I never thought I could feel heartbroken or even feel forsaken. I never thought I was ever gonna fall in love with a girl or even care for someone so much. Ariel fuckin made me feel weak. When you get involved with dangerous shit like the Mafia or even decides to do narcotics , you gotta be sure you got nothing to loose. No lover , no kid , nothing , so they won't hit you back expecting you're gonna loose something. When Kennedy was born, I made sure she stays far away from me because, I wanted to make sure she's okay. But why can't I let Ariel stay away from me.
Manny sighs after he stiitch up the bullet wound. I got shot when I was trying to save her.
" You're in love." Manny says and close the first aid kit. I look down at my bandages around my arm.
" Yeah?"
" She's pretty and a nice person. I might not be good wit
Why's he always doing this to me. I always stop thinking each time he's around me. It's like my brain just stop working automatically. He loves me and I love him too. But then I remembered what he is. Gray kisses me. I didn't kiss back at first. He wraps his hands around my waist and presses me gently against the wall. I hopelessly wrap my arms around his neck and kiss back. Maybe I shouldn't be kissing back right now.I should be thinking about the mess he's trying to get me involved with. And if I don't back out now, then I can't back out anytime soon. I stop kissing him. He stays still with his hands around my waist. I raise my hand and place my hand on his face. His eyes peel apart and they look into mine." We need to talk." I say. He sighs and looks at me for seconds before nodding.He lets go of me and tucks his hands in his jacket." Ask whatever thing you wanna ask , I'll tell the truth."I nod and cross my arms
" You fuckin' did what!" Alexa shouts. She just returned from where ever place she went to and I told her what happened. " You broke up with him? Why would you do that?" " I didn't break up with him. I just needed a break." " So what's the difference?" " There's a difference. I still love him but I can't fit into his lifestyle. It's too much for me to handle. How long will I stop running?" I sigh and run my palms down my arms. " Running? Ariel , you just hurt his feelings , you broke him." " You're not getting it Alexa. I can't keep up with this dangerous side of Gray. He's the best thing that has ever happened to me , yes but…" " You can't accept his dark past and his dark world huh?" Alexa asks and crosses her arms. She chuckles and bites her bottom lip. " I don't mean to sound annoying, but you should stop being the hero here. Don't try to be the good girl who's trying to tame the bad guy. Why
Leslie and I sit my already conscious mom on the couch as she looks down at Leslie. Rage , anger and lots of emotions spread across her face. I sit on the single couch and stare at mom. Leslie stands at a corner with her hands cross. " What were you thinking? Getting pregnant for your professor. You had to sleep with a professor Leslie. A married one with a kid." Mom leans her elbows on her knees and holds her head. " Is he aware?" Mom asks. Leslie bites her bottom lip and shakes her head sideways. " He's not aware?" Mom flares up. She stands to her feet and almost rushes after Leslie. " Mom , calm down." I hold her. " You're gonna suffer Leslie. We made sure you had a good life. I always advised you after I noticed you sleep around. We talked to you. But no , you're this wayward freak who always wants a penis. Make sure you don't come home for holidays or even Christmas. I and your father will stop paying your tuition fee and I
" Ariel don't tell me you're gonna talk to your parents. She couldn't develop the decency to apologise for all the wrong things she did to you. I've been tolerating her shit for too long. Leslie deserve to taste the bad side of life."I sigh and sit on Alexa's sofa. After Leslie left , Alexa decides it's nice to drag me to her room so we can talk about Leslie. I promised her I was going to talk to my parents. I really planned to before she even got here." Alexa , she's gonna suffer."" I'm not saying you shouldn't help. But let her taste suffering first. I want her to feel all the bad shit she did . She couldn't even apologize for the things she did to you. She couldn't let go of her ego because of what? She was jealous of you. She bullied you, lied against you and even made you feel vulnerable and to top it all , she enjoyed your pains. Now what, your parents cut her out and she comes running to you because you're this nice girl who always
" Okay, can someone tell me why you guys left the restaurant just like that?" Piper asks from the back seat of the car as we drive to the store.Brandon cross his arms as they stare at us. Yeah , that was a bit weird. I couldn't even look into his eyes because they were just looking into my soul. His eyes sparks in recognition and a glint of emotions that I barely could decipher. I look at Alexa as she turns to look at me. She smiles awkwardly and shrugs as she steers the wheel like a maniac she is. She's obviously a crackhead driver like Gray." Some weirdo was staring at us awkwardly , so we had to leave." Alexa answers." Some weirdo? Staring? I mean why?" Piper asks." I don't know. They look wealthy and unpredictable. We weren't ready for any shitty games and we left."" What shitty game?" Brandon asks this time." I don't know guys. They look weird." Alexa answers and exhales." What's up with your restroom hookup?
