Chapter 1 First Kiss

[Agatha POV]

"Agatha!" she calls my name dramatically. She was obviously crying. In this case, I know the reason already because she won't contact me in the dawn if they are okay.

"Do you need me? Do you want me to go there?" I preceded her.

"Yes, please!" she whispered.

Only one word from her. I acted faster than Flash just to go to her, knowing that it was too dangerous already to travel this late.

When I arrived, I instantly went straight to her room. I have a duplicate key, so it is easy for me to get in

Lexie abruptly hugged me when she saw me. I knew it. They broke up again.

"I caught him, Agatha. He's kissing another girl." she sobbed.

"It's better than a man. It's okay for a woman to kiss him, isn't it?" I joked, which gave her a signal to strike me.

"You still have the appetite to joke around while my heart is aching. It's so painful. I did everything. Is it because he can't get what he wants? Which is my body? Is that all they really want from me?!"

"You knew already, then why still asking?."

"How does it feel to give yourself to a man you're not married?"

I suddenly fell silent at her curiosity. Lexie knows I'm a player, having friends with benefits but no strings attached. She has no idea I'm having sex with a girl, not a man.

I was an NBSB, meaning I had no boyfriend since birth.

"Just a piece of advice. Don't do it, Lexie, especially if there is no love. Yes, it might be fun and satisfying in terms of lust and inner desire, but if you are looking for love, do it to the person you really feel love for.

I'm different, Lexie.

I don't make love.

I don't love but fuck hard."

"What?!" she asked, confused.

"I mean, I just want a hard fuck from the guy to please me."

As always, she fell asleep on my chest, crying. I slowly removed myself from her. I watched her as she slept soundly. Just one call from her, and I'm coming right away. Even when we were kids, I was always there to defend her from our bullying classmates.

I think this is what they call true love—loving even if you get nothing in return. You love her even if she doesn't know. Even if you are not in a relationship, it feels like you are.

Am I so stupid?

" Agatha!" she growled and even stretched out her hand to look for me. I took off my pants and lay beside her. She settled down on my chest again.

"Hug!" she demanded, and then I hugged her tightly. We look like we have a relationship, but we are not. This is how we really have been ever since we became best friends.

Sometimes, when we are so close, I feel strange in my body. Am I craving with my best friend? What would she think when she found out?

Lexie might freak the hell out of her. I can't afford to lose her, so she shouldn't sense my true gender. What matters is that I am with her, and I am free to love her even if she doesn’t reciprocate.

As long as She needs me, I will stay. And if the day comes when Lexie is no longer comfortable, I am willing to vanish from her sight. Anything that can make her happy, I'm going to support her. What will be good for her then, be it? I will not be a hindrance.

Lexie barely moved in her lying position. Her face lifted and became close to my cheek. My lips were only about an inch away from hers. I swallowed. I'm tempted to taste her pappy lips, but it can't be a reason for me to lose her.

She moved again, causing me to feel the touch of her boobs on my chest. We're both not wearing bras, so you really can feel it.

I took a deep breath and calmed my aching feelings.

Shit! It's hard to hold back, especially when you love the person next to you and who hugs you this much. Sex was the only missing part of it.

It's almost morning, but I'm still awake.

"Best! Are you still up? I love you .. So much. I don't know what I would do without you." she uttered while half asleep.

I got up to cook breakfast.

[Lexie POV]

When I woke up, Agatha was no longer beside me. I felt sad. I raised, stretching my arm.

I yawned and then stood up. I went to the bathroom to wash and brush my teeth.

I saw my eyes swell from crying last night. Whenever I get hurt because of the wrong man, Agatha is always there to help me out. I don’t know how I would be without her.

I walked out of the room, went downstairs, and saw her busy preparing breakfast. The aroma of my favorite corn beef and fried eggs did not escape my senses.

[Agatha POV]

I glimpse at her on the stairs, just wearing only spaghetti and undies. I turned my gaze away from her before even feeling it uncanny.

Imagine how hard it is to control yourself when the woman with you is like this. Even though her long hair is messy, she still looks gorgeous.

What’s worse is to see how sexy she is in a simple spaghetti blouse and panty. You're right, and she only wears panties every time she sleeps. I often do, too, but I can't take it anymore lately. I prefer wearing cycling shorts to avoid any allurement hunger.

Lexie approached me and then kissed me on the lips. I felt odd because she usually does it only on my cheeks. Perhaps it's just my hallucination.

[Lexie POV]

I was shocked and unknowingly kissed her on the lips, but she didn't react or anything, so I don't think she noticed.

"Good morning!" I greeted her, smiling sparingly... acted cool.