Cinyla's POV There is no communication happened between me and my mother during our breakfast. Even BenChua was just quietly eating as well. His gaze was steady even though I honestly felt that he wanted to break the silence with us. "I'm done eating, thank you! I'm coming in." I seriously promise I'll drink some water first and get up. "Be careful, darling and I am sorry again for last night," she said sincerely. I just responded with a forced smile and left. I don't agree that BenChua will accompany me because it was embarrassing, I'll just wait for the car because I'm wearing fitted pants with my black t-shirt tucked in. Random clothes because now in the office so it's okay to do anything, just don't reveal. While I was waiting, I noticed BenChua's car coming out. I think he has a walk, where does he work? Instead of thinking about them, I just focused on the road so I could park and ride as well. Until a familiar car hit me. "You're on board, I'll take you," BenChua said while
Cinyla's POV I get a hurry when I heard the sharp fall of what was until I saw my mother picking up a plate that had fallen to the floor. "Oh sorry, Cris! The plate is broken." "Just be careful. I'll be home later. Thank you for the food that you prepared. Oh, by the way, did my brother's daughter is big now?" he asked. I heard their conversation and the voice is familiar it is from my Uncle Cris. I was on the side of the stairs, I was surprised by the one next to me. "So it's you!" shocked I said to BenChua next to me. I slapped him for making the storage that seemed to give me nervousness at those times. "Why are you here?! You look like a ghost!" I whispered as I looked at him badly. "I'm sorry, I was just surprised that it broke. I thought your mom and uncle were hurt." his monotonous explanation gave me calm. I was about to go up when he held my right hand. "Just wait," "W-Why? We already know what happened to them I'm going to get dressed," I said and removed his hand fr
Cinyla's POV A few days passed and that person didn't bother me anymore – the person behind giving me nervousness and fear since he bothered me with the texts and calls that he do for all day. "Hey, are you okay? You've been stupid before, is there a problem?" Ben asked in surprise because I suddenly thought that's why he just disappeared like a bubble. It's Saturday and BenChua invited me to go out first because Mama is resting in our house so I agreed with him to absorb some good ambiance. "Y-yes! I just thought of something," I said while looking at him. We are here in Lyuirs Park where many people like to stay here to take a walk and hang out with their loved ones. I don't know why he thought of it, but it's good. He came closer and pinched my nose. "O-ouch! S-STOP!" He touched my nose which turned to tomato now and was annoyed to face him. "BenChua! It hurts so much!" I said giggling."Oh, Sorry just stop thinking about anything, I'm worried. If he disturbs you again, I will k
Cinyla's POV I and BenChua are always been together, I'll admit he's okay with me, reliable, and sociable like him. My accusations against him that he was a bad person were completely false. I was based too much on misconceptions. "Do you want to buy anything else before we go to the park?" he asked while continuing driving."Maybe it's just snacks and drinks because it's bad if we always eat street foods, right? I mean, we also have to be careful with what we eat. When our health is damaged, we will regret it in the end." "Yes, even most of the time prohibited foods are delicious we should take care of our health.""Nice! Are you okay? It's really from you, isn't it?" I wondered because I can't believe it."Well, I need to maintain my body fit and healthy. I'm going to work out again, do you want to come?" He turned our path to buy at a store for our snacks and drinks. "Just answer my question when I get back." It was coming down and left me in the car first. Honestly, whoever wil
Cinyla's POVThose memories are almost flawless, they form over and over again in my mind as if they were a drama going on, and continuing over and over until they are perfect. It's just annoying because I don't know how to forget him, how to get rid of the last words he let out."I love you, Cinyla. I love you.""I love you, Cinyla. I love you.""I love you, Cinyla. I love you."Ugh! It's exhausting!I was already hiding in the pillow because I felt when I was dilated, he was chasing me. Why is he so quick to admit it? I don't even know if he's real or because he's drawn to our relationship. I just took a deep breath and tried to erase from my mind what he said yesterday. I sat down first and adjusted myself.I also thought that I should distance myself from him first, I don't want to deepen his feelings and I don't want to fall for him forever. It’s not right, and I don’t want us to have a deep relationship.I'm just going downstairs to eat and since it's Sunday and I don't have scho
Cinyla's POV I was stunned by the absence as if something was waiting, but the truth was the depth of what I was thinking. It's late at night because mama came home from her walk, and what's even more surprising is that I haven't reached her this morning. We still plan to go to church but I just look like maybe now. "Hi, love! Are you okay? The depth of your thoughts huh?" BenChua asked as he brewed coffee. I looked at it badly and laughed at him. "Why do you call me love? The speed with which you think about what we call we don't even have a label!" I said angrily and took the coffee I was drinking and sat in the living room because later I will take a shower to get ready and leave."Hey, I'm sorry, don't get angry right away. I'm sorry, I'm just advanced in my thinking. Don't you want me to call you love or dear?" He came over and stood beside me as he mixed his coffee in front of me. "No, I just don't want you to be so fast and decisive! It should be knowing each other first, be