~GRAY~I unbutton my dress shirt and shrug it down my arms. I toss it on the couch and undress myself. I saunter to the bathroom and switch on the shower. I stand under the shower with both my hands on the cold wall. The warm water rinse down my skin and all I could think is her. How I fucked up.How I put her life in danger and how she makes my heart beat with just a smile.I missed looking at her.I missed staring at her deep brown eyes, and I missed waking up next to her. I can't even think about anything else but her.I badly wanted to stop calling her. Grant her the space she wanted but I can't. My mind has never been at ease after she told me she wanted to stay away from me.I clean myself and put on a t-shirt and sweats. I pick up a cigarette and light it. Someone knocks on my door and I order the person in. Re
I hug myself as I whimper. Why can't I live life like every normal adult. Always running from gun men who wants me as captive to get to Gray. It's almost midnight and I'm inside Cage's car. We drove out of the club to some isolated area and he parks his car there. At first I thought he was gonna kill me. I still don't know why he tried to save me.The tension between us is so thick and I barely can look at me." Are you cold?" He asks.I swallow and nod. He smiles and turns on the heater of his car." Better?"" Better." My voice croak out." Who were those people?" I ask." I don't know. Maybe gangsters."" Why were they after me?"He chuckles." Your boyfriend is a dickhead maybe."I scoff and look away." Look, this always happens as long as you're a Mafioso. He's popular, he's powerful and people like that always attract rivals. Maybe they wanna hurt him and since they can
~LESLIE~I take a deep breath and look at my reflection in the mirror. I've lost everything. Friends , family and even school. I hate my life. How can I make such a terrible mistake? Ariel was the least person I ever thought I was gonna beg. I can't believe i had to kneel down before her because mom cut me out of the family.I wipe my eyes and look down at my stomach. There's no baby bump yet and I'm grateful. Most times I sit down and ask myself what made me sleep with a professor. I don't really know. Maybe I wanted to prove a point to the world. I forget the fact that you can't really please this miserable world. I shut my eyes and remember what Lawson told me.' you're pregnant? Now what do you want me to do? Divorce my wife and marry you?' he yelled at me.I stood like a moron in front of him that day. I look stupid and f
SIX YEARS LATER I drop my car key on the kitchen counter and run my hands down my hair. Being a mom is so difficult and hard. Haven is always getting into one trouble or another. Last week, his teacher reported him for getting into a fight with an older kid. Gray is barely bothered. ” Look mom , I’m sorry.” Haven whines as he follows me. ” Go to your room.” I turn around and glare at him. Today , he got into another fight because the eight years old kid called him names. He’s got a terrible temper. One I’ve never seen before. Gray wasn’t like this or maybe Gray was worse when growing up. I remembered he said he got kicked out of several highschool because of his fighting and I can’t withstand seeing Haven being kicked out. I squat to his height and run my hand down his black hair. He looks like Gray. Same grey colored orbs. Hair and even his father’s facials. ” Haven , you don’t fight at school, it's wrong
Chapter 110 " What's up with you Ariel?" Piper beams as I slide into the booth next to Brandon. Piper and Alexa sit across from us at our usual restaurant ' sands and winches'. It's been a long time since we hung out together in this restaurant. All thanks to life. " I've been good." I say with a big smile as I arrange my yellow sundress. " What's up with you guys? I swear I miss college so much." I sigh and bite my bottom lip. " Fuck college. It's just been the same boring shit. How are you holding up with online classes?" Brandon asks. " It's been great." I say.
