Cinyla's POV
UGH! I can't concentrate on what I'm doing right now. He is annoying and that man has been confusing my mind since he entered our house. In addition, my heart was beating faster, as if horses were running at high speed.
I was caught in my heart. "Heart, can you please calm down first? I know you're just shocked but he doesn't suit you!" My mind screamed. I just chose to pick up my guitar. It's Saturday so I don't have a job because the office is often only open from Monday to Friday.I sit in my favorite red chair near my working and study area, touched it first, and thought of something to sing. I love music and when I'm not doing anything I play, or I often choose to write songs just for fun. I also didn't fulfill my dream then, since my father passed away, I chose to just claim my talent.It's sad but how do I get started? If on the very day I pursue my plans I have lost my special supporter and inspiration —my father.I stopped strumming and put in it a bag. I saw a picture of my dad with me nearby in my cabinet. This is the time when I was still in college, we often sing different songs, mostly old and rock, and played together. It's funny to think of those days, it's nice to go back to every rhythm that is formed and the lyrics that are sung."Well, I'm missing you. I'm sorry I can't continue my dream, huh? I don't know how anymore, why-" I couldn't continue what I was going to say next because I felt a wet liquid coming out of both sides of my eyes. I hugged Dad's picture and let out a series of sobs.
Daddy...
In my embrace of grief, I was startled to turn the door and open it permanently.
I didn't even bother to fix my face, because this man didn't even tell me. "STOP!" I said this angrily and stand up but I still kept adjusting myself.
"Are you crying? Are you okay?" he asked.I was still swallowed by saliva even though I was having a hard time because I had just cried, but I didn't want to make it public and I didn't want him to think I was weak.
"I-It's nothing. Don't worry about me. I'm okay."
I was about to be taken out of my room but he took my right hand and hugged me. "Take it out, I'll listen. I'm here, I'll sympathize with you." During those times I almost turned to ice because I stayed in front of him, I did not hug but my shoulder fell completely. I also couldn't estimate the heavy luggage I was carrying, it overflowed and exploded.I sobbed one after another, I also cried for him, and the liquid from my nose and eyes wet his clothes.
"S-Sorry..."
But he just tapped me and handed me a handkerchief that I don't know where it came from but I used it too. What is this man doing? It's still too late, but I appreciate what he did today. Why do I see him so wrong?
"Come on, it's not your thing to cry. I'm not in your position to say this but I know you can do it." He smiled and kept patting my back as if to say that it was okay but it was okay to cry.
I was devastated, I was just carried away by the emotion of the fact that I remembered my dreams for Dad. I know that Mother is still there, but you are still different and she is still the reason and will suddenly disappear."T-Thank you," I said sparingly.
"Nothing, I know you're annoyed because I suddenly came in. I'm just worried, go ahead and rest. Next time we'll bond, wait, you're playing the guitar?" His smiling response made me look at my guitar, of course, I won't be in. This cobra wants to get close to me. I just took away what I was thinking about him.I just replied, "Sure! Yes. BenChua, thank you again huh? I'll return it after I laundry it. I'm sorry to bother you." I explained."Nothing. Don't do that to you, it's like you remember me when you cry." It winked as if teasing and was about to pay attention."Oh wait, it's just a joke. I'm just making you smile, Cinyla. I'll go to my room; rest then don't forget my request that we jam next time." He smiled broadly and left my room. The door closed while I was sitting on my bed. I was touched by my heart; I could hear the speed of its beat again."Cinyla?" Its call to action caused me to stand up and look out the door."W-why?" I stammered in response."Can I borrow your guitar for a while? You know, my room is boring," he said.I didn't think any thoughts, instead, I was pick up my guitar and handed it to him. His beautiful smile faded, causing me to be swallowed up in no time. He took the guitar from me and by accident, he grabbed my hand. "Thank you!"But he did not pay attention to it but he just chose to leave.I was left speechless and let him walk into his room. "I'll just come back later!" He shouted.But I remained a statue at the door until a few seconds later I also woke up. I close my eyes because of the intense scene because I feel like I'm standing there. I slapped both of my cheeks to back in reality. "Cinyla, that's enough! Wake up!" I shouted to myself.Then I woke up, and I saw on my bed a handkerchief he had given me last night. I stared at it. I smelled it and the scent, like expensive perfume or fabric conditioner that was used. I opened it and I didn't expect what I saw.Mr. Montevilla? wait, this is my father's surname.Cinyla's POVI almost could wash my face using my hand because I am totally confused about what happened last night. I suddenly let go of the handkerchief I was holding. I don't know why he has a handkerchief with my dad's last name. I was almost depressed by what I thought but maybe he just bought it somewhere with the same last name as me. I just chose not to say anything and just keep quiet. I lay down on my bed and rested. I'm just thinking too much about what- I woke up to a series of knocking and calling my name. Instead of getting up, I chose to just cover my ears with a pillow. Who is knocking at this time? I looked at what time it was and noticed that it was past ten o'clock at night. But, BenChua didn't seem to be leaving, so even though he broke my sleep I just got up and opened the door for him. A tight hug I immediately received, I was not on my own at those times and to my shock, I pushed him suddenly and hard. "S-Sorry...Why are you hugging all of a sudden? You've a
