punishment," agad akong napapikit at naibaon ang mukha sa leeg niya dahil sa sakit. I even buriied my nails on his back and let out a loud moan as he started to thrust slowly. 

"F-fvck you."

"I'm already fvcking you babe." He mocked planting soft kisses on my shoulder still thrusting inside me. 

"Ah! Tangina!" I curse as he started to move faster, shit ang sakit talaga.

"Shhh!"

"Damn you- ah!" Narinig ko ang mahinang pagtawa niya at inangat ang mukha mula sa pagkakahalik sa leeg ko at tinitigan ang mukha ko to see my reaction, biting his lower lip. Damn and he still a fvcking guts to seduce me?!

Mariin nanaman akong napapikit ng bumagal muli siya ngunit mas madiin ang ginagawang pagtulak. He's teasing me, I hate it when he's playing his game on me. 

"I love your expression when we are doing this." I wish I am that expression. Shit! What's wrong with my fvcking mind?!

Muli akong nagmulat at tinitigan siya I bit my lips when the pain subsided and replaced by a sudden pleasure. 

"Ah! Faster!"

"As you wish," he started to move faster, that made me gone crazy. 

I moan as he cursed until I felt my stomach twisted. I feel so weak after my release as he continue thrusting waiting for his turn. Bumagsak ang mukha ko sa balikat niya, still moaning softly. Bumaba naman ang tingin niya sa pagitan ng hita ko, habang mariing nakahawak ang isang kamay sa bewang ko at ang isa naman ay sa isang hita kong nakapulupot sa kaniya. He still move faster trying to reach his limit. I can hear his heavy breathing, nakaawang ang labi nito at pinagpapawisan, we are both sweating and gasping as his move lowered down, one deep thrust and I already feel his release again. Ramdam ko pa ang pagdaloy nito pababa sa hita ko. 

He burried his face on my neck as he planted soft kisses on it. Isa pang dampi ng labi niya at binuhat na ako nito pabalik sa kwarto niya. He put me down on his bed as I watch him walk inside the bathroom, paglabas niya ay may dala na siyang tissue. He squatted infront of me as he spread my legs. I bit the insides of my cheek staring at him cleaning my leg up to my precious. He was too focus on what he was doing with his brows creased a bit. Matapos ay tiningnan ako nitong muli.

"Rest here, I'll get you a breakfast. And uh- panty." Namula ako sa sinabi niya mabuti nalang at naglakad na ito palabas, napabuga ako ng hangin saka pabagsak na napahiga sa kama niya, I covered my body by his blanket as I put my arm above my eyes, covering it. I really need a rest.

How could he be so damn good at it? Ilan na ba ang pinaranas niya ng bagay na 'yon. Nakaramdam ako ng matinding selos dahil sa naisip. I can't accept it, hindi ko matanggap na may iba pang nakaranas ng bagay na 'yon mula sa kaniya. Is that bad? To wish that I was the only one? Alone? Gusto ko ako lang, sakin lang. I want him to be mine all alone. He's mine, I don't want to share what is mine. He's my devil and I know forever will be. But I am not his only one. I know the real score between us. And it is just a one sided that I've always had towards him. A one-sided love. Hindi ko maitagong hangang ngayon ay mahal ko parin siya. I won't get hurt if I already over right?

"Are you asleep?"

"No I'm Shenlo," pabalang na sagot ko at naiimagine ko na ang pagsama ng timpla ng mukha niya sa naging sagot ko.

"I brought you a breakfast," Marahan kong inalis ang braso ko sa pagkakadagan sa  mata ko at tiningnan siya, he's holding a pair of cotton short and white sando with a black bra and maroon panty.

"Here, shower ka muna." Tinanggap ko 'yon at tumayo na, agad naman niya akong inalalayan na kinataka ko.

"I can still walk."

"I can carry you inside I know it still hurts."

"Tangina ka kasi," narinig ako ang paghalakhak niya na agad din namang natigil ng marealize niya ang ginawa niya.

"Tangina ka talaga eh no?"

"Your mouth, ilang beses ka bang nagmumura?"

"Maraming beses kapag kasama kita."

"Well, masarap pakinggan pag nagsese-"

"Shut up!" Agad ko siyang tinulak at nagmadali na akong pumasok sa bathroom, saka malakas n sinara ang pinto. Sana lang ay nasira 'yon para maasar siya. 

Ilang minuto ang naubos ko sa pagshower at lumabas ng bathroom na nagpapatuyo ng buhok gamit ang itim na tuwalyang pag-aari ni hudas.

I caught him resting his back on the headboard of the bed while reading his book. Nadako ang tingin nito sa akin at pinasadahan ako ng tingin saka ngumisi. 

"Ano? Gusto mo nanaman?"

"Kung payag ka bakit hindi."

"Gago!" Dumeretso ako sa couch at nagsimulang kumain ng niluto niyang almusal. 

"Rebel vampires are roaming around," Mayamaya'y seryosong sabi niya na hindi ko naman pinansin.

"They were after us, especially after you."

"Dapat ba may pakialam ako?"

"Of course woman, they will not hesitate to kill you."

"Do you think I care?" Pinaglaruan ko ang bacon sa plato ko saka seryosong tiningnan. 

"Whatever happens to me, I don't fvcking care. Who cares anyway." I shrugged resting my back against the backrest of the couch.

"I fucking do."

At sinong niloko niya?