Cinyla's POV I can't sleep, until now I've been thinking about what he said this morning. It’s hard to accept, and I can’t absorb everything. Ugh! But there is a part of me that I want to answer."Will you be my girlfriend?"Honestly, many sentences he can say, this is the one I can't answer right away. I want to know him more and I want to understand his personality first before saying YES, and I want to break with my long-distance relationship. But, how? If until now, we don't communicate with each other. As far as I know, he is busy, but this time it takes a lot of time.Instead of wasting time on that, I decided not to think about it because I might lose focus on what I'm going to do right now.I’m currently in front of my laptop and checking my emails to see if I have anything important to take care of or have a new schedule. Although every week is constantly, it can be changed for a purpose; especially when our Head updates on Mondays about tasks, events, and schedules.Since th
Cinyla's POVI was surprised by what I learned about BenChua. I can't imagine after being our dormmate and becoming my suitor, I am now a full-fledged CEO at the place where I work here at Spyanata Incorporation. My future will be different! But kidding aside, I am not like that- I am not a gold digger."Are you okay?" he asked while looking at me."Yes boss!" I replied quickly.He touched my cheek, "Very formal love, but I hope when we're at home love just call me," he whispered with a soft voice.I hit him and laugh at him because after what happened yesterday, I am here in his office with him. It's too big and it's innovative to act, but even then I have less work to do; because when he doesn't have a meeting or work, I'll just brew coffee."All right boss, I'll be at my table first," I said goodbye and went back to my table, I didn't leave or go away because the CEO's secretary was also in his office. He just smiled and went back to what he was doing, and since he had just returned
The world is not fair. Often, in the end, what we want doesn't happen. Like me, I thought that our family would be rebuilt and that my distance from Ben was the key to everything; forgetting and rebuilding oneself is a mistake because, in the end, everything is just a puzzle. On the other hand, I will still try to find peace and stay away from the person who caused me to be broken.I was dumbfounded looking at Daddy's photo, I didn't think that everything would lead to saying goodbye. There was a second chance, but it also seemed like nothing.I was standing at our table and I saw the picture of me and Daddy, this is the most special day for me. "Daddy, it's been almost a month since you disappeared, I haven't even spoken to Ben and your partner Ms. Talia, his conscience couldn't take it. It's sad, but a few days after you were buried, he in the mental hospital. Dad, I thought we would be fine, I thought it would be more painful." I rubbed the photo that I still had, the photo of me a
Cinyla's POVSunday was passed, and I can say that I somehow got a thorn out of my chest. After Ben and I talked, I decided to distance myself from him. My dad is not here in our house, wherever he is. I don't know, but Mommy said he is at the Saint Louis Hospital in Batangas.I sighed, walked around the balcony, and watched the sky. I hope soon, everything will be fine.Until someone called my name. "Cinyla, can I talk to you?" a familiar voice. It is sharp and close to my heart.I turned to where the voice came from. "Oh Mom, you're here. Yes, let's talk downstairs." She smiled and said, "Alright. We'll just wait for you downstairs." I just nodded even though I was wondering why he said our words, maybe he was with someone else. Who is that?I fix myself and go downstairs.While I'm on my way, I see someone that makes me nervous.I didn't expect that he would go, but as I approached him, I tried to calm down and act as normal. I noticed that he is more fine right now, he is wearing a
BenChua's POVAll of them make me stupid. "Damn!"Even if I am not in the mood, I go straight to my VenZua Bar, one of the bars I stumbled upon last year. I'm just going to visit today, not to get to know someone and have fun but to forget what happened. "I hate him! Why did he come back? Why now?" I drove fast while cursing him in my mind. “Damn! Still traffic!” Until my phone rings.I didn't pay attention to that but I put down a bottle of vodka I got at the condo, I didn't want to go to sleep so it was better to go somewhere I knew I could forget somehow. It took me almost half an hour because even though it was late at night, I was still caught up in heavy traffic. Traffic in the Philippines is different. I parked the car and went straight to Venzua Bar. It's not just a bar because it's a 4 store building and anyone can enter as long as they can pay. After all, this is part of business. After I passed the entrance, two muscular men met me. They greeted me and I just smiled, t
Cinyla's POVI rested at home for almost two days, Mommy always prepared food for me and even took care of me. I looked at the big clock on the side of my table, it was almost lunchtime.While I was looking around, feeling the silence, someone suddenly knocked on my door. It was three knocks before I spoke."Come in," I said.My door opened, and it wasn't Mommy who knocked but he, my Father. This time, he appeared without a mask. Carrying the tray of my food and drinking water."Good afternoon, Cinyla. Eat now, I hope you'll be fine. Your Mommy left, so I brought it." I didn't even ask, but she said why she brought it, where is Mommy going to go? this time, it's hot outside."Thank you, where is he going?" I asked coldly."We're just going to buy something to eat later, I said I'd go out alone but he insisted that he be the only one. Alright son, eat now. I'm going to go."He put my food on the table, I didn't say anything because he seemed to feel the coldness of my treatment of him.