Cinyla's POV I rolled over in my bed just to fall asleep. I couldn't help but be annoyed because of what he did. Ugh! He is rude and I hate him so much! I didn't even retaliate against him. Tsk! Do you think you're handsome? An ideal guy? NO! I have a boyfriend. I got my phone on the top of my table, I contact Mark, my man. I dial it but it is always out of coverage area. Damn baby! Where are you?! I try to contact my boyfriend many times, but I only got no answer. I was annoyed and keep my phone on the table again. I just give a deep sigh and think something. Well, yes! He is handsome and has 8-pack abs, but wait, what am I saying? Incorrect! Annoying! I still have work later, but he's messing with me — He's messing with my brain. Until I thought of taking a deep breath and just closing my eyes in case during those times, I can fall asleep as well. The next day, I woke up early because of the loud sound of my alarm clock. I could do nothing but get up even though I was still laz
Cinyla's POV It was early in the morning when I realized that I have a lot of work to do, but I never complained I just thought that all my hard work would pay off. I'm just a simple employee here who encodes important details. I still have the papers on my desk but that's it! "Hey, Cinyla, Sir Ronie is calling you to his office, can you go now or later? I'll have to go through the paperwork on the other side." Amora nodded and left my room. I just nodded as a signal that I need to go to the office of Sir Ronie. He is the head here while the owner, I don't see him or her already because they say an owner is a busy person. Honestly, I haven't seen it personally, I hope to see it next time. I just organized myself and put away my belongings. I headed to the far end of his office. I don't know why in the multitude of places Sir Ronie would like to be in the far end. I have no choice but to go there even if it's boring. "Why this elevator Sir Ronie is still under maintenance or can't
Cinyla's POV I walked around until I see a large flower on my table, it was a bouquet of roses one of my favorite flowers. The smell is different but I sense some fabric in the conditioner. But when check it, I found something mysterious, and the hair on my skin almost arise because I couldn't understand it and my eyes couldn't find anything that it is from my mother. "M-mom!" I shouted and look into the other room. But I saw him there fast asleep, he suddenly woke up and hugged me. "Oh, daughter! What's the matter?! Did you like what you saw in your room?" "H-ha? You're the one who did it?" "Yes, sweetie! I'm sorry I fell asleep. I gave that to you as my advanced gift for your incoming birthday." She touches my face and greets me. I was almost fed up with what my Mother did. The surprise she had prepared was shocking. "Oh, it's coming from you, mom! Thank you so much! You make me so nervous. But mom, the petals have fallen which makes me think that that bouquet of roses isn't com
Cinyla's POV There is no communication happened between me and my mother during our breakfast. Even BenChua was just quietly eating as well. His gaze was steady even though I honestly felt that he wanted to break the silence with us. "I'm done eating, thank you! I'm coming in." I seriously promise I'll drink some water first and get up. "Be careful, darling and I am sorry again for last night," she said sincerely. I just responded with a forced smile and left. I don't agree that BenChua will accompany me because it was embarrassing, I'll just wait for the car because I'm wearing fitted pants with my black t-shirt tucked in. Random clothes because now in the office so it's okay to do anything, just don't reveal. While I was waiting, I noticed BenChua's car coming out. I think he has a walk, where does he work? Instead of thinking about them, I just focused on the road so I could park and ride as well. Until a familiar car hit me. "You're on board, I'll take you," BenChua said while
Cinyla's POV I get a hurry when I heard the sharp fall of what was until I saw my mother picking up a plate that had fallen to the floor. "Oh sorry, Cris! The plate is broken." "Just be careful. I'll be home later. Thank you for the food that you prepared. Oh, by the way, did my brother's daughter is big now?" he asked. I heard their conversation and the voice is familiar it is from my Uncle Cris. I was on the side of the stairs, I was surprised by the one next to me. "So it's you!" shocked I said to BenChua next to me. I slapped him for making the storage that seemed to give me nervousness at those times. "Why are you here?! You look like a ghost!" I whispered as I looked at him badly. "I'm sorry, I was just surprised that it broke. I thought your mom and uncle were hurt." his monotonous explanation gave me calm. I was about to go up when he held my right hand. "Just wait," "W-Why? We already know what happened to them I'm going to get dressed," I said and removed his hand fr
