Chapter 3

No one gave me the time nor the right to mourn my mother's death. They never waited for me to move on nor to accept the death of my mother and gave me another weight on my shoulder again and that is to train to replace my mother as the queen in her kingdom- her vampire clan. 

Another obligation that my father is pushing me to do for him to be able to use the power that I'll get in everything that he wants to do. He knows he's the one who will benefit from it. Heartless.

No one asked me if I'm alright nor if I'm ready to accept this new responsibility but for my mother, I will. I still can't forgive myself for her death and this is my way to pay for it... To be my father's salve- again. 

No matter how I want to fight him and tell him that I can't do everything by myself, I still know that he's right. I deserve to suffer in his hands because of what I did to my mother. I may not be the one who killed her with my hands, but I'm still the reason for her death and that's just the same. I'm still the one who killed her in the eyes of my father and my mind. 

"All hail for the late Queen's daughter, Hermione Venice Lucerne who will soon be your Queen!" My father announced proudly as I walk towards the thrown that I'm not yet allowed to sit on until I finished training and until I prove that I deserve the title which I don't even want to hold. I don't think I deserve the title that my mom left... 

Everyone clap their hands and bow to me as if I'm already their queen but I don't feel like I deserve this much respect when I only deserve suffering. 

He seems happy... My father seems happy watching me get this much power as days pass by but he's not happy for me but for himself and I can't even look at his smiles because I badly want to take that happiness off of him. He doesn't deserve to be happy. It's my mother who deserves to wear those smiles but now she's gone and he doesn't seem to be affected, not even a little. 

It won't be easy for me to be a queen. I have to train for months and compete with others who are interested in my mom's throne and if I'll live, then I'll be crowned as their queen and if I'll die, then I'll gladly accept it because I'll finally be with my mother without waiting for a long time and I'm already accepting that as my fate. 

"All hail for the next Queen, huh? A half-blooded werewolf doesn't deserve to be a vampire queen," My cousin on my mom's side said in an insulting voice as if that was pure stupidity for her. 

I laughed sarcastically when I remembered that she's one of those few who are interested to compete with me to be the queen. 

"Why? Do you think I shouldn't be? Then who will? You who knows nothing but to sit and wait for the servants to serve you everything you need? Or your mother who doesn't even know who your father is because of how many men she's bedding?" I answered her back that made her lose her voice and the things that she still wants to say and that made me laugh like a fool.

I may have lost my mother but I won't let her treat me like a weakling because I'm still much more powerful than her and if she'll just be the Queen, then I'd rather fight with everything that I have just to get that title. 

I don't want my mother's beloved kingdom to be in a demon's hands. 

I walked and left her there dumbfounded. No one should ever insult me for I know everyone's secret and how I can take them down in a minute. I know they are planning something wicked, I know them and I know how I can stop and pull them down too. I am no damsel in distress but a tigress they should avoid being bitten by. 

Today, I was given a mission as part of my training and that is to kill rogues- every one of them, without using any of my abilities which I know I can because I'm trained to fight using swords than using my abilities because I am born to control them perfectly. 

I left our palace and started my mission by attacking every place where I know rogues are living and killing them all mercilessly, after all I know they are doing nothing but kill the innocent creature and they deserve to be extinct because if I know they're innocent and kind creature, I won't even hesitate to refuse this mission and just give up to be their Queen. 

I was out fighting all day using the sword that my mother gifted me and avoiding using any abilities that I have which I succeeded to do. 

I've gone to almost every place- even in the human world just to find them all and I've never come back home yet until I finished what my mission is. 

I never even tried resting because I know I should finish this fast or else my cousin and my aunt will play some dirty tricks on me to stain my name from every vampire in the palace. I know how dirty they play but they are unfortunately because I also am professional when it comes to playing dirty. 

Beg, cries, and shouting in pain are the only music that I can hear for days and no one had given me a great fight yet. None of them succeeded in killing me or stopping me. 

Now, I know this is my last day. I'm planning to go back after the sun sets and after making sure that no rogue is breathing anymore. I'm glad that finally, I am going to rest not because my body is exhausted but because my mind and heart are. It hasn't been resting, not even a minute. My mother's death just can't leave my heart and now I'm too exhausted... I don't even know what to do and whom I should hug whenever I'm tired of the shuts that life is throwing me. 

I have nowhere to go- not even a place that I can call my home because my home was gone and I am the reason why my home left me. 

Such unfortunate life that I have, right? I don't even know if I still deserve any of this because it's unfair... It's so unfair how life throws me knives when I only have pillows to protect me. 

Mom... I know I have no right but can I ask you one last time to hug me? You can just use the wind and I'm already contented with that. I just need it... I really need it because sometimes, the strongest one that everyone assumes can be the weakest when she's alone. 

"Milady," I heard a man call me from behind, and again, I saw those familiar eyes that once almost took my sanity before. The eyes that I've been longing to see but my mission is different from what my heart is shouting. I know who he is and I also know what I should do. 

"Is this the eclipse you're mentioned?" I asked but I wanted to ask him if the eclipse he mentioned was me killing him but I can feel that my hands are now out of my control and I can't even move to kill him because that's what I'm ordered to do. 

Instead of answering me, he started walking toward me as if he knows that I won't be able to hurt him in any way which he was right. 

"Rest, my queen. I know you're tired and you know your mother won't like seeing you in this situation. Let me be your warrior for a while and protect you," he said in a hoarse but sweet voice that's like music to my ears- a unique one that only he knows the words and lyrics in it to sing to me and make me drown in it. 

"I-i can't... I shouldn't trust you," I answered even though I know it's not just rest that I need but his touch... His hands that seem to be a spell that can make me feel weak every time because I know he's there. 

"Listen to what your heart is saying, my queen. Let our worlds now collide and let our eclipse happen tonight," those words were like spells that can control me but I know it's not only that, I know it's what I want. 

He offered his hand to me which I gladly accepted. I stopped when I saw him smirk but it faded fast as if it was just my imagination. 

Maybe it was really just my imagination because as I give him my hand, I also gave him the trust that he's asking for, hoping that the time when he'll stab me from behind won't come. 

I've been longing for these feelings all my life and I hope that this is right. I hope I won't regret it sooner because if I will, then I don't think I can still live any longer. After all, if I won't die after all those pain, then I'll turn into a monster that's hiding within me since I was born.