CHAPTER 109 |•GRAY•| I still can't believe what I'm seeing. I battled death for over six months and when I finally won , I decided to check on the one girl who makes me happy and she's pregnant. Like fully pregnant. How can she do that? " You're pregnant?" I ask her. She stares at me like I'm a ghost and I can't fight back the anger that I had to come check on her the moment I was okay and she's pregnant. Who the fuck got her pregnant? Cage? Or maybe some dimwit. " Who the fuck got you pregnant?" " You're serious?" She asks me. It hurts me that she's barely concerned about my reaction to finding her pregnant after waking up from a six months coma. " Ariel, who got you pregnant?" I ask her. " I'm sorry." She simply states. " You're sorry? Ariel you're pregnant and you're saying you're sorry. I was in a co
Chapter 108 Six months later… " Dear God, I wanna say that I'm grateful for everything that you've done for me. I wanna appreciate the fact that you looked after me and Gray junior, I totally appreciate that. I've sinned against you and I'm sorry. I just wanna ask the same favor I've been asking for the past six months. Please bring Gray back. I want him back…" I sniffle and look down at my baby bump. " His baby wants him back. Please. I know that he has done a lot of stuff. Bad stuff , yes, but please he's a good man. It's been six months now and I'm still asking you for this little favor. I want Gray back, please, God." I weep silently and bite my lip. I look up at Jesus on the cross and look down at my belly. Dad walks beside me and wraps his arms around my shoulder to comfort me. He woke up from a coma five months ago and Gray's still missing. The first month , I always hoped. Stand opposite my
CHAPTER 107 ” Oh my God…” I groan and rush into my bathroom to throw up. I rest both hands on the edge of the sink and puke out whatever thing I ate. What is this called, baby sickness? I breathe in and out and look up at my reflection. ” You’re okay in there?” Alexa calls out. ” Yeah. I’m just having baby sickness I think.” ” Baby sickness? What the fuck is that?” Alexa asks and walks into the bathroom. I turn on the faucet to let it rinse out my vomit as I wash my hands. ” I think it’s because of Alejandro. We killed someone.”” Seriously? You regret that now?” She asks. I turn off the tap and turn to look at her. ” I didn’t mean that. Maybe it upset the baby.” I shrug as she chuckles. I laugh and walk to her as we walk out of the bathroom to my room. I remove my peacoat and toss it on the couch. Alexa pushes the drapes aside to reveal the city below. ” Damn. That was crazy. At fir
CHAPTER 106 I sit opposite Alexa on the kitchen stool as she goes about her plan on Alejandro. My phone rings and I pick it up from the countertop. My heartbeat stops at the caller ID. Oh God, what am I supposed to tell her? " What? Who's that?" " Mia." " Holy fuck." She sighs and runs her fingers through her hair. " What am I supposed to tell her? I'm just gonna break it once I hear her voice. She's obviously gonna ask me where Gray is and I'll start crying again." I say. I haven't talked to her and I'm about to sob. " Just calm down and act normal." I nod and take several deep breaths as I answer the call. " Oh my God Ariel. How are you?" She asks on the phone. I inhale and sigh. I wipe a tear that slip out of my eyes at once. " I'm good, Mia. How are you?" " I'm fine. How's the baby? Hope you're eating well? Pregnancy is worse than a heavy toll.
CHAPTER 105 " Emergency! Someone's getting a panic attack!" The voice is muffled and I barely can hear anything. I lay on a stretcher as I'm pushed down the hospital's hallway. I watch the ceilings pass by as I try to breathe. I can't breathe. Everything is blurry as the stretcher continues to move. Two paramedics surround me , talking non-stop and giving me promises that I'll be fine. The next minute, I'm in a room with doctors and nurses trying to give me treatments. Gray's been shot. I can't even think of losing Gray without telling him he's gonna be a father soon. " What's happened to Gray?" I choke out as a nurse tries to press me back down to steady my breathing. " Someone get her an oxygen mask!" The doctor yells. " She needs a tranquilizer..." The doctor mutters and snaps at another nurse. I feel my hands tremb
CHAPTER 104 |•GRAY•| This is so fuckin crazy. I can't imagine sitting across from Sinclair to eat dinner in some fancy restaurant. This is so fucked up. I'm pretty sure we're both gonna flip and cause a scene. Why did he have to be her father? I watch her get up from my lap as she smiles triumphantly. I bet she did a victory dance in her head. Oh man. The doorbell rings at once. She smiles and walks to the door. Probably the delivery guy who's here to deliver the food she ordered. My phone rings and I retrieve it. Reid's name displays on my screen as I swipe the answer icon. " Hey dick." He says once I pickup. " Seriously?" I scoff. I hear Ariel converse with the delivery guy and they are taking too long. " What are you doing?" He asks and i roll my eyes. I'm still stressed abo
CHAPTER 103 " Ariel, I'd rethink my decisions if I were you…" Alexa says as I bring out the pills from the drawers. " When did you buy these?" She asks. " Two days after I discovered I was pregnant." She sighs and sits on the bed. " You know when Leslie was pregnant, you hated the fact that she had to terminate the baby. You can't play that same role you talked about." I sigh and turn around on my seat to look at her. " But Gray doesn't want a baby." " Both of you produced Junior. You both had sex like every other partners and boom there comes a baby. You're gonna tell him that you're pregnant. If he freaks out and tells you to get rid of it , then it's fine." " Oh God." " Don't you want the baby?" She asks. " I don't know. Right now, I don't even know what I want." " Okay, forget the fact that Gray doesn't want a baby, do you want to keep the baby?" " Who w