Cinyla's POV A few days passed and that person didn't bother me anymore – the person behind giving me nervousness and fear since he bothered me with the texts and calls that he do for all day. "Hey, are you okay? You've been stupid before, is there a problem?" Ben asked in surprise because I suddenly thought that's why he just disappeared like a bubble. It's Saturday and BenChua invited me to go out first because Mama is resting in our house so I agreed with him to absorb some good ambiance. "Y-yes! I just thought of something," I said while looking at him. We are here in Lyuirs Park where many people like to stay here to take a walk and hang out with their loved ones. I don't know why he thought of it, but it's good. He came closer and pinched my nose. "O-ouch! S-STOP!" He touched my nose which turned to tomato now and was annoyed to face him. "BenChua! It hurts so much!" I said giggling."Oh, Sorry just stop thinking about anything, I'm worried. If he disturbs you again, I will k
Cinyla's POV I and BenChua are always been together, I'll admit he's okay with me, reliable, and sociable like him. My accusations against him that he was a bad person were completely false. I was based too much on misconceptions. "Do you want to buy anything else before we go to the park?" he asked while continuing driving."Maybe it's just snacks and drinks because it's bad if we always eat street foods, right? I mean, we also have to be careful with what we eat. When our health is damaged, we will regret it in the end." "Yes, even most of the time prohibited foods are delicious we should take care of our health.""Nice! Are you okay? It's really from you, isn't it?" I wondered because I can't believe it."Well, I need to maintain my body fit and healthy. I'm going to work out again, do you want to come?" He turned our path to buy at a store for our snacks and drinks. "Just answer my question when I get back." It was coming down and left me in the car first. Honestly, whoever wil
The world is not fair. Often, in the end, what we want doesn't happen. Like me, I thought that our family would be rebuilt and that my distance from Ben was the key to everything; forgetting and rebuilding oneself is a mistake because, in the end, everything is just a puzzle. On the other hand, I will still try to find peace and stay away from the person who caused me to be broken.I was dumbfounded looking at Daddy's photo, I didn't think that everything would lead to saying goodbye. There was a second chance, but it also seemed like nothing.I was standing at our table and I saw the picture of me and Daddy, this is the most special day for me. "Daddy, it's been almost a month since you disappeared, I haven't even spoken to Ben and your partner Ms. Talia, his conscience couldn't take it. It's sad, but a few days after you were buried, he in the mental hospital. Dad, I thought we would be fine, I thought it would be more painful." I rubbed the photo that I still had, the photo of me a
Cinyla's POVSunday was passed, and I can say that I somehow got a thorn out of my chest. After Ben and I talked, I decided to distance myself from him. My dad is not here in our house, wherever he is. I don't know, but Mommy said he is at the Saint Louis Hospital in Batangas.I sighed, walked around the balcony, and watched the sky. I hope soon, everything will be fine.Until someone called my name. "Cinyla, can I talk to you?" a familiar voice. It is sharp and close to my heart.I turned to where the voice came from. "Oh Mom, you're here. Yes, let's talk downstairs." She smiled and said, "Alright. We'll just wait for you downstairs." I just nodded even though I was wondering why he said our words, maybe he was with someone else. Who is that?I fix myself and go downstairs.While I'm on my way, I see someone that makes me nervous.I didn't expect that he would go, but as I approached him, I tried to calm down and act as normal. I noticed that he is more fine right now, he is wearing a
BenChua's POVAll of them make me stupid. "Damn!"Even if I am not in the mood, I go straight to my VenZua Bar, one of the bars I stumbled upon last year. I'm just going to visit today, not to get to know someone and have fun but to forget what happened. "I hate him! Why did he come back? Why now?" I drove fast while cursing him in my mind. “Damn! Still traffic!” Until my phone rings.I didn't pay attention to that but I put down a bottle of vodka I got at the condo, I didn't want to go to sleep so it was better to go somewhere I knew I could forget somehow. It took me almost half an hour because even though it was late at night, I was still caught up in heavy traffic. Traffic in the Philippines is different. I parked the car and went straight to Venzua Bar. It's not just a bar because it's a 4 store building and anyone can enter as long as they can pay. After all, this is part of business. After I passed the entrance, two muscular men met me. They greeted me and I just smiled, t
Cinyla's POVI rested at home for almost two days, Mommy always prepared food for me and even took care of me. I looked at the big clock on the side of my table, it was almost lunchtime.While I was looking around, feeling the silence, someone suddenly knocked on my door. It was three knocks before I spoke."Come in," I said.My door opened, and it wasn't Mommy who knocked but he, my Father. This time, he appeared without a mask. Carrying the tray of my food and drinking water."Good afternoon, Cinyla. Eat now, I hope you'll be fine. Your Mommy left, so I brought it." I didn't even ask, but she said why she brought it, where is Mommy going to go? this time, it's hot outside."Thank you, where is he going?" I asked coldly."We're just going to buy something to eat later, I said I'd go out alone but he insisted that he be the only one. Alright son, eat now. I'm going to go."He put my food on the table, I didn't say anything because he seemed to feel the coldness of my treatment of him.
Cinyla's POVI woke up early but I chose to sip a tea here on the balcony. I still don't understand everything, most of all I can't accept what happened to Daddy. I want to hug him tightly but I still have a lot of doubts.As I observe the beauty of the sky with different images the clouds form, the lush plants on my balcony, and the appearance of the wind. For a few moments, while I felt the silence, someone messaged me. I put down the tea I was drinking on the table and took out my cellphone to read it.My eyes widened, sir already had five messages. I checked the day and it was Monday today."Oh shocks! I have school today, I forgot and I'm still super chill now."I read them one by one.Sir Ben ChuaGood morning, Cinyla.Received 7:50 amSir Ben ChuaPlease bring me hot chocolate, no sugar added. Thanks!Received 7:57 amSir Ben ChuaHey, why are you doing and not replying to me?Received 7:57 amSir Ben ChuaI checked your office, you are still not there. Is it traffic? Where are
Cinyla's POVToday is my rest day and I'd rather stay home than go anywhere. Mommy is not here today either, she left the morning before. I looked at the clock and it was past eight in the morning. I'm still dumbfounded when I see the ceiling and stare at the light that I didn't turn off last night. I got up, turned it off, and looked around me. I'm messed up!I sat down for a while and stretched until I remembered what happened yesterday. Can I come with you when you see your Dad? His questions make me freeze in my place and make me think about a lot of things. I don't know but I feel something strange. Honestly, there's nothing wrong if he comes along, but I don't have any privacy anymore. I took a deep breath, tried to put aside the things bothering me, and started making my bed. The colors of my bedsheet and pillowcase are simple white and black plain. I have three pillows, two in front and one that I hug, I seem to have gotten used to that arrangement. Because if I don't have
Cinyla's POVI still don't understand sir's offer, why did he see me pretending to be his girlfriend? I knew that he had flirted before that's why I rejected him because I wasn't ready and I didn't know if he was serious or not. His offer is good, but I don't want to fall into a plan that has consequences in the end. I breathed deeply. There is even a problem, he wants to add more.I'm currently sitting at my desk, looking at the black folder he gave me. I still haven't opened it so I don't know and understand anything about what he said about my new rules and obligations for him.He is really strong! You thought I would agree! No! A big NO!I sat up and swallowed, I took the black folder and opened it but suddenly someone knocked on the door."Cinyla? Are you there?"I let go of what I was holding and stood up. "Yes sir, I am here!" I opened the door and sir smiled at me."Can you join me later for lunch?" I raised my eyebrows because of his offer."My treat. Forget my offer and the
Cinyla's POVI almost did any position but I don't think I can sleep well anymore. I still can't get over the look of sir from earlier. How quickly he changes his mind! I thought I had no school tomorrow and Monday. I couldn't help but get up and sit down. Ugh! I still have class tomorrow! I looked at my little clock and it was ten o'clock in the evening, but I didn't feel any sleepiness. Thinking about earlier dominated me.What's in Daddy's name?Instead of thinking, I just put my feet down to put on slippers. I'll just go to the kitchen to make some milk. It's because at my age, even though I'm in my 20s, milk still really makes me sleepy.I turned on the light in the kitchen. Grab a new one and a teaspoon, and start brewing. Later I heard footsteps, I bit my lip and stopped for a moment."W-who is that?" I asked loudly in the absence because I knew Mommy was resting."Cinyla, this is your Mommy. Why are you still awake at this hour?" It came closer and I was able to breathe proper
Cinyla's POVSince we had a bad conversation with Mommy yesterday, we are talking to each other now. But it looks vague, because of the silence in the house I know that something will happen next. But to be honest, my head hurt last night just thinking about it. I couldn't say anything else because apart from the words he was saying, I also couldn't understand his actions now.I am currently in our living room checking emails on my laptop. I have school next week because sir gave me leave. It's good to relax, but it's all about memories. But honestly, I'm also hoping that Mommy might change her mind because she knows that I love work."Do you have school, son? Can we talk later?” I stopped scrolling when he came and asked. He was carrying a red box but I didn't pay attention to it."My school starts next week because of the leave given by sir, but I have a walk later, I have a meeting with the boss." I'm lying because if I say that sir and I are going out, what might Mommy think."What