Cinyla's POVI woke up early but I chose to sip a tea here on the balcony. I still don't understand everything, most of all I can't accept what happened to Daddy. I want to hug him tightly but I still have a lot of doubts.As I observe the beauty of the sky with different images the clouds form, the lush plants on my balcony, and the appearance of the wind. For a few moments, while I felt the silence, someone messaged me. I put down the tea I was drinking on the table and took out my cellphone to read it.My eyes widened, sir already had five messages. I checked the day and it was Monday today."Oh shocks! I have school today, I forgot and I'm still super chill now."I read them one by one.Sir Ben ChuaGood morning, Cinyla.Received 7:50 amSir Ben ChuaPlease bring me hot chocolate, no sugar added. Thanks!Received 7:57 amSir Ben ChuaHey, why are you doing and not replying to me?Received 7:57 amSir Ben ChuaI checked your office, you are still not there. Is it traffic? Where are
Cinyla's POVToday is my rest day and I'd rather stay home than go anywhere. Mommy is not here today either, she left the morning before. I looked at the clock and it was past eight in the morning. I'm still dumbfounded when I see the ceiling and stare at the light that I didn't turn off last night. I got up, turned it off, and looked around me. I'm messed up!I sat down for a while and stretched until I remembered what happened yesterday. Can I come with you when you see your Dad? His questions make me freeze in my place and make me think about a lot of things. I don't know but I feel something strange. Honestly, there's nothing wrong if he comes along, but I don't have any privacy anymore. I took a deep breath, tried to put aside the things bothering me, and started making my bed. The colors of my bedsheet and pillowcase are simple white and black plain. I have three pillows, two in front and one that I hug, I seem to have gotten used to that arrangement. Because if I don't have
Cinyla's POVI still don't understand sir's offer, why did he see me pretending to be his girlfriend? I knew that he had flirted before that's why I rejected him because I wasn't ready and I didn't know if he was serious or not. His offer is good, but I don't want to fall into a plan that has consequences in the end. I breathed deeply. There is even a problem, he wants to add more.I'm currently sitting at my desk, looking at the black folder he gave me. I still haven't opened it so I don't know and understand anything about what he said about my new rules and obligations for him.He is really strong! You thought I would agree! No! A big NO!I sat up and swallowed, I took the black folder and opened it but suddenly someone knocked on the door."Cinyla? Are you there?"I let go of what I was holding and stood up. "Yes sir, I am here!" I opened the door and sir smiled at me."Can you join me later for lunch?" I raised my eyebrows because of his offer."My treat. Forget my offer and the
Cinyla's POVI almost did any position but I don't think I can sleep well anymore. I still can't get over the look of sir from earlier. How quickly he changes his mind! I thought I had no school tomorrow and Monday. I couldn't help but get up and sit down. Ugh! I still have class tomorrow! I looked at my little clock and it was ten o'clock in the evening, but I didn't feel any sleepiness. Thinking about earlier dominated me.What's in Daddy's name?Instead of thinking, I just put my feet down to put on slippers. I'll just go to the kitchen to make some milk. It's because at my age, even though I'm in my 20s, milk still really makes me sleepy.I turned on the light in the kitchen. Grab a new one and a teaspoon, and start brewing. Later I heard footsteps, I bit my lip and stopped for a moment."W-who is that?" I asked loudly in the absence because I knew Mommy was resting."Cinyla, this is your Mommy. Why are you still awake at this hour?" It came closer and I was able to breathe proper
Cinyla's POVSince we had a bad conversation with Mommy yesterday, we are talking to each other now. But it looks vague, because of the silence in the house I know that something will happen next. But to be honest, my head hurt last night just thinking about it. I couldn't say anything else because apart from the words he was saying, I also couldn't understand his actions now.I am currently in our living room checking emails on my laptop. I have school next week because sir gave me leave. It's good to relax, but it's all about memories. But honestly, I'm also hoping that Mommy might change her mind because she knows that I love work."Do you have school, son? Can we talk later?” I stopped scrolling when he came and asked. He was carrying a red box but I didn't pay attention to it."My school starts next week because of the leave given by sir, but I have a walk later, I have a meeting with the boss." I'm lying because if I say that sir and I are going out, what might Mommy think."What