I finally looked him in the eye, waiting. His gaze settled on me like an incessant coldness and made me tremble inside. What would he do now? "Jakob?" I asked cautiously, because I couldn't think of anything better. He didn't respond. He didn't even bat an eyelash. "Please say something," I asked anxiously, crossing my arms over my chest to feel safer.Jake seemed to have misunderstood this because he looked spellbound at me, or rather at my arms. Damned! How could I defuse this unpleasant situation? Unfortunately, I didn't have an answer to that. Maybe he misunderstood my attitude and thought that I would reject him.I shakily lowered my arms again, but locked my fingers together. Yes, I was quite nervous, quite a lot. So it's no wonder that I took a few steps back. I still didn't know what to expect next and yet I had a bad premonition.Unfortunately, this came true. Jakob balled his hands into fists and before I knew it, he kicked over the candles that he had laboriously put up bef
Jacob's point of view! Eyes glassy and hazy from the cigar smoke, I stared at the amber liquid in my glass and drained it in one gulp. The next moment I heard it shatter into thousands of pieces. That didn't bother me and so I let my gaze wander over the floor as if in a trance. Yes, a few whiskey glasses have already accumulated here, as well as everything that I had found disturbing. My hope of quitting drinking was dwindling. Also, why would I stop getting a new glass only to fill it up with more whiskey and throw it at something? I would get new glasses anyway. Because I could. And I didn't know what else to do. I took a drag on my cigar and got annoyed. Actually, I had stopped with the shit, but given how shitty it was at the moment, I wasn't surprised about it. The day had started badly and since I'd received that damn message and packed my suitcase, I hadn't been up to anything anyway. I still had quite a bit of time before my flight left, nine hours and forty-seven minutes
" Would you also take care of my grave so devotedly when I left this world ." Jacob's words echoed in my head again and again. What did he mean by that? I turned around in amazement, but all I could see was him disappearing through the controls. I looked after him for a long time before finally walking on. There was no point in putting down roots here. There was just as little hope that he would come to his senses. No, because he had once again impressively proven to me what a bastard he was. Rarely have I known someone who took advantage of people so much. In my opinion, that required a healthy dose of ruthlessness, which Jake no doubt possessed. I just wondered why he had shown me a completely different side of himself every now and then. Or was that just an illusion? Maybe I twisted it that way because I just couldn't believe he was so cold-hearted. Actually, I wasn't a naive person, on the contrary, I was rather overly suspicious and for a good reason. And yet Jakob had managed
"I'd say let's cook something first," Krystal suggested with a big smile. Crazy, apparently she had really gotten over it with Jakob more than four years ago. I wasn't surprised about that, because in Tizian she had a dream man at her side who couldn't be more the opposite of his half-brother than anyone else. Although I didn't feel like eating at all, I agreed with her. Krys then headed for the kitchen, but was stopped by her husband. He said: "Sit down with Lia, I'll cook for you". That's exactly what I meant, he was sweet and courteous, exactly what I wanted in my partner. Krystal snapped me out of my thoughts by replying, "No thanks, I want to be back in my old shape or at least be close to it, so I'm at least moving a bit". "I think your curves look great on you," Tizi complimented her charmingly. His wife, on the other hand, blushed. Wow, I didn't know her so embarrassed! That showed you all too well what love made of you. The two floated on clouds with an ease that I deeply
A few days passed. I was feeling a little better now, even though I missed Jakob terribly. I adamantly stuck to my decision not to let myself go so much. Justin had paid me a lot of compliments and always made me smile. During this time he had become an even better friend to me, even though I thought he couldn't top himself.As I got up this morning, I knew that today wasn't going to be any other day. I didn't know why. i just feel it No, I just knew. Sometimes there were things you were damn sure about, and that's what I was.It started with me walking into the kitchen tired and wearing only my dressing gown. A yawning emptiness awaited me there. I found the silence weird and very disturbing since Justin was usually already on his feet. He was a chronic early riser, which for me had the benefit of waking me up when I was about to oversleep.I yawned tiredly and decided to take a shower first, since I was still alone anyway. As the cool water hit me, I sighed happily. It felt incredib
Jacob's point of view!These words had come only very slowly from my lips. I was even surprised that they hadn't gotten stuck in my throat. Unfortunately I had ridden myself into the next shit with it. Now I had to stand my ground and let Giulia in on my biggest secret: my past."In my entire life I have never had anyone but my mother Soraya. She was the only one who was there for me, which unfortunately didn't work out very well because I grew up with my father," I finally began to tell with a look at Giulia and let my tears flow freely, which I incessantly over the cheeks ran.Giulia, on the other hand, hugged me like at the beginning of our conversation. I didn't resist, even though she had thrown bad things at me before, some of which were true. "By the way, I met him at the funeral," I let her know, to which she asked who I was talking about."From Tiziano, the father of Titian and me," I replied, and then Giulia knew who I was talking about. Sobbing, I said: "Now I know everythi
Jacob's point of view! "Everything okay?" I asked carefully, whereupon Giulia answered me: "Yes... Everything is fine so far". Somehow I couldn't quite believe her. It seemed to me more as if she had hesitated. "Are you sure?" I wanted to know, still holding her tightly in my arms. She looked at me, caught. I would have found that very sweet, but the tears that stole from her eyes spoke volumes. She was busy with something that was probably not without. "Thank you for the trust you bring in me," she said instead, clearly confusing me. Before I could speak to her about it, she continued stammering: "Therefore, I would like to place my trust in you." I immediately raised my hands defensively. "Stop. I'm interested in what you want to tell me, but I don't want you to tell me just because I've talked to you about my past." She smiled weakly and shook her head. Then she replied, "You idiot, of course I know, only... I've been carrying this secret around with me for ten years and haven'
I woke up with a sore neck. When I lifted my head, I realized that the pain was even in my shoulders. Great, why was I asleep too? However, I was more concerned with the question of how long I had slept. Looking out my window, I realized that it couldn't be that late because the sun was still shining. And wasn't Jacob with me? This stirred as if on command. "Good morning, awake already?" he greeted me with a smile on his lips. A laugh from me left him a little confused. "I could ask you that, Struwwelpeter," I teased him about his hair standing on end, which looked great on him. "Then it's time for me to go and have a shower," he ignored my pointed comment, but couldn't help but smile. "Are you taking me with you?" I asked seriously again, which made him stare at me in surprise. "Not in the shower, of course. I just thought that you and I could, well, spend the evening together. Maybe a good movie is on? Besides, I don't want to be alone,” I reassured him immediately, which